Calmed

Learning

She's calmed, Beloved,
By evening breeze and shade.
Simple as breathing--

i’m back to my preferred hotel, not the hotel on the lake; this is Hoan Kiem lake where i love to just sit on a bench by the lake for a while before going back to hotel for dinner or having coffee or dessert

should i or should i not?

Lucky

Learning, Map It!

Lucky, Beloved-
A path cleared to be walked on
With warm heart and smile.

i received a bunch of luck today: in the same flight with a colleague (sorry, i didn’t check iCal, buddy), given a room whose number is ended with 88 which is lucky number in Vietnamese culture, finding this song again after some time

hopefully i am lucky enough with all my preps to complete the work well

luck is simply small things to be humbly acknowledged

hello, Hanoi; you’ve been kind to me, i’ll be kinder to you

You

Learning, love, Poetic

I wish I know
You better
So there won't be useless tears falling to long for
You.

I wish to meet
You now
So there won't be useless words
Uttered in secret for
You.

I wish to be with
You, too
So there won't be useless thought dancing restlessly for
You.

But I won't force to be with
You soon
As the timing is predestined by and arranged for 
You.

counting my falling hair before finally meeting you

💕

Snoopy Said….

Learning

two friends see one same thing from different states of existence (a human being and a dog) and explain it in different words — both are right

i feel like i am Snoopy, lucky to have Charlie Brown as a friend

💕

Everything

Learning, Poetic, This Person

Everything, dear self
Has its own time, no delay.
There is never doubt.

when my doubt is unbearable, i will open the Quran and ask to be given one answer to my doubt — after some short meditative moment; i will randomly open a page and the first part that i see or point with my forefinger, i will simply take it as the answer

and this is the most recent one when i asked about doubt “…. and He has appointed a term in which there is no doubt.”

it might be a coincidence that the “no doubt” appeared to me when i asked about doubt

it is not a scientific process to make a decision, but i choose to believe it because i don’t want to lose the ability to rely on intuition in time when logic cannot help

it takes practices and acceptance to embrace this simple (speculative) way of making decision, and it takes humility (for a logical person like me) to humbly believe

thank you, Gusti 💕

Kitchen Love

Learning, Poetic

Dear kitchen,
I promise you
To love you
As long as
You let me sing
While cooking.

grilled saba from my kitchen and friends from outside (i ate 1.5 saba….)

i’m crazy about deep fried & carrot – all from my kitchen

the chicken in the heart shaped bowl is garang asem, favourite! my kitchen loves me!

Surrounded by You

Learning, love, Poetic

Want I

To be surrounded by
You
Where laughter is generous,
Thought is serious,
Confidence is contagious,
Maturity is glorious.

How merry
To have conversation hilarious!
Once in a while though days look rigorous,
That's when it is to my senses obvious, 
To my thought serious
That you're famous
Surrounded by
Thousands of those
Marvelous.

Sigh I.

surrounded by beauty

If I Were A Scent

Learning, Poetic, This Person

If I were a scent,
I would be herbal.

If I were a scent,
I would be flowers.

If I were a scent,
I would be sandalwood.

If I were a scent,
I would be musk.

If I were a scent,
I would be sea breeze.

If I were a scent,
I would be mountain dew.

What other scents could
I become?
Floral?
Oriental?
Woody?
Fresh?

If I were a scent,
I would be anything that's
Loved to breath in by
You.

 Musée du Parfum Fragonard

Ripples

Learning, love, Poetic

Ripples call you, Love
To go back home and sit still
Through questions and doubts.

ripples

i started learning spirituality from my father

that he made mistakes, yes but i still respect him as a human being who regretted his wrong doings then taught us how to dive in to the depth of our own selves

he was one of those teaching me that what we do is like an object falling on to surface of water; the heavier the gravity, the bigger and farther the ripples will occur

the volume and distance of the ripples will be affected by the weight of the falling object and also the stillness of the water….

…. analogically a still heart will be able to better catch subtle ripples than a moving heart can do

i hope i am gifted with good senses in a still heart so i don’t have to wait until something “bad” happens to stop my wrong/inappropriate actions/doings — in Javanese we can call it “janma limpad seprapat tamat”

Zero

Learning, Poetic

Zero's, Beloved
Count erased, leaving nothing.
Peaceful in motion--

shunya: zero, nothingness, void, emptiness, a state of awareness in which the mind is brought to complete stillness, perfect harmony, neutrality, peaceful calm

enso = shunya

many think zero is meaningless, which is wrong

it is a number that brings a lot of meanings

zero is an important number that enable mathematic to progress exponentially, it is a number between negative and positive, it enables formation of whole numbers and decimal numbers, it represents a place with no amount or value

good discussion today at lunch break with some jokes and wittiness

Living Light

Learning, Poetic

Living light, dear love
Gives her a flowing river
And peaceful meadow.

live a true life responsibly and lightly day by day is a great wisdom i found in this late 40’s — damn, i’ll be 50 by end of next year, yeah yeah! 💕

Three That Cheer

Learning, Poetic

Three that cheer, dear self
Gather in a space to laugh
And plan other dates.

you can share our pic, just blur it, ok? 😎

done, ladies

gathering in SW’s apartment

my favourite ladies: they drink without getting drunk, i get drunk without drinking

all ranting and nagging about our getting older together; i love you, ladies❣️

past midnight (2am) kept us more awake

thank you, ladies; i need to catch the ferry this morning at 7:40 to be back to my work in Batam so i need to sleep soon — gather again next year either in Jogja or Taipei

one slice for three

sourdough from JC’s new bakery in Taipei 💕

Dandelions (OOHYO)

Learning

Be balanced, dear my self.

Dance with the emotion within before finally it is trully proven that what’s without reflects what’s within, just like the achenes of dandelions fruit swaying until the Wind lands them at home.

No love is played as a game, it shall be true–

this is so sweet 💕

No Doubt

Learning, love, Poetic, This Person

No doubt is playing.
She finds this journey blessing.
No more pretending--

‘ve never stayed in this hotel before, rather unusual but there is a blessing in disguise; the hotel room i’m staying has dandelions at one of its corner — i take it as a confirmation to all my prayer, i’ve got no doubt anymore about this journey 💕 the outcome though is not in my control

Nature’s Work

Learning, life, Poetic

Look at nature's work.
Coloured, shaped, structured and timed.
I shout the delight.

walking through a site is fulfilling, i not only see how the environment is maintained but also capture how nature expresses her beauty freely and beautifully —

this mimosa is beautiful, said i

when i said beautiful, it is not precisely about the subject of discussion (mimosa), it is about how my mind labels the state of emotional response (to the mimosa) happening within me — the same emotion can be interpreted differently by other people based on their schemata, belief system, cultural and physical environment and other possible factors; when i am in bad mood, i might think that same mimosa as just weeds; when i don’t assign emotion to see my surrounding, i might not even regard the same mimosa

so i might never be as objective as expected by many, but definition of emotional labels is discussable and/or debatable and that is where communication will be lively if done with smiles (or laughter)

you’re beautiful 😘

Brewing Dreams

Learning, love, Poetic

These dreams are brewing,
Longing to see a meadow
Where flowers blossom.

heart is where the dreams brew before traveling to another heart that accepts them fully

only Wind can make it happen

thank you for giving me a lot of sleep recently so i can claim back my battery 💕

Just Across The Strait

Learning, Map It!

Just across the strait
Lies a land bringing old hopes
Swarmed by new dreamers.

this is my 1st Batam trip since 2020, i used to travel there every quarter for biz; when biz is off, ….. — Batam, be nice to me these next 3 days

The Guardian of Nusantara (Alffy Rev)

Learning

I believe more and more young people will wake up and contribute to materialise the dreamed Indonesia, a country with sovereignty and dignity, free from “mice and pests” that destroy its essence, meaning and dignity.

MERDEKA!

Comfort Zone

Learning

Comfort zone's, dear self
A clear bubble waits to burst.
Life is just like that.

need warm soup for weekend comfort: veggies n sukiyaki beef in dashi stock, tempe + torch ginger — imperfect combination but i love both 😍

need a second helping of soup and fruit before back curling up in bed reading then hopefully falling to sleep

Sonnet of A Tiny Love

Learning, love, Poetic, This Person

Pondering where this tiny love story means,
Counting breathing through hope in highs and lows.
In I breath fragrance of rose, out jasmine.
How beautiful! No one but a key knows.

The breeze sometimes softly shakes the heartbeat.
The river flows tampering a quiet mind.
The fire ignites a heart that longs to meet.
Under the drizzle the sun warmly shines.

Beloved, is it you she's waiting for?
Is it her you're letting in your grand throne?
The cloud hanging disguises sweet flavor,
Or the flavor is love and love alone?

Love is beautiful with cloudy sweet dream.
If time allows, rain stops, be shown sunbeam.

there’s a girl within falling in love, a woman without daydreaming of love

be real, woman! the girl is as true as your love itself

never doubt your heart; trust your life