Happy You’re Alive

My second Coldplay show watching after Tokyo Dome.

This time I went with my best friend (who was with me in Tokyo Dome) and my brother’s sons who became our body guards.

So happy I am alive at the same time with you. So happy you’re alive!

Jan 27, 2024 – Singapore National Stadium

Turning Point

Fragrance of sambac
Ferries the wish to the love
Reborn with new scents.

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The death of my beloved nephew at young age (22 yo) is one extreme turning point in how I see life and what is in it.

I am not sad anymore and not considering it a loss anymore. Just drying tears and grateful smiles so — remembering how good his life was. How someone with so big mental wound could survive life by serving others in such a fun witty ways. 🥰 We now know how much we loved him and how tremendously he loved us.

Yet….

reborn

not interested in talking in group except for work;

prefer seeing life more lightly yet deeply at the same time;

choose to seclude myself by doing what I can do genuinely; if not, I will stay away;

respond to human interaction differently and it might have hurt people in outer rings; it doesn’t matter

still the same human being yet not the same anymore;

so amazed how losing loved ones can change someone so significantly. And the reality shows me whom are real and unreal, true and untrue…. 💚

Life is mysteriously beautiful.

Thank You so very much!

Alfatihah.

my younger brother’s 1st son was a newborn death; my older brother’s sons: one died at 10, the other at 22 wishing them to be reborn with love, prosperity and luck 💕😊 you’re (always) in my heart and (sometimes) at my left wrist, boys! 💕💕😊

Memory of Fun

Vito and Ocka in fun flash rehearsal in the costume storage room 😁😘

💕

his life was about fun and memory about him should be about fun, too