Sun is here with me,

Warming frozen heart to melt

And flow to ocean.

London – September 18, 2019 / 19:30

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My dear friend Lucy accompanied me to stroll along the Thames river bank. We started by greeting Eros in the Piccadilly then having big lunch at Srilankan restaurant, walking down the river bank while enjoying the warmth of sun and the beauty of galleries plus the outside of Globe Theatre where she works. We ended at the Borough Market where we clenched our thirst with fruit juices, tasted some cheese, bought some tea and truffle.

Friendship never fails me. 💝

Thanks for the warm friendship. See you next time with better stories. Lotta of love and blessings for both of us…. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

The burning incense

Brings smoke of fragrance upward

To the unroofed Soul.

Chisholme Institute Scotland – September 16, 2019 / 20:42

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Last week was one detail of life that might change the whole journey of mine. It has woken up a corner in the Soul that probably has been asleep or half asleep for so long. The material, the discussion, the social interaction, the spiritual connection, the away from home — all those are best combined to drive an enlightenment. What a word! Yes, one big leap a man should acknowledge.

I noted a lot of things happening inside of me. Let me keep them in my heart as part of the Hidden Treasure that is ready to explode into a realm of creation. In my very life. Be!

Among lessons harvested from the course is sincerity.

When it happened, it happened. Why not letting go?

When I know it will happen, it will happen. Why not accepting it?

When it doesn’t happen, it doesn’t. Why not moving on?

The why-nots that can only be materialised with sincerity—

Not all that I want is fulfilled.

Not all that I need is provided – yet all that is provided is what I need.

What I have is what I accept with heart and soul.

What is here now is what I embrace. What is not doesn’t bother me.

Senses become more sensitive, yet the stimuli become more subtle. That’s my next milestone to gain accuracy in intricacy.

I can’t say more.

I’m grateful.

Of A Corner Chair

The beauty of solitude

Is truly revealed.

Scotland, September 15, 2019 / 10:00am

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This chair has been my companion for the past two days since my roommates Maddy and Gill went back to Manchester and Edinburgh after the course. I sat on it contemplating what I’ve studied, if the understanding is sitting there inside of my bezel of thought with good safeguarding not to escape.

I’m now sitting on a bench next to a man’s monument, contemplating what I’ve known about myself. Have I known myself as myself? Have I known Him? Have I known?

I’m grateful.

Do you need two taps?

Why not one that can adjust

The temperature?

Scotland – September 14, 2019 / 08:45

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I always find two taps in Great Britain’s toilet or shower – hot and cold. Use them as per your need. It works quite well for British I guess…. But not for me.

When I use the hot tap, it will be too hot after some time. When I use the cold tap, it will freeze my body alive for showering in early day or evening time.

I don’t know why they need two taps, while one tap that can adjust the temperature of water has worked wonder in other countries. Again why still keep two taps?

😼

A Hidden Treasure’s

Isolated and unseen:

To know in oneness.

Scotland – September 12, 2019 / 14:00

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Some topics are better to remain un-discussed, beautifully kept un-said.

I’m grateful.

How should morning start?

With excitement of quest to

Self discovery—

Scotland – September 11, 2019 / 18:45

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My 4th day of course

Layer by layer we are facilitated to continue our journey to know the image of the true vision of His.

Excitement, amazement, discovery and self honesty are mostly what color our days of study, work and meditation.

And one more thing: this is the in-house course whose food is super good in each of every meal time.

The secret message:

I’ll love you until I can’t.

A trick in a note —

Scotland – September 9, 2019 / 8:32am

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One of “mistakes” made in life might be disclosing your genuine feeling to someone (who doesn’t even care) then you being haunted by the stupid feeling for making that “mistake”. If it wasn’t said at all, you would have been as normal as ever before, as a secret admirer until slowly figure out a way out.

Once upon a time among that stupid feeling High God is sending a note through the silence: just love until you can’t love anymore. Love isn’t about reciprocal actions or exchanging common feeling between two physical bodies, it is about an acknowledgment of the existence of the Lover and the Beloved interacting in higher levels — so, it shouldn’t be problematic to be broken hearted as it is only your emotion (pride) which is hurt, the Soul (sincerity) is never broken. As the Soul is never broken, and so the Love is intact.

Dear Life, some notes are just made tricky and teasing.

But alas! That’s what human being shall meet every now and then.

Life can’t be more beautiful than it is now. Thank you for letting me realize that there is Love within.

Spread of Milkyway

Framed by window: does it spell

Answers to the quest?

Scotland – September 7, 2019 / 11:20am

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It was a beautiful night last night, the sky was so generous: hundreds of clusters of stars were displayed clearly and I could see them through my roof window.

I wondered who lived in the faraway celestial bodies. Are they aware of me watching them floating and spangling? Do they know about me? Do they even care about me existing? Or, they are as busy as me overthinking and overanalyzing about each other’s existence?

It is the Milkyway in which we are sitting on a plane circumambulating a center to another center to another center to another center…. to the ultimate center. An everlasting quest —

Sheep graze in the moor.

Stroll I through the hill upward

To the monument.

Scotland – September 6, 2019 / 12:50

This place is a perfect getaway. The grass, the trees, the breeze, the wildlife, the silence move into all my senses and stay there and cajole me to be peaceful.

What a magnificent birthday gift for me this very year. Thank You forever, The Most Compassionate and Most Merciful. 🙏🏼

The ride is coming,

My birthday in holiday

Compliments the year.

Temasek – September 3, 2019 / 20:00

All is packed. 24 hours from now I’ll be in a flight for a terrific holiday – new colours, new topics of discussion, a healing for my broken heart 😎 and of course a bunch of new experiences….

Thank you, Life for all the blessings every single second I’ve counted. Thank you, Love for all the life lessons every single breath I’ve taken. Thank you forever….

💝

She’s packing for off.

Trunk is big enough for all.

Three more days to go–

Singapore – September 1, 2019 / 22:45

The excitement of holiday mixed with stressors has urged that I need to relax. It is my God-knows-how-many-times of my solo traveling, always giving me excitement. But this one is the second special one coz I’ll visit my 2nd dream land – Gosh, the visa itself put my biz trips in a risk of cancellation.

And so I did some early packing two weeks ago but found that my luggage was not big enough to contain the ones in the packing list. I decided to buy a trunk just yesterday and repacked this afternoon. The new trunk which has bigger room fits the packing list (minus my Wellington that will be in one day before flight). What a relief!

Some stress is lingering around me though. All work must be completed as I don’t wanna owe any prioritised tasks during my day off. So I’ve worked like crazy for the past one week – but fun was always inserted, like checking trivial things in the Pinterest, WP and IG. I deactivated my Facebook because it has given me too much non sense and I’ve been feeling so well without this bloody social medium.

Been so confused about my emotions recently and so dumb about my own naked honesty and stupidity…. So, I hope this year’s holiday can bring me some enlightenment back to my inner peace.

Life, I know all that come are always lessons for me. I know you’ve served me with what I bravely requested. I know you’ve managed to make me even stronger and more flexible. Just one more request: would you mind making it clearer?

☺️

Thin cloud after rain–

If trust can be bought, kind of

Worrisome it be.

Jalan Imbi KL, MY – August 29, 2019 / 07:40

One topic has squeezed my brain. 🤯

God, why do some people only think about money?

I’m not rich myself and sad to see poverty preserved. I’m not very smart but upset to see stupidity maintained.

This situation is what makes holiday looks so promising for me…. Holiday pray…. 😎

I napped a lot today. And with the long doze, I did miss many things! Hot tea, lunch, messages and a biking appointment.

That’s not what I wanna share though. I just realised that I don’t remember most of my dreams anymore. I am very sure I’ve dreamt a lot but can’t recall the details. Sometimes I get up in the middle of my sleep just to realise I’ve dreamt but what dream??? I didn’t try to collect my remembrance, just went back to sleep or sometimes just decided to start the day earlier.

Only dreams that are bizarre perch on my mind clearly and in a longer time. Sometimes I can’t even get rid of it like two that I’ll tell you below.

If you have some ideas, would you share your thought?

Once I dreamt of entering a super big room where all audience were men. They were gathering, waiting for my arrival. They stared at me with scary grin. Their skulls are transparent and I could see the colors of brains in each of their heads. Most of them were red and they were full with anger. Some of them were green and blue less anger but with vein of fear. I saw one very weird brain – it was clear with some purple and gold. Suddenly the reddest brain greeted me very loudly and asked me to sit down in one chair in front of their long table.

The man with purple gold brain didn’t say a word. He took a seat next to me. Gosh! He might be a guard.

Everybody looked at me without words. But their brains were moving then bursting their colors to my face!!!

Then I woke up brutally. What a dream!

Until now I couldn’t understand what the dream is about. I’m also wondering what happened to the guy with the purple gold brain next to me.

Today in my nap I dreamt a bizzarre dream again. A cougar, a koala, a wolf and a lizard fell down through a spotlight and walked on to me. Their eyes were warmly friendly staring at me. There was swirling colors of purple and gold bursting from their eyes and splashing on my face!!!

I woke up brutally. Like usual I look for my iPhone and checked some missed messages then replied to them.

Colourful dreams. Weird though….

Singapore – August 25, 2019 / 20:17

It is a throwback memory when playing hard was needed after battling hard.

She found this morning

The bike back rack lost one wheel.

Put a book to stand.

Temasek – August 24, 2019 / 08:57

Unfolding my bike, I found my beloved blue lost its left rack wheel. Gosh! When did it happen? When I raced with the wind? When I crashed the fence? Or, when I paddled in the narrow aisle? Not sure, just when I didn’t see it. Gotta find new wheel? Or even new rack? 🤨

For now let’s use a book so that it can stand when not folded.

Nice morning to start a weekend!

A martyr has died

To feed me in a dining.

Prawn stared at me, smiled.

Thanks for the nice dining after flight.

A not so nice flight had made me and my colleague starved and we decided to visit JEWEL CHANGI (for the first time, in fact we go to this airport every single week). And we found one recommended restaurant. Ordering, dining, chatting, gossiping, then going home before welcoming next week with fresher selves.

Temasek – August 23, 2019 / 21:34

my mood 🎶