I Bow to The Divine in You

The bow that launches
Is the arrow that is shot:
An exhibit by the
One
That honour is inevitably
Gorgeous
For that
Respecting
From that
Witnessing.

Salute to the bowstring.

โ€”โ€”

I have learnt how to genuinely respect my teachers and other human beings even more after learning meditation in Bali Usada โ€” I humbly thank you, Pak Merta Ada. I bow to the divine in you and all my fellow Tapa Brata participants ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

it was a sunny day so Pak Merta Ada invited us all to end the Tapa Brata with 1-hour meditation under the blessed bodhi tree โ€” hope health and calmness be granted to all of us โ™ฅ๏ธ

Pak Ishak giving his testimony about the noble silence, Ibu Lady his wife video shooting him โ€” the oldest participants in this Tapa Brata 2 we all cordially respect

canang under a tree as a daily respect to it for being part of the environment protection

torch ginger is the most grown herb in Bali Usada meditation center โ€” yummy and fragrant when cooked

๐Ÿ’š


Three of us stayed in bungalow #4 for 12 days of which in 1st-11th we didnโ€™t talk to each other. We just took turn of using bathroom, switching on/off light at 3:30am and 10:00pm, making sure towel racks were sunbathed, replenishing toilet tissue, cleaning bathroom. All were done in silence in between meditation sessions, physical exercises, meals and lectures. Only at the last night after Tapa Brata was officially summed up, we could not stop sharing about our life journey until 2:00am.

Tami is 32, Fitri is 33 and I am 48: I am the oldest but I am the baby in meditation โ€” they meditated 1.5 hours without changing position, I did but could not stop โ€œngereogโ€ in the last 5 to 10 minutes.

My age doesnโ€™t mean anything with these 2 ladies of harmonious mind.

See you again, my little sisters! Anicca!
๐Ÿ’•

ngereog literally means performing reog dance; Tami used the word to describe someoneโ€™s intense movement during meditation due to muscle stress ๐Ÿ˜‚

Ibu Lady, Srimurni and I showered by the morning light right after morning meditation and no shower (yet) โ€” Srimurni was one of those could not stop talking to me after the Tapa Brata ๐Ÿ˜„

pure friendship is such a magical bond ๐Ÿ’•

Surrender

With no white towel
I surrender
To the realm that hugs this heart.
I am water flowing
With no effort
To the ocean that waits for this mind.
How would this name
Say no to a call that sings love songs?
I submit everything
With a smile
And grace.
Body, mind, spirit and soulโ€”

-

Jun 10, 2023
when the air taps my whole reality
with everything subtle and overwhelming

โ€”โ€”

please excuse my strong arms ๐Ÿ˜€

after the Tapa Brata my classmates and I are still escorted to meditate everyday of 60 minutes for 90 days

it should be 36th day today but i only have 33 days in which i am able to do full meditation โ€” in fact my doctor was quite surprised that unbelievable progress is indicated in better numbers from the laboratory test result after i meditate regularly โ€” happy tears ๐Ÿฅน

my health is much better with calmness that is on track and harmonious thought that builds gradually

iโ€™ve registered to next level Tapa Brata next Sep so i can get more benefits to help certain issues in this beloved aging body and to strengthen my mind

canโ€™t wait to meet with the wise teachers who guide us and humble caretakers who help us with daily needs in Forest Island ๐Ÿฅฐ

i donโ€™t know for sure what i can share from my achievement through meditation yet maybe someday i can help others reduce health complaints at low cost โ€” iโ€™ve always wanted to cure diseases with fragrance and herbs; my high intelligent friends said โ€œpseudoscience, a crap wrapped in fancy paperโ€, i said โ€œit doesnโ€™t matter at least i can help them feel calmer and think positiveโ€

all what happen in my life are like magic both the unexpected and expected โ€” i hope my meditation brings more good magical celebrations to me and my beloved family and friends

and allโ€ฆ

May All Beings Be Happy

๐Ÿ’•

Truly Light Life

How much am I true
To this self?
As true as
The pretty
And the ugly
In me
In front of mirrors
Reflecting
What they love to see.
Life is light.
Light is true.

To this self do I say:
Walk truly as true as white clouds hanging over green trees.
Walk lightly as light as foot steps on green grass.

โ€”โ€”

i stole my photo from an Instagram story of someone who secretly took my photo before the Tapa Brata started โ€” i am not a truly physically good photo model but i am a human being making effort to be true โ™ฅ๏ธ i hope to see this photo owner again some day only heaven knows when and say thank you for showing my strong arms to the world ๐Ÿ˜‚

Knowing Who

Knowing whoโ€™s within
Behind an unlocked door. Who?
Look at the mirror

โ€”

Loving kindness doesnโ€™t belong to one particular religion. It is not a domain, it is universal. Thanks for the consistent reminder about it.

May all beings be happy.

Salaam.

Pak Merta Ada with 7 of 32 students in his 881st Tapa Brata โ€” thank you, Bapak ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

Back Online

Life is just like this:
A line with two ends. Circleโ€”
Choose the best angle.

โ€”-

They released us from the silence on May 5 at 11am before lunch time and gave us our gadgets back at 4pm. We were so excited to talk than to play the gadgets; we gathered in the dining hall and shared what we experienced during the noble silence.

We didnโ€™t die without gadgets, no we didnโ€™t. Yet we donโ€™t die because of gadgets, either. Gadgets are just a tool to use wisely.

Each of us couldnโ€™t thank more for everything.

May all beings be happy.

Salaam.

Pak Merta, our meditation teacher

Pak Kourma โ€” our daily instructor

Pak Souca โ€” our daily caretaker ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

our last session of meditation was loving kindness meditation for daily life; the video camera was prepared for sharing session at the end

Quiet Noise

Quiet and noise
Are both luxury
Which cross clarify
And cross verify.
Both cost so high
In each phase.
At times each is a spy
To bug each other
To find when the best time
To be quiet
Or
To be noisy.

โ€”

I am doing a sacred silence retreat next week. Called Tapa Brata, this retreat is where we will meditate most of the time in a day. Pak Merta is a devoted Buddhist who has been opening this meditation center for years to promote self health and at certain level herbal medication teaching. I am not a Buddhist but I feel that this retreat has helped me a lot to calm my mind.

There wonโ€™t be any interaction with others directly during the retreat. No talking. No reading. No writing. No listening except to the meditation guidance and sound of nature in Forest Island. All gadgets will be safe-kept by the organiser so we will be totally offline human beings.

It is about communicating with oneโ€™s self.

The interaction is primarily within. I remember how hard it was for me in my first Tapa Brata in 2018 just to not say good morning and good night to my roommates on the first day. Hope this one is easier for me.

๐Ÿ’

that joglo (the building with terracotta roof) is the meditation hall, two jinengs (Balinese rice storage) are sleeping quarters (only for male), 9 bungalows are located behind the joglo for meditators to sleep, the dog is in front of the dining joglo

the dog? he was with whom everyone wanted to talk after lunch in silence โ€” he would just stare at us and yawn and sleep seeing us talking without saying things, he probably understood ๐Ÿ˜ƒ hope to see him again