Category: Learning

One of My Days Was Doomed By Zodiac Reading (ranting)

Learning, This Person, Those People

Have you ever listened to zodiac reading in Youtube?

I did.
Some time ago my friend and I came across to an idea to see if the readings of our zodiacs (Virgo and Cancer) were accurate against the actual situations. Moreover, she was curious if her love life was on the right path.

“I think your zodiac won’t agree with that Aries guy!” I said that knowing that the Aries guy was too good to be true – someone that you know…. handsome, successful, rich, loved by many (daydreaming) ladies (but in my perspective –so sorry to say– that that kind of man can be the most manipulative).

“Don’t frustrate your friend.” She snapped me sharply. Ahem!

We searched the topic using smart key words and chose zodiac readers with more than 100,000 subscribers. We assumed that the more subscribers someone has, the more trust that reader gets from his/her viewers.

We found many readers in Youtube. They have wide range of styles, accuracies, clarity, excitement and approach. Some are very detailed – imagine someone is reading your zodiac for more than one hour without pay! (I mean paid they get paid through AdSense, not you). Some are very stingy – only 6 minutes and called it “general reading”. Some are very sexy look and busier showing their sex appeal than reading integrity; some are sloppy, like just getting up from the bed and dragged by the reading schedules. Some are very brilliant speakers – this is a bit dangerous because they can just flip the fact to sound sweeter to you; some are blunt or use too many fillers in their speech like “uummm”, “errr”, “like”, etc. Some are very knowledgeable, while some are not more than making your ass hotter and want to hit the antagonist in the reading. Some are young, some are old. Most of them are female — this is not discrimination but yes, the male readers sound like female to me except the one in a cowboy style named Ramblin Mike.

No, no. I am not talking about the readers. I want to talk about the reading, that unluckily was very rarely on both of our sides. We felt that we were doomed because of having “wrong” zodiacs.

  • One reader said that my friend was offered a love by a Virgo. Friend: It should be by an Aries. (-)
  • One reader said my friend would give good response to a Sagittarius. Friend: She was so excited. Me: But hey, he is not a Sag. He is an Aries! (-)
  • One reader said that I was unfaithful. Me: Goddamn! She said Virgo is unfaithful?! I never cheat anyone in my relationship! I’d been cheated! (-)
  • Some readers said that my friend was getting a very good job promotion; while actually she was in a tension with her boss. Friend: Nonsense! (-)
  • One reader said that I was going to get a very good appreciation from the company. Me: Resonated! Thanks God! (reality: I hadn’t even had a performance review yet.) (+)
  • Some readers said that time was fluid and so the reading points could happen in the past, present and future…. Us: Ummm (?)
  • One reader (my favorite, maybe because he is a Virgo and always takes a side of Virgo) made us rock on laughter “Oh God, he is even deceitful in his fantasy”. Me: So cute! (+)
  • Some readers said that they heard words coming to them as divine message. Us: Really? Teach us how. (+)
  • One reader said that she heard the word “Disney” intuitively and she said that my love story would be like Disney’s love story. Me: Rubbish!, Friend: Don’t say rubbish, just pray. Me (again): Rubbish! (-)
  • One reader said that my friend’s love would come by end of this year. Friend: Yay! (+)
  • Another reader said that my friend’s love would come later, maybe mid of next year. Me: Hahaha (-) Friend: What?! (-)
  • Some readers said at the beginning of the reading that the card energy was so good, then when opening other cards they would say that the card’s energy shifted so fast and said that it was so negative. Us: Inconsistent! (-)

We cursed most of the time because many things didn’t reflect our situations.

And, what finally broke our laughter was when one reader said “…. Oh, your person really loves you and this person is willing to die for you blahblahblah…. But if you don’t have the same situation, this person might deal with one more Virgo and you are the antagonist one.”

Both of us: “Change reader! Hahaha….!”

Please don’t get me wrong. I respect all those readers. They have trained themselves to read either using tarot cards, oracle cards, intuition, rune, etc. I am sure some of them took advanced courses and some of them have been truly gifted spiritually. Some of them claimed that they have read for more than 20 years, with credentials that I didn’t even imagine before I found this thing in Youtube. My point is that general reading can be misleading and no one should take it for granted.

If you really want to be read through, find a trusted reader and do personal/private reading where the reader can access your energy specifically and directly. And he or she shall be good, intuitive, trustworthy and reliable reader. Clear and authentic. Genuine and sincere. High integrity and mature — 

Life sometimes can feel so good when the zodiac reading is positive; even if it is not true. Damn right! :-))

Ah…. I might take a course to be an excellent reader someday so that I can read good things for everyone and make them happy…. 🙂

Singapore – October 12, 2019 / 12:25am

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I’m grateful for the picture to: https://blog.hellofresh.com/the-zodiac-signs-spring-veggies/

The Guesthouse – (poem by Rumi)

Learning, Poetic

The Guesthouse

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.

This poem was one of those discussed in the Self Discovery course I enrolled in Scotland.

So hard and torturing for my empty head that always craves for intelligence.
So intense for my empty heart that always craves for drama.
So beautiful when we read and contemplated it collectively in the classroom.
So enriching~
Awakening the sleeping giant in the corner of my Soul.

And I was so amazed that part of the poem is recited in one of songs of my favourite band Coldplay entitled “Kaleidoscope”. Enjoy!

Thank you, Rumi for waking me up with your words loaded with divine love.

The Hair That’s Breathing – haiku

Learning, Poetic

The hair that’s breathing
Is given a farewell cut
By a nice lady.

Temasek – October 5, 2019 / 23:00

I decided to have my hair cut short for the second time, but this time is brutally short.

I used to have very long pitch black hair (with some grey since high school). As having shorter and shorter time in the morning to wash and dry my hair before going to work, I decided to have farewell party to my beloved hair – not really, I put the cut hair in a big envelop and keep it in the cupboard until now.

The nice lady in the beauty parlor asked me why hair cut, I said “so that I can think clearly”. She giggled and did her job dutifully. This time the cut hair wasn’t treasured; it was swept and dumped to the bin by another nice lady.

Goodbye, my dear hair. No worry, your root is still here and will grow even better. Thank you for being my crown. I love you much.

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The Foggy Windows – haiku

Learning, Poetic

The foggy windows
Frame my morning’s first view.
It’s amazing day.

Temasek – October 3, 2019 / 21:07

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My windows facing the reservoir have been glorious frames of all my morning views when I’m not away from home. No matter what mood fills my emotion, the windows welcome me with the same stillness. They are good friends with haze, rain, sun, wind while standing before me nicely with protection. Whether it is a bright day or a gloomy one, they are always successful to drag me to look out to and beyond them and say “Thanks, Life for the amazing day.”

A day without gratitude is like heart without its beat

May all beings be happy….

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Eros Shot A Heart – haiku

Learning, Map It!, Poetic

Eros shot a heart–

Unperceivedly wounded. Lo!

Aura’s given up.

Temasek – September 30, 2019 / 18:50

Discussed about Eros myth with my friends and found that his story evolved over time. At the early time he was just god of love and lust for everyone – EACH & EVERY ONE. Then he became the god the protector of gay male lovers. Kind of disappointing why he was changed orientation. The facts that he is a beautiful reality and we women shall not compete with more lovers from different sex are bitter, painful and kind of betraying. The competitive population added has made the chance of women’s victory drop to a very small part of pie.

Should I curse? No, I might be cursed back as discriminating.

Should I cherish? No way! I wouldn’t cherish a fact even the one I can take lessons from.

Eros, you are responsible for this. Hand me your bow and arrow. I’ll burn them before you continue your job. Oh, I probably shall flashback and kill Chaos, too. One more thing: and never let all men be born….

Koi Swim Happily – haiku

Learning, Map It!, Poetic

Koi swim happily.
A dreamer thinks hard just to
Hop on Yin and Yang.

Ubud – September 28, 2019 / 14:30

I am in Ubud, Bali this weekend. I met a friend who is always wise and fun. Among all she said there was one hitting me hard yet nicely “Dear, try one thing now: change your lunch every day. You’ve got the same things for years and you need to have some fun.”

Holy smoke!!! Yes! I’ve gotta leave my rice and try some mashed potato.

Welcome me, Macs Cafe….

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What Do You Regret? – haiku

Learning, Poetic

What do you regret?
Nothing but being young yet
Not free, not curious–

Singapore – September 26, 2019 / 22:10

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Remembering my friend’s message, regretting some of her being naughty and too free. I said jokingly “My past was too clean and I regret it ahahaha….”

Dear, Friend. Life is too short to regret. What can we do but embracing what we have with love and awareness?

I’m grateful.

End Of Holiday – haiku

Learning, Poetic

End of holiday:

I must go home. I don’t know

Why it feels so good.

London – September 21, 2019 / 08:38

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I’m flying back to Singapore this evening. I didn’t know why I shed tears just to imagine opening the door of my home. Maybe because there will be many chores after left for so long 🤪 Plus work, work, work. Still I’m happy!

Piles Of Boulder Stones – haiku

Learning, Map It!, Poetic

Piles of boulder stones

Stand facing the sky— praying

For next falling stars.

Stone Henge – September 21, 2019 / 12:45pm

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Please grant me clarity. Amen….

Sun Is Here With Me – haiku

Learning

Sun is here with me,

Warming frozen heart to melt

And flow to ocean.

London – September 18, 2019 / 19:30

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My dear friend Lucy accompanied me to stroll along the Thames river bank. We started by greeting Eros in the Piccadilly then having big lunch at Srilankan restaurant, walking down the river bank while enjoying the warmth of sun and the beauty of galleries plus the outside of Globe Theatre where she works. We ended at the Borough Market where we clenched our thirst with fruit juices, tasted some cheese, bought some tea and truffle.

Friendship never fails me. 💝

Thanks for the warm friendship. See you next time with better stories. Lotta of love and blessings for both of us…. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

The Burning Incense – haiku

Learning

The burning incense

Brings smoke of fragrance upward

To the unroofed Soul.

Chisholme Institute Scotland – September 16, 2019 / 20:42

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Last week was one detail of life that might change the whole journey of mine. It has woken up a corner in the Soul that probably has been asleep or half asleep for so long. The material, the discussion, the social interaction, the spiritual connection, the away from home — all those are best combined to drive an enlightenment. What a word! Yes, one big leap a man should acknowledge.

I noted a lot of things happening inside of me. Let me keep them in my heart as part of the Hidden Treasure that is ready to explode into a realm of creation. In my very life. Be!

Among lessons harvested from the course is sincerity.

When it happened, it happened. Why not letting go?

When I know it will happen, it will happen. Why not accepting it?

When it doesn’t happen, it doesn’t. Why not moving on?

The why-nots that can only be materialised with sincerity—

Not all that I want is fulfilled.

Not all that I need is provided – yet all that is provided is what I need.

What I have is what I accept with heart and soul.

What is here now is what I embrace. What is not doesn’t bother me.

Senses become more sensitive, yet the stimuli become more subtle. That’s my next milestone to gain accuracy in intricacy.

I can’t say more.

I’m grateful.

Of A Corner Chair – haiku

Learning

Of A Corner Chair

The beauty of solitude

Is truly revealed.

Scotland, September 15, 2019 / 10:00am

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This chair has been my companion for the past two days since my roommates Maddy and Gill went back to Manchester and Edinburgh after the course. I sat on it contemplating what I’ve studied, if the understanding is sitting there inside of my bezel of thought with good safeguarding not to escape.

I’m now sitting on a bench next to a man’s monument, contemplating what I’ve known about myself. Have I known myself as myself? Have I known Him? Have I known?

I’m grateful.

Do You Need Two Taps? – haiku

Learning

Do you need two taps?

Why not one that can adjust

The temperature?

Scotland – September 14, 2019 / 08:45

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I always find two taps in Great Britain’s toilet or shower – hot and cold. Use them as per your need. It works quite well for British I guess…. But not for me.

When I use the hot tap, it will be too hot after some time. When I use the cold tap, it will freeze my body alive for showering in early day or evening time.

I don’t know why they need two taps, while one tap that can adjust the temperature of water has worked wonder in other countries. Again why still keep two taps?

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Self Discovery – haiku

Learning

How should morning start?

With excitement of quest to

Self discovery—

Scotland – September 11, 2019 / 18:45

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My 4th day of course

Layer by layer we are facilitated to continue our journey to know the image of the true vision of His.

Excitement, amazement, discovery and self honesty are mostly what color our days of study, work and meditation.

And one more thing: this is the in-house course whose food is super good in each of every meal time.

The Secret Message – haiku

Learning

The secret message:

I’ll love you until I can’t.

A trick in a note —

Scotland – September 9, 2019 / 8:32am

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One of “mistakes” made in life might be disclosing your genuine feeling to someone (who doesn’t even care) then you being haunted by the stupid feeling for making that “mistake”. If it wasn’t said at all, you would have been as normal as ever before, as a secret admirer until slowly figure out a way out.

Once upon a time among that stupid feeling High God is sending a note through the silence: just love until you can’t love anymore. Love isn’t about reciprocal actions or exchanging common feeling between two physical bodies, it is about an acknowledgment of the existence of the Lover and the Beloved interacting in higher levels — so, it shouldn’t be problematic to be broken hearted as it is only your emotion (pride) which is hurt, the Soul (sincerity) is never broken. As the Soul is never broken, and so the Love is intact.

Dear Life, some notes are just made tricky and teasing.

But alas! That’s what human being shall meet every now and then.

Life can’t be more beautiful than it is now. Thank you for letting me realize that there is Love within.

Spread Of Milkyway – haiku

Learning

Spread of Milkyway

Framed by window: does it spell

Answers to the quest?

Scotland – September 7, 2019 / 11:20am

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It was a beautiful night last night, the sky was so generous: hundreds of clusters of stars were displayed clearly and I could see them through my roof window.

I wondered who lived in the faraway celestial bodies. Are they aware of me watching them floating and spangling? Do they know about me? Do they even care about me existing? Or, they are as busy as me overthinking and overanalyzing about each other’s existence?

It is the Milkyway in which we are sitting on a plane circumambulating a center to another center to another center to another center…. to the ultimate center. An everlasting quest —

Sheep Graze In The Moor – haiku

Learning

Sheep graze in the moor.

Stroll I through the hill upward

To the monument.

Scotland – September 6, 2019 / 12:50

This place is a perfect getaway. The grass, the trees, the breeze, the wildlife, the silence move into all my senses and stay there and cajole me to be peaceful.

What a magnificent birthday gift for me this very year. Thank You forever, The Most Compassionate and Most Merciful. 🙏🏼

The Ride Is Coming – haiku

Learning

The ride is coming,

My birthday in holiday

Compliments the year.

Temasek – September 3, 2019 / 20:00

All is packed. 24 hours from now I’ll be in a flight for a terrific holiday – new colours, new topics of discussion, a healing for my broken heart 😎 and of course a bunch of new experiences….

Thank you, Life for all the blessings every single second I’ve counted. Thank you, Love for all the life lessons every single breath I’ve taken. Thank you forever….

💝

Packing For Off – haiku

Learning

She’s packing for off.

Trunk is big enough for all.

Three more days to go–

Singapore – September 1, 2019 / 22:45

The excitement of holiday mixed with stressors has urged that I need to relax. It is my God-knows-how-many-times of my solo traveling, always giving me excitement. But this one is the second special one coz I’ll visit my 2nd dream land – Gosh, the visa itself put my biz trips in a risk of cancellation.

And so I did some early packing two weeks ago but found that my luggage was not big enough to contain the ones in the packing list. I decided to buy a trunk just yesterday and repacked this afternoon. The new trunk which has bigger room fits the packing list (minus my Wellington that will be in one day before flight). What a relief!

Some stress is lingering around me though. All work must be completed as I don’t wanna owe any prioritised tasks during my day off. So I’ve worked like crazy for the past one week – but fun was always inserted, like checking trivial things in the Pinterest, WP and IG. I deactivated my Facebook because it has given me too much non sense and I’ve been feeling so well without this bloody social medium.

Been so confused about my emotions recently and so dumb about my own naked honesty and stupidity…. So, I hope this year’s holiday can bring me some enlightenment back to my inner peace.

Life, I know all that come are always lessons for me. I know you’ve served me with what I bravely requested. I know you’ve managed to make me even stronger and more flexible. Just one more request: would you mind making it clearer?

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Worrisome – haiku

Learning

Thin cloud after rain–

If trust can be bought, kind of

Worrisome it be.

Jalan Imbi KL, MY – August 29, 2019 / 07:40

One topic has squeezed my brain. 🤯

God, why do some people only think about money?

I’m not rich myself and sad to see poverty preserved. I’m not very smart but upset to see stupidity maintained.

This situation is what makes holiday looks so promising for me…. Holiday pray…. 😎

Two Keys In A Chain – haiku

Learning, Poetic

Two keys in a chain–
One’s for Soul and one’s for Heart.
Merlin, please guide me.

Jalan Imbi KL, MY – August 28, 2019 / 21:22

Can’t wait for my holiday retreat around my birthday, when my head will be loaded with different types of reading from what I normally enjoy on normal days, when my heart will be loaded with contemplation without drama with those people, when all is between breeze and silence.

Dear Work, don’t worry. It will be just for a while. I’ll be back for you….

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Useful link: https://merlin.fandom.com/wiki/Merlin 

Hot Air Pushed Baloon – haiku

Learning, Poetic

Hot air pushed baloon.
Temper pushed him up as flare.
Master of Anger —

Jalan Imbi, KL – August 27, 2019 / 21:00

Sometimes temper is just a rascal, filling someone’s space with heat of Heaven knows what causes it, then he gets angry with anything not in to his mood.

When he does it, send him a lot of prayer. I don’t know what prayer, just prayer that all good things will happen to him.

Good things are only blessings when they are pulled with peace. Good things pulled with anger can be in the form of lessons that will make him understand how to behave wisely.

May all beings be happy. May all beings be happy. May all beings be happy….

All….

Heart to Handle- haiku

Learning, Poetic

Count to a hundred.
See if heart silences, or
Drags you to market.

Temasek – August 26, 2019 / 14:49

My heart has been so annoying (not annoyed ya) recently. It brought me all troubles that had been tamed before. It unleashed all possible cries and shouts that will not only make the heart but also head crowded like a market.

Water wets you.

Fire burns you.

Wind blows you.

Earth buries you.

Maybe I’ve gotta play metal to my own self so it cages me safe in locked safe.

But no….

Dear Beautiful Soul, let go off all distrust. Friendship isn’t always about keeping secret but it is also about accepting a bad label because some secrets are jocularly consumable for public.

Dear Beautiful Self, forgive yourself for entrusting your honest secret to someone you don’t really know. It is a lesson that it is ok to be vulnerable. It is fine to be imperfect. It is nice to be angry when necessary. All is fine…. And forgive those that won’t have locked tongues for any reason.

Everything is ok.

You just take a break and fly across the sea.

Singapore to KL soon…. 👩🏽‍💻🎶

I Don’t Remember Most of My Dreams – ranting

Learning

I napped a lot today. And with the long doze, I did miss many things! Hot tea, lunch, messages and a biking appointment.

That’s not what I wanna share though. I just realised that I don’t remember most of my dreams anymore. I am very sure I’ve dreamt a lot but can’t recall the details. Sometimes I get up in the middle of my sleep just to realise I’ve dreamt but what dream??? I didn’t try to collect my remembrance, just went back to sleep or sometimes just decided to start the day earlier.

Only dreams that are bizarre perch on my mind clearly and in a longer time. Sometimes I can’t even get rid of it like two that I’ll tell you below.

If you have some ideas, would you share your thought?

Once I dreamt of entering a super big room where all audience were men. They were gathering, waiting for my arrival. They stared at me with scary grin. Their skulls are transparent and I could see the colors of brains in each of their heads. Most of them were red and they were full with anger. Some of them were green and blue less anger but with vein of fear. I saw one very weird brain – it was clear with some purple and gold. Suddenly the reddest brain greeted me very loudly and asked me to sit down in one chair in front of their long table.

The man with purple gold brain didn’t say a word. He took a seat next to me. Gosh! He might be a guard.

Everybody looked at me without words. But their brains were moving then bursting their colors to my face!!!

Then I woke up brutally. What a dream!

Until now I couldn’t understand what the dream is about. I’m also wondering what happened to the guy with the purple gold brain next to me.

Today in my nap I dreamt a bizzarre dream again. A cougar, a koala, a wolf and a lizard fell down through a spotlight and walked on to me. Their eyes were warmly friendly staring at me. There was swirling colors of purple and gold bursting from their eyes and splashing on my face!!!

I woke up brutally. Like usual I look for my iPhone and checked some missed messages then replied to them.

Colourful dreams. Weird though….

Singapore – August 25, 2019 / 20:17

Losing The Left Wheel – haiku

Learning

She found this morning

The bike back rack lost one wheel.

Put a book to stand.

Temasek – August 24, 2019 / 08:57

Unfolding my bike, I found my beloved blue lost its left rack wheel. Gosh! When did it happen? When I raced with the wind? When I crashed the fence? Or, when I paddled in the narrow aisle? Not sure, just when I didn’t see it. Gotta find new wheel? Or even new rack? 🤨

For now let’s use a book so that it can stand when not folded.

Nice morning to start a weekend!

A Martyr Has Died – haiku

Learning

A martyr has died

To feed me in a dining.

Prawn stared at me, smiled.

Thanks for the nice dining after flight.

A not so nice flight had made me and my colleague starved and we decided to visit JEWEL CHANGI (for the first time, in fact we go to this airport every single week). And we found one recommended restaurant. Ordering, dining, chatting, gossiping, then going home before welcoming next week with fresher selves.

Temasek – August 23, 2019 / 21:34

Loves Stabs Me Sweetly – haiku

Learning

A haiku caught me
Right in the heart of my heart.
Love stabs me sweetly.

I hate to say this but I’ve gotta be honest that I’m falling in love, what exactly happens is I realise that I’ve been in love with one particular person for 5 years and just realised how painful it has been for being a secret admirer.

Life oh Life…. This is the price of being stupidly professional. 🤓

Temasek – August 14, 2019 / 19:35