Tersandung Cahaya – pengingat (Indonesian)

Tak akan lepas dari ingatanku kutipan dari seorang guru: Sesama murid dilarang memberikan rapot. Artinya, tidak perlu menilai orang-lain dalam perjalanan ini. Masing-masing memanggul salipnya sendiri, setiap diri menangisi lukanya, beban dan segala derita yang didukungnya sendiri. Tak elok menganggap bebanmu lebih berat dan hebat daripada yang lain — menangis dalam diam menelan tapi tertawa saat ada yang mengajak melihat lebih tajam meminjam mata sesama.

Pun, ketika kau melihat diri sebagai pembawa cahaya.
Lalu kau menilai siapa yang membawa cahaya dan siapa yang membawa kegelapan, kau puja pembawa cahaya (versimu) dan kau sentil pembawa kegelapan (versimu). Aduhai, lalu kau menjadi pengamat gelap-terang. Seakan kau paling gape tentang gelap dan terang-Nya.

Kepahitanmu sendiri tak kau tilik, sedangkan rasa di sekitarmu harus menutup diri supaya tak mengendusnya.
Kebijaksanaanmu bagai puncak ilmu, sedangkan rasa di sekitarmu harus memicingkan mata memahami kebenarannya.
Kehalus-budianmu bagai elusan malaikat, sedangkan rasa di sekitarmu bagai tercucuk duri-duri tajam sakit linu ngilu hingga di dasar jiwa.
Kebahagiaanmu bagai warna pelangi, sedangkan rasa di sekitarmu ketakutan kehilangan warna karena tak mampu mengekspresikan diri secara merdeka.

Tapi kupaham, ini hanya spectrum cahaya.
Biar dipandang sebagai spectrum gelap-Nya. Tiada mengapa….
Aku tinggal di sini, di gelap-Nya supaya dapat menonton yang sedang dikucuri kemenangan akan kesadaran cahaya. Aku ada di kesadaran spectrum lainnya dan aku bahagia. Tiada mengapa….
Kubahagia untuk kalian….

Bagaimana jika nanti kau terkurung gelap?
Bagaimana jika tersandung cahaya?
…. Jika ternyata kau terserimpet cahayamu sendiri?

Mengapa tak pernah kau panggil aku ke rengkuhanmu sebelum kau caci?
…. tak kau sapa aku sebelum kau hakimi?
…. tak kau tanyai sebelum kau namai?
Cahayamu mulai nyerimpet dari awal perjalanan kita.
Terlalu silau lalu menyilapkan.
Terlalu dekat hingga menghanguskan.

Tidak ada sesal di rasaku.
Tidak ada maaf akan kukirimkan,
Sebelum kau dapatkan cerlang dari gelapku.

Biar kubahagiai cahayamu.
Sampai kau temukan spectrum yang bening untuk menengok dirimu sendiri, rasamu sendiri.

Runtuh satu pilarmu.
Kurengkuh diriku sendiri, kupersembahkan pada Kanjeng Nabi. Dalam sunyi.

Lagi, kuingat kata guruku “dilarang memberi rapot pada sesama murid” dan akan kulakukan selama aku dalam spectrum cahaya-Nya.

Duh Gusti, mugi paringo ing margi kaleresan
Kados margining menungso kang manggih kanikmatan
Sanes margining menungso kang paduko la’nati

Shollu ‘alaa Sayyidinaa Muhammad….

Temasek – 13 Mei 2018 – 02:07 pagi

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Picture borrowed from Wikipedia.org/wiki/Datei:Spectrum.2400.1800.S.G.png

 

Bold Petals – haiku

Bold petals of red
Roses among thorns dry out
By the Wind of North.

GH Jakarta — May 8, 2018

Dry red rose in autumn garden top view. Flower in fall season sad autumn mood. Wilted rose flower closeup above view shot with copyspace.

https://www.123rf.com/photo_64952693_beautiful-dark-red-rose-in-the-garden-selective-focus-vintage-color-dying-plant-in-autumn-sad-fall-m.html?fromid=b2FvVE5zTW5DRTJwRm93ZFJsV0FOZz09

How – ranting

I’m almost 50?
Gosh! Am I that near to what is called half a century? it gives me goosebump!
What have I done?
To my beloved parents?
To my beloved sisters?
To my beloved brothers?
To my friends?
To my country?
To humanity?
To….

To myself?

Last month I visited a good friend and found more things about her. She has done so much in her life.
She helped me and her colleagues gro professionally.
She did many things to help people in her industry.
She did so much to her mother especially when her mother was in the deathbed.
She travels to see many places.
She plays piano.
She plays violin.
She plays golf.
She hangs out with friends.
She reads spiritual books.
She always comes up with solutions of problems around her.
She dedicates her life to humanity.
She does many many things that I can even only imagine I can do with my mini courage.

Once I told her “My Friend, I think you will not regret your life when you die.”

And she said “You’re right, Rike. I won’t regret my life when I die. I will die happy because I’ve lived happily.”

She said to me, “Be happy. Do something that you have wanted to do but you haven’t. Hey, what about taking music classes?”

Going out from her apartment, I could not stop thinking of what I should do to make my life meaningful for myself and for those I love that I leave when I die.

Life is short and I’ve gotta do something.

Thanks, my Friend for being and inspiration to me.

I will die happy because I’ve lived happily.

Singapore – April 29, 2018 – 02:39

The picture below is of Fifi (the black and white) and Chocho (the ginger), kittens in my Mom’s home. Chocho died of suffering for his back on April 23, 2018 at around 11:15am Jakarta time. Thank you, Chocho for telling me over and over again that you lived happily and died happy. Thank you, my dear kitten. See you across the rainbow bridge….

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Faces – haiku

Facets and faces
On diamonds and humans are
Overt covert beauty —

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Can you see the real things behind the things? You might be able or not but the thing is there you know it or not. Existence is not about the humans’ ability to see through, existence is about that it is there and that’s it. You’ve gotta to reach the fact that you believe what’s true is true, what exists exists without judging what’s true and what exists. My homework for myself.

Temasek – April 28, 2018 – 14:04

Journey – ranting

It is 2018, March! Third month of the 12 months, year is rolling so fast, not long after this it’s gonna be next year. I’m happy that I was given a chance to start 2018 – my fortysomethingth year of life.

In my movie mind I’m a global trotter, walking or running or hitchhiking, taking vehicles. There are a backpack, oh no just a satchel and a small rucksack, a pair of strong yet comfy boots, a hat and wow wow comfy apparel. I have some cash and some plastic money that I can use when needing to spend for food and things. I use Apple Pay anyway.

I’m so far quite a distance from home and still don’t wanna come back. I have some sites to visit. I am in a journey, yes I am. I know where I am going, yet I won’t share with anyone where I’ve been until I reach Finish line. Blogs, vlogs and notes are saved everywhere as I have left fingerprints and footprints there. “Global Trotter was here” is the stamp, seen or unseen. This journey has engraved prayers and wishes on milestones along the path. In rain and shine, I’m not alone yet I’m alone. What a beautiful journey! Thank You.

Where am I going? I know where it is, I just will not tell – it’s a Secret. They told me to be careful of wild boar and snake or tiger and bear or crocodile and quicksand and everything poisonous, dangerous or scary. But I am alive. They reminded me of getting lost or being cheated or getting robbed or kidnapped. But I am safe and sound.

I am on the right path. How do I know? I just know.

I remembered my Mother then made a call clarifying that I was ok and I would proceed. She cried and asked if I would go home soon. I said I am sorry but I have to go. I love you, Goddess of My Life….

I promise to only myself that I will not stop until this journey completes itself. I won’t tell either where I’m heading to. Just don’t worry, I’ll be safe and reach straight home without getting lost because….

…. I have my North Star.

Temasek – March 2, 2018 – 03:05

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Picture borrowed from https://www.reference.com/geography/latitude-north-star-5-degrees-above-horizon-8d32bb0c6f9cb1e2

Something Just Like This – lyrics

Thank you for those who wrote the lyrics and composed the music. It reflects the conversation between my soul and my physical reality. I want something just like this!

For them, I dedicate this plain haiku:

Longing for a song.
I am something just like this.
I accept my this.

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“Something Just Like This”
(with Coldplay)

I’ve been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
Achilles and his gold
Hercules and his gifts
Spiderman’s control
And Batman with his fists
And clearly I don’t see myself upon that list

But she said, “Where d’you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I’m not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts.
Some superhero,
Some fairytale bliss.
Just something I can turn to.
Somebody I can kiss.
I want something just like this.”

Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo

Oh, I want something just like this
I want something just like this

I’ve been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
The testaments they told
The moon and its eclipse
And Superman unrolls
A suit before he lifts
But I’m not the kind of person that it fits

She said, “Where d’you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I’m not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts.
Some superhero,
Some fairytale bliss.
Just something I can turn to.
Somebody I can miss.
I want something just like this.
I want something just like this.”

Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo

“Where d’you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I’m not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts.
Some superhero,
Some fairytale bliss.
Just something I can turn to.
Somebody I can kiss.
I want something just like this.”

Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this

To Write About Someone – ranting

It’s been a while that I could not write long stories. Haiku has been my choice. It enables me to put my ideas into concise version of long winding contemplation.

Suddenly I want to write a long story about someone. Maybe about someone I’ve thought I know very well but in fact I don’t really. I often misunderstand about that person. About my mother….

But again, I don’t know if I can do it well…. I’m just blank.

Green grass and an ant
Is a dot on a paper sheet.
A real confusion.

Still preparing for a better thought.

Jakarta – October 6, 2017 – 23:42

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Picture borrowed from http://www.themost10.com/intelligent-animals-2/

Hero – song

This song by Mariah Carey, Hero has been a good earplug for me. Been feeling so tired of my own self – being not confident with all what I called weaknesses. Until I found that points of weakness are where our strenghts stand out. Enjoy…. ❤

There’s a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don’t have to be afraid
Of what you are
There’s an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you’ll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It’s a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you’ll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don’t let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You’ll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you’ll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you

 

 

Singapore – May 22, 2017 – 00:45

Passed Away

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Our dear Moppy passed away on March 26, 2017 at around 12:14pm Jakarta time. Not a good news for us but we have to face it. He’s lived comfortably in his past years.

I couldn’t write a romantic letter for him earlier as I was too sad to say things about him.

Now that I can write things about him, very little though and not representing my big emotion.

He is happy and comfortable now – happier and more comfortable than when he was in his sick body on earth. And, he is still watching us especially watching Karin Franken who had been taking care of him for his last time before he died. Thank you, Karin – that is what Moppy has said every single day even now.

Moppy, you’ve been our dear dog. Special in your own way, like each of your human buddies are special in our own ways.

Moppy, you’ve changed my perception about dogs. You’ve changed my actions on the animal welfare. You’ve changed my thinking constelation – making me more aware about why we are here….

Moppy, again thank you…. Unlimited thank you.

Moppy, please forgive me for not visiting you for so long…. I know you know why I didn’t come. For you to know that you’ve always been in my diary and in my HEART.

Moppy, be good. Run free! So long, my buddy!

Salaaam….

Temasek – April 2, 2017 – 16:36

My Goodness – headache to the max!

This below video clip by “The Law” was sent by a friend. We’ve never thought of how a rap group (vocal? band? what? never heard of “The Law”) could sing a negative song, a set of negative lyrics about two women (Maia & Meichan of Duo Maia) who truly achieve very high position in Indonesia music world. Only hatred could generate this work.

Just wanna say…. What you sow, what you reap!
This group is over, might never get up again…. I pity their start cum end….

To Maia and Meichan: Good Luck here and after! You have the beauty, the talent and the attitude. Love, love, love…..

These are the lyrics as sung by “The Law”.

Now throw ur hand in the air buat duo maia
Jari tengah di udara buat duo maia
Middle finger’s in the air buat duo maia
Baladewa sluruh dunia acungkan jari tengahmu

Check this, check this You don’t wanna miss
Gw gak pengen menghujat atau berlaku sinis
Tapi duo maia yang katanya formasi baru
Buat gw contoh buruk yang gak pantas ditiru

Gaya harajuku lu lebih mirip cewe brengsek
Ibu tiga anak kok gayanya seperti bom sex
Ngaku jadi musisi tapi kemampuan cetek
Mendingan gw nonton mulan jadi bintang obat ketek

Kemampuan dan skill lu cuma setahi upil
Gw sumpahin album lu gak bakalan berhasil
Tampang vokalis lu kaya bintang bokep miyabi
Kok kaya mirip cewe yang lagi masturbasi

Gw denger-denger sih lu kan ngakunya sarjana
Tapi klakuan minus kaya cewe gak bragama
Gak becus ngurus anak, ngandelin pengacara
Wajar kalo cinta suami lu tertinggal di malaysia

You had all the money, you had all the fame
You had a good family and you have a good man
Tapi lu masih ngotot lu pengen jadi artis
Lu kaga punya bakat semua lagu lu najis

Untung aja lu masih punya suami yang sabar
Walaupun sifat lu tuh udah kaya cewe bar bar
Lu tau rumah tangga lu udah mau bubar
Tapi lu malah minta duit dua ratus milyar

Now throw ur hand in the air buat duo maia
Jari tengah di udara buat duo maia
Middle fingers in the air buat duo maia
Baladewa sluruh dunia acungkan jari tengah (2x)

Ini babak yang baru cobalah kau dengarkan
Semua orang tau lu tuh mabuk ketenaran
Kalo lu emang bener bener punya kemampuan
Kenapa takut bersaing sama dewi dewi dan mulan

Gw suka dewi dewi apalagi mulan
Gw juga suka ratu waktu vokalisnya pingkan
Tapi sekarang vokalisnya kok diganti mei chan
Doi gak pantes nyanyi doi pantesnya mecun

Lebih baik mei chan lu kirim aja ke batam
Gw yakin lebih laku jadi PSK malam
Karena di musik dia gak punya masa depan
Republik cinta bakal bikin lu semua tenggelam

Mulan jameela udah ninggalin ratu
Album dewi dewi masih yang paling laku
Andra and the backbone yang jadi nomer satu
Gw kasih jempol terbalik buat albumnya ratu

Udah deh mendingan cepetan lu insaf
Sebelum baladewa indonesia pada khilaf
Ini cuma nasihat we still love you anyway
Kalo lu kaga suka HOO! E-G-P

Now throw ur hand in the air buat duo maia
Jari tengah di udara buat duo maia
Middle fingers in the air buat duo maia
Baladewa sluruh dunia acungkan jari tengah mu (2x)
 

 

A building like a dragon in the city – September 28, 2016 – 15:32

Angkor Wat – old city

I visited Angkor Wat, Siem Reap of Cambodia last week with three of my friends – Mbak Roh, Mbak Endang and Agnes. We did quasi backpacking – why quasi? Well, we decided to travel light – they flew AirAsia which tickets were purchased one year ago – but pack things in pretty luggage.

We stayed in a cheap inn of USD35.5 per night instead of fancy Park Hyatt or Le Meridien and took tuk-tuk everyday instead of rented car. It was a cool journey!

Some pictures captured show the joy! Enjoy!

Singapore – August 28, 2016 – morning….

I live – free verse

I live forever,
When it I who lives forever.
But I might only live for 70 years,
When it is I who lives for 70 years.

I decide to live forever,
I who is riding planes – many different planes
Travelling through time and space.
Give me life
One at a time.
Then live forever I do.

But this plane will not make me forever for you.
This plane decays by time – this time.
This plane deteriorates by weather – this space.
I won’t live forever in this plane.
Then yes I won’t live forever.

Thanks for being with me when I’m in this plane.
And see you again with me on another space and time because we live forever.
Just know me then you know when we meet again.

I’m happy forever in joy.

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Singapore nowhere – this time of 3:05am

Water Crystal – a sharing

Years ago I read one article about Masaru Emoto, the professor who confirmed with his thousands of experiments that good intention brings good energy to water. I read the article long before Prof. Emoto’s work was translated to Bahasa Indonesia. I remeber very well when I shared about “happy water crystals”, my friends laughed at and left me. I don’t blame them – I talk too much rubbish, crazy things and unbelievable ideas…. I’ve been rubbish to some people. I don’t care lah….

Oh, I don’t want to talk about myself. I want to talk about water and its crystal.

When going around in KLIA, I decided to purchase a chain and a pendant but like usual when buying something it is my heart buying. I won’t take a thing if my heart does not say so. I didn’t have any idea why that pendant was chosen and not the lapis lazuli Turkey eye with a bright diamond which looks very pretty and shiny – you know how strong a Turkey eye is… Instead sapphire was chosen, a simple one with the same price!

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Getting home, I checked the pendant again. What actually its shape is like. Then I realized that it is a seven-hexagon. Oh my…. It might be a message.

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This is the sapphire pendant I bought from Habib.

And after some time the message was deciphered.

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Picture borrowed from http://hado.com/ihm/product/water-crystal-goods/

Seven-hexagon is the shape of water crystal. And why I took sapphire insteadl of lapis lazuli, because sapphire is my birthstone. The Universe emphasizes it to me that I’m born as a sapphire and to be close to water.

I believe water has healing power. But I also believe that only water from a good source is good, water from bad sources or bad because of negative energy should be cleaned and cleansed before use. Using Prof. Emoto’s words, good water has beautiful shape of crystal and we can perfect or repair the shape of water crystal by sending positive energy to the water we’re using. We can send prayers, send positive thought, concentrate positive statement and words to the water. We can do it alone or together. If you are interested in knowing more about him and his project, please Google his name. 🙂

Just to share with you, when I am sick, I would chant some prayers in front of a glass of water, blow the water after praying then drink the water. And mostly I’m cured with that. That is what I always recommend to my friends who ask me what to do when their animals or they themselves are sick.

More than that, I believe that this seven-hexagon sapphire pendant is for me to heal myself and heal the world.

It is a sign. Yes, it is.

Thank you Universe for bringing the message from the Source. I’m hearing, listening and taking actions.

Salaam….

Singapore – July 17, 2016 – 12:24am

Lasia Wayan Bali

I love Bali, one of 17,504 islands in my beloved country, Indonesia. It has become my playground for the past several years. There is always thing to do there: meeting friends, joining some retreat programs, attending music concerts or festivals, visiting family or just doing nothing by the rice fields or seaside. I mostly go to Bali with my friends, at least two of us, maximum five of us.

But, wait! This writing is not about me. It is about a tour guide who has always accompanied us in Bali. Yes, I’m promoting him for anyone of you who happens to visit Bali.

His name is Lasia Wayan or “Bli Jerry”.

He’s always the driver, tour guide cum photographer for all of us. So far we haven’t decided to replace him with anyone else – just fyi, if he is not available, I’d just take taxi and not call other tour guides or drivers. He has become a kind of mascot for us. He drives us to any destinations we want to go to. He explains about that location in his own way – such a hillarious man. He also takes picture for us.

Yes, he is also a photographer. He is a Canon person, while we are Nikon people. But he would confidently grab our cameras and shoot for us.

“Ok, please get ready, Ladies…. One, two, three….!”

“Aen twee drie!”

“Satu, dua, tiga!”

“Un, deux, trois!”

He is using any language he remembers. No, no he does not speak many languages — he masters English but knows a bit about some others’ survival level.

He is a funny guy but we love him as a friend – he is a helpful and friendly Balinese. Seems that he is lvoed by other clients, too. Even one of his client from France has created a website to collect his work.

Interested to see? Here it is….

http://www.jerryphotography.com/portfolio.html

And, here is his picture.

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Aku cinta Bali, salah satu dari 17,504 total pulai di negara yang sangat kucintai, Indonesia. Bali sudah semacam tempat main beberapa tahun belakangan ini. Ada saja yang bisa dilakukan di sana: ketemu teman lah, ikutan retreat, nonton konser musik atau festival jazz, anjangsana sepupu-sepupu, atau sekadar santai nggak ngapa-ngapain di pinggir sawah atau pantai. Seringnya kita ke sana barengan, minimal dua orang maksimal lima orang.

Tapi tunggu, tulisan ini bukan tentang saya atau Bali, Tulisan ini dimaksudkan tentang pemandu wisata yang selalu menemani kami selama di Bali. Ya, saya sedang mempromosikan dia kepada Anda yang ada keinginan mengunjungi Bali.

Namanya adalah Lasia Wayan atau “Bli Jerry”.

Beli Jerry selalu menjadi supir, pemandu wisata sekaligus juru foto kami. Sampai saat ini sih kami belum ada rencana menggantikan posisi beliau dengan yang lain. Jadi kalau dia sedang tidak bisa mengantar kami, biasanya kami ambil taksi, pergi sendiri tanpa menyewa supir atau pemandu wisata lain. Dia udah jadi maskot buat kita. Dia nyupirin kemana kita mau pergi. Dia menerangkan tentang lokasi yang kita kunjungi – caranya menjelaskan biasanya dicampuri kelucuan-kelucuan. Dia juga memotret kita.

Yes, dia adalah juru foto. Dia ini orang Canon, sedangkan kita semua orang Nikon. Tapi tetep aja dia pede ambil kamera kami buat motret-motret kita.

“Ok, tolong bersiap, Ladies…. One, two, three….!”

“Aen twee drie!”

“Satu, dua, tiga!”

“Un, deux, trois!”

Dia sih pakai bahasa apa saja yang dia ingat. Dia sih nggak menguasai banyak bahasa, cuma Bahasa Inggris tapi dikit-dikit beberapa bahasa dia bisa survival level.

Bli Jerry ini lucu banget tapi kita sayang dia sebagai teman lah – dia sini termasuk orang Bali yang suka menolong dan ramah. Kelihatannya pelanggan dia yang lain juga menyayangi dia juga. Sampai-sampai ada seorang pelanggan dari Perancis yang membuatkan dia situs web untuk mengumpulkan foto-foto hasil jepretannya.

Pengen lihat? Ini dia….

http://www.jerryphotography.com/portfolio.html

Foto Bli Jerry ada di versi Bahasa Inggris di atas.

 

Temasek – January 10, 2016 – 5:01pm

RIP, Puca The Cat

Puca, a sweet kitten rescued by one of animal rescuers in Jakarta just decided to go home on September 2, 2015 morning (3:30am). He had been given optimum treatment including apparatus to support this sweet little creature.

This angel was very weak, found starving and breathing heavily. Thanks to Tria Wesling, an angelic lady who has rescued a quite number of cats in the past six months. God bless her….

Puca…. The name was inspired by a name of a dog that was rescued by another friend of ours in Jakarta. Like Puca the cat, the dog was rescued in a very bad condition and that’s why Tria named this sweet kitten after the dog’s name, to always become inspiration for the rescuer.

Puca the kitten, are you happy now? Yes, for sure…. I apologise for not being able to see you before you departed to the playground across the border. Puca is indeed happy….

I hope more stray cats and dogs are rescued and get a loving and safe home….

Singapore – October 25, 2015 – 03:36am

Blacky and Amie

I support animal lovers and rescuers by praying for them or when I’m able I’d like to donate or accompany them to take care of those animals. But honestly I mostly support them from a distance…. The lowest level of caring but the best I can.

About two weeks ago a friend of mine texted me to pray for Blacky, a little cutie pie that was suffering from vomitting after every meal of his. Blacky, a black-with-white-spots kitten was waiting for exchanging blessings with me.

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This is Blacky, when he was up and around.

Blacky was transported by his mommy named Amie by bus for about 3 hours. What a lovely journey for Blacky and Amie the mommy….! To get him cured. Vet said that Blacky suffered from kidney disfunction. Or, at least that was the result after some examination by the vet plus X-Ray.

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Blacky and mommy Amie

Mommy had to go home to Tangerang, Banten because she had to work. But Blacky ought to stay — he was exhausted and needed some rest because of Tangerang – Jakarta trip and his sickness. Then it was decided to put Blacky in an animal clinic in Kemang.

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Blacky was not getting better. He kept vomitting and decided to leave, he was departing to the land across beautiful ocean. On his last day he ate a little and got positive energy support from another friend of mine. But Blacky really wanted to leave. He was happy and still is now.

Blacky felt the love of mommy Amie and thanked the Universe for sending her to take care of him in his very short life span. He was serving himself as a cat and it was his best serviceat that time. He would love to serve a better role in his next span of life and the Universe already grants his wish.

He will be borne as a boy or a girl who gets so much love…. Namaste….
He will be borne as a boy or a girl who is raised by loving and caring parents…. Namaste.
He is blessed and giving blessings.

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Breastfed together to mommy cat

Thank you Blacky for being present in my life although we never met face to face…. I feel the love of yours and mommy Amie’s love.

Please be safe in your trip to your better future. Til we meet again….

Jalan Putri Hijau, Medan – October 2, 2015 – 12:23am

Not A Good Bye

It’s hard to say goodbye especially to them whom we love so much, who have taken good care of us and with whom we spend most good time together.

When I was around 12, our parents decided to move to another city and all the children would go. I remember of feeling so excited because I knew I would have new friends and many other things new. But when the day was approaching, I realized that I would lose my best friends: Luluk, Nanik, Timbul, and others with many many precious moments remaining memories with their faces lingering around my mind. But again, I had to go. And I went…. With tears.

Now, I still remember them. I communicate with them and appreciate our noble friendship.

Moppy, the beloved dog of ours is now being walked by Angels accompanied by us to the Heaven. I don’t believe in Dog Heaven. Heaven is just heaven for ALL. We are walking Moppy to accompany him to cross the bridge as well as to see if our home near him in the next village is ready to occupy.

Moppy is so worried because his day is approaching – I know how he feels because he is experiencing a good bye to his companions he has trusted. He doesn’t want to be forgotten. He wants to be forever guardian for his rescuers. He wants to protect a group of people whom he recognize having been the real rescuers of animals. He is in grief of leaving all those people un-protected because he knows those people are are kind-hearted but sometimes vulnerable.

Moppy, Moppy, Moppy….
Please let go….
Please don’t worry….
Please remember that we’ll always be your family, here or across the bridge.
Archangel Michael already embraces you. I know you know it, Moppy Mopsy baby….

Moppy my dear dog….
See the light and please embark the ready boat.

We are not saying good-bye, we are ending one circle cycle to start another circle cycle. We will always meet in one start or end, or even in every dot to form a full circle. So, please don’t worry, boy…..

Hey, hey, Boatman….
Please carry our beloved dog over to the end of this journey and ask him to wait for just a little while before meeting with us again.

He’s not forgotten, he is not abandoned and he will never undergo the same sufferings anymore.

He can be a king, he can be a prince, he can be a queen, he can be a princess…. Or whatever he wants to be when he meets me someday….

Only one thing, we love you dearly forever, beyond space and time.

The love emitting from Moppy’s heart has made a group of strangers realize that a dog is not a just a dog. Moppy is a special dog that offers love, compassion, protection, caring, responsibility…. Moppy is a special dog. So special to be loved, remembered. No replacement for you, Moppy boy!

We love you! Hey, hey, boy…. Please send our best regards to someone sitting under the palm tree. Tell him not to stop sending love to us, that we miss him and that you are delivered for him. Be good, Moppy boy….

Much much love is in your pocket, boy….

Sholawat…. (thousands of times)

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Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud,
Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud, Yaa Waduud…

This is to celebrate how love can connect some tiny dots in this enormous life. Thank you Moppy, Tinny, Karin, Jodi, Tristi, Tria.

Tulungagung, July 24, 2015 – 9:43am

Google – Father’s Day

Do you celebrate Father’s Day? Frankly, I myself don’t. But today I found Google commemorated Father’s Day and I’ve got amazed with the green animated doodles….

So sweet of how they show the father-child bonds. Thanks Google for reminding me of how much my father loved me…. I love you so much, Bapak.

Just to share with you some screenshots captured by my Mac.

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Penang – June 21, 2015 – 12:16am

Animal Rescuers – Meowy Cat Shelter, Penang

I’m in Penang. Again.
It’s gonna be a fun day tomorrow – going for a durian party with my team to Balik Pulau. But it’s not the most impressive of my current trip. The tiptop of my gratitude is meeting with two animal rescuers: Pauline and Alexis, both are from Meowy Cat Shelter.

I saw one kitten cry desperately in front of hotel when I got back from a meeting but I could not rescue it because I was not allowed to go into the room with any pet so I browsed the Net to find any cat lover community in the island but failed. I called a friend – who is afraid of cat – to ask if she could recommend me to a cat lover, expectedly failed. Another friend, failed as well. Then I sent one short message to a random contact I got from the Net saying that I saw a cat bla bla bla…. – no reply. I decided to go up to my room, while the cat was frightened and hid under a white car parked exclusively next to the wheelchair ramp. It was a sad moment – not being able to help a helpless creature.

One of my friends unexpectedly iMessage-d me that she was parking her car in front of hotel lobby to get the kitten to her house before being delivered to SPCA in Jelutong. So, I flew downstairs meeting her hoping that the kitten was still there. I brought a bag for a rescue preparation.

But it wasn’t there, the car was also gone. The security guard who also saw the kitten told me that he’d tried his best to seek but in vain…. I patrolled around the hotel and apartment complex for the baby – no appearance. So, I asked her to leave because it was already 10:00pm, while she should have taken care of her family after work.

Surprisingly, my SMS to the random contact was replied saying “Please contact Alexis, I’m not in Penang right now. She’ll take the kitten. Meanwhile, if possible please smuggle the cat into the room until Alexis arrives. Thanks, Pauline.”

I told her that the kitten was nowhere to find. But she said “Find or not, please contact Alexis. We are from Meowy Cat Shelter…. You can find us in Facebook.”

A long conversation through Whatsapp happened afterwards, ended in an appointment to meet up in my next trip to Penang.

I also called Alexis twice telling her what was happening, I promised her to contact her if I see the kitten and even bring to her as long as I find it before I leave to Singapore on Friday.

This trip I might get a bit of despair because of not being able to 100% solve one particular case but I can feel a bit of joy of meeting beautiful souls like Pauline and Alexis above….

Life is offering a balance between yin and yang, even in a very simple way so no need to feel so dearly scared of not being able to smoothly move on (= on single piece of thin hair).

Thank you dear Lil’ Kitten for connecting me with Pauline and Alexis during this limbo.

I hope I can meet you oye kitten, Pauline and Alexis. God bless you!

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Penang – June 15, 2015 – 11:59pm