Tag: healing

About That Period (sweet memory) #3

Learning, love, This Person

Within the 10-year range, I was busy trying to heal my mental breakdown. I spent so much resource on that. Consulting to life coaches, religious people, tarot readers, psychologist, etc you name it. It was to validate that I was ok just to know that each of them said I was not ok. My denial that I was not ok became one of the root causes why it took so long to heal. No one from my family and friends knew; no one. They just knew I was into spirituality.

It started with a break-up from someone that I blindly loved in either end of 2009 or early 2010. I can’t remember the exact year because after the break-up I was insisting that the relationship had to proceed while the other side didn’t want to without giving specific reason so it was on and off dates between us.

Officially breaking up, I started a chaotic life that became more complicated with my decision to leave my previous job in 2011 to start focusing on spiritual classes, workshops and consultancies that was actually focusing on the damage. No one knew, what they knew was I was ok.

In late 2012 I met an ex colleague and agreed to join the company where she worked and continued until today.

The new job helped me well distract attention from the excruciating mental pain but I still did rigorous healing as the broken heart was still painfully rooted.

I cannot remember how many sessions with all the professionals and how much money spent for that, what’s remembered was that at the beginning I could not express myself up to a stage that I just spat the stories out when asked. It was not easy to talk about broken heart then accept it then let it go then open heart.

The flight of distress just touched down on runway in around 2018 when finally I could clearly detach from romantic memories–hell yeah that guy got married and had a baby several years ago and I still struggled with stupidity?

And that was the time I started intensely sensing pain in the head. So all these years I ignored the headache because I focused too much on my mental breakdown. When I flash back now and count how many packs of Paramex, Panadol, Neuralgin and other pain killer brands I got in other countries where I traveled in those years, I should have been a trusted ambassador for all of them esp Paramex that was shipped by friends from Jakarta or packed in the luggage when they visited me to Singapore. But truly I am a trusted ambassador of God who created me especially the kidneys that are still healthy after being tortured with processing so much chemical. 😊

my hero 😁 terima kasih ❣️

In Bali Usada I was taught that there are physical body (the body we can physically sense) and spiritual bodies (those we non-physically sense: etheric, chakra, mental).  Whatever happens in one body will affect other bodies and that must have been what had happened to me in those 10 years: physical body tried to balance non-physical body that got seriously sick.

In my medical sessions I asked several doctors what might have caused my diseases while I had relatively healthy life (no drug, no alcohol, no free sex, good teamwork in office, etc); all of them said almost the same thing “might be some stress, might be because you are simply unlucky”. One of them suggested that I review if there was big stressor before I stopped my menses. And it was the break-up. Maybe! Just maybe!

I am not blaming anyone. I thank for having dealt with attachment issue before so I know what is the most to be alert in life. Big lesson is learnt, it’s been a move-on and no look-back.

I just won’t forget that…

this Banksy’s work of art is most relatable to me now

i let my heart fly in Your air, whoever cherishes it with respect, i will give my whole; otherwise, let it fly in Your air until the air within reunites with Your air

…. I can love others but I can never own them. They belong to life which is not theirs either, it is Life owning us.

…. Respect will override love in some situation in an adult mature’s relationship. If whom I love don’t respect me, I will claim dignity and let them go even if they are family members, except if they are my parents.

…. There shall be reciprocity in a relationship. One of the sides might have stronger emotion than the other(s) but they must have balanced effort to keep the connection going. No reciprocity, no relationship. It should be clearly stated, not only implied, not only indirectly quoting. Be a man, not a ghost.

…. No one can love one better than one’s self. Yet there shall not be too much attachment because someday this physical body will have to detach from the spiritual body– death will do all apart.

…. Life is just like that and I accept it just like that. Tears will still fall with an end or separation but the tears are not to cry for my selfish attachment; the tears are to mark that there is a value from something or someone leaving.

…. And other lessons lining like an army of ants❣️

Thank you again and again for giving me loving heart, (sometimes) excessive sweetness, fragility, silliness, naivety, stubbornness, intelligence and whatever I’ve grown with.

Thank you for this humble life, I never want to change anything. I leave it to you.

Dear My Beloved – prayer

Learning, This Person

My Beloved,
please spare me love that heals each other,
that nurtures each other,
that liberates each other,
that expands each other,
that respects each other,
that supports each other,
that is truthful and faithful to each other,
that is true and sweet to each other.

My Beloved, and so be it.

 

Prayer in a Deepavali long weekend in Singapore – 2019

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Thank you for the picture, O Beloved

Water Crystal – a sharing

Learning, love, This Person, Those People

Years ago I read one article about Masaru Emoto, the professor who confirmed with his thousands of experiments that good intention brings good energy to water. I read the article long before Prof. Emoto’s work was translated to Bahasa Indonesia. I remeber very well when I shared about “happy water crystals”, my friends laughed at and left me. I don’t blame them – I talk too much rubbish, crazy things and unbelievable ideas…. I’ve been rubbish to some people. I don’t care lah….

Oh, I don’t want to talk about myself. I want to talk about water and its crystal.

When going around in KLIA, I decided to purchase a chain and a pendant but like usual when buying something it is my heart buying. I won’t take a thing if my heart does not say so. I didn’t have any idea why that pendant was chosen and not the lapis lazuli Turkey eye with a bright diamond which looks very pretty and shiny – you know how strong a Turkey eye is… Instead sapphire was chosen, a simple one with the same price!

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Getting home, I checked the pendant again. What actually its shape is like. Then I realized that it is a seven-hexagon. Oh my…. It might be a message.

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This is the sapphire pendant I bought from Habib.

And after some time the message was deciphered.

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Picture borrowed from http://hado.com/ihm/product/water-crystal-goods/

Seven-hexagon is the shape of water crystal. And why I took sapphire insteadl of lapis lazuli, because sapphire is my birthstone. The Universe emphasizes it to me that I’m born as a sapphire and to be close to water.

I believe water has healing power. But I also believe that only water from a good source is good, water from bad sources or bad because of negative energy should be cleaned and cleansed before use. Using Prof. Emoto’s words, good water has beautiful shape of crystal and we can perfect or repair the shape of water crystal by sending positive energy to the water we’re using. We can send prayers, send positive thought, concentrate positive statement and words to the water. We can do it alone or together. If you are interested in knowing more about him and his project, please Google his name. 🙂

Just to share with you, when I am sick, I would chant some prayers in front of a glass of water, blow the water after praying then drink the water. And mostly I’m cured with that. That is what I always recommend to my friends who ask me what to do when their animals or they themselves are sick.

More than that, I believe that this seven-hexagon sapphire pendant is for me to heal myself and heal the world.

It is a sign. Yes, it is.

Thank you Universe for bringing the message from the Source. I’m hearing, listening and taking actions.

Salaam….

Singapore – July 17, 2016 – 12:24am

A Bit of Animal Healers and Lovers

Bob, Learning, love, Those People

I found one site of an animal healer and got amazed with what she has been doing. The healer name is Susan Grey. She does the healing on site or from a distance. I wish she has long life and be able to heal more and more helpless fellow creatures here on earth.

Very few care about animal healing – the real healing because healing is not only to physical but also to the psychological even spiritual parts of the animals.

Animals can get trauma, animals can be reincarnating souls of previously human so they may need spiritual healing. And, animal healers are helping animals to retrieve back the energy to survive from human threats, life trauma, diseases, etc. What a noble profession we rarely recognise.

My today’s talk to an animal rescuer “Tinny Chen” was really amazing. She is the “mommy” of Moppy, the dog that is now being examined by a highly-dedicated animal healer, a professor in Jakarta. Tinny told me that the professor started his career by being a doctor (to human) then drove his direction to the animal kingdom since he saw that these creatures need him more. This is great!

These two people — Tinny and Prof Koes — along with the supporting people behind them are a group of animal healers; they’re just like a circle of colour pixels with what an animal picture can be drawn beautifully in tact. Each of them heals animals from different aspects: physically and psychologically.

Let’s hope those animal healers bring happy news about the animals, especially Moppy at the moment. Hope Prof Koes can be the hands of Asy-Syifaa who cures Moppy. And, let’s hope Mommy Tinny have everlasting compassion for Moppy and brothers sisters in shelters. And let’s hope that all the surrounding people have positive energy to support them. Let’s hope more people give respect and care to the animals, not consider that “only animals“.

Fyi, from yesterday’s X-Ray we found that there are three bullets in Moppy’s body (one outside skull and two near his rib) and his nose needs to be further analysed for exact diagnose.

The cure of Moppy will be a very good news for all of us, especially for those directly handling him. Let’s pray for the best. Let’s pray that Moppy is healed physically and mentally.

Oye animals…. Forgive me for not doing more than just exposing about your existence. Forgive me for doing very lil’ thing this time. Bless me and love me as like the Asy-Syifaa is always blessing and loving you all. I wish I can be a powerful animal healer. Namaste….

Susan’s web: http://www.distancehealer.net/animal-healing.htm

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Singapore – April 11, 2015 – 12:35pm