It is not out there
What is searched is here waiting.
A centred sparkβ
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keep centred β thanks, Beloved for all the blessings
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no one can shake an ancient rock
Centred
Serenity, Joy and Beauty
This serene moment
Has brought me joy
That sparks beauty
Anywhere I am.
Let them interpret
A picture
As they wish.
That is their life.
Mine is here and now.
No one is accurate
In defining me
As serenity, joy and beauty
Is a luxury
Differently designed
For each of reality.
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a line of serenity
me and myself in joy
even when tilting, my eyes see beauty π not your definition of beauty, it is mine and mine only
My Melody
Youβre my melody
Dancing on the heart surface
Hurting me deeply.
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so cute I canβt eat it π Sanrioβs My Melody
Remote
Thereβs a vibe within
Spreading a home everywhere.
Close yet so remoteβ
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most of my friends think I would always visit big cities with all the luxurious and sparkling night life when visiting Japan; yet theyβre wrong as many of places Iβve visited are rural areas where no Hyatt, Shangri-La, and other big chains of hospitality brands are planted β I will usually stay in local hotels, meet humble kind genuine Japanese who donβt speak English and are willing to converse with my broken Japanese, listen to stories that impress me of how all human beings are basically struggle in life
not all Japanese are like the one I met some time ago whose rich life has formed one prouder and less kind than I thought one was π
feeling so blessed in a remote area in Gobo β letβs work wonder tomorrow, good people ππΌ
False vs True
You can change some friends
And places, yet not your self
That is true and still.
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My friend likes to edit her photos. One of her mobile phones has a camera feature called βBeautifulβ that makes everyone much more beautiful than oneβs natural condition. She tried the feature on me.
She is happy, I am definitely not.
Yet it is fun to see a different me.
π
π brighter face, curly eyelashes β whatβs more of me can be faker? π my friend said βyour neck skinβ π thank you for your short company, see you in January!
Talk to The Self
One talk to the self.
Alone among cheering crowd.
Peaceful in the noiseβ
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it was a beautiful night with myself among the crowd π
Before Falling Off
Red leaves falling off
Celebrate green through the wind.
A cycle of lifeβ
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red leaves before falling off
Wish
Whatβs drying
Wonβt relive.
Itβs just flying
To meet a new home
Where soul sweetly greets,
Where heart warmly embraces.
I donβt want to mourn,
I close all doors,
I just want to doze off.
Thereβs no wish anymore.
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dreams flying with the drying heart
drying grass and itβs beautiful – Hakone, Japan
Ways
Which way will you take?
All go to where love resides.
The ways are waiting.
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Tokyo at A Glance
Tokyo at a glance
Brings me a shadow of you
Longing for a home.
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sightseeing π
(affordable) sushi so far is only nice in Japan π
made one once and will make it again someday π
Falling Leaves
Fall is falling leaves.
They are reddened and gliding
To kiss the lover.
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autumn in Kyoto
Scents and Colours in Space
If there is a space,
I wonβt fill it with a thing
But scents and colours
So itβs full but still roomy
For you to glow in my sky.
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photo of universe from Wikipedia
Heart of Teen
If someday the age counts no more;
I want to be remembered as
A girl who resides in an old soul,
A woman who cradles teenβs heart,
A foe who wins with no glories,
A friend who shares joy,
A sister who carries responsibilities,
A daughter who pays homage,
A human being who makes mistakes,
A nobody who learns lessons,
A fool who scavenges wisdom.
And thatβs what I will call
Alive.
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hidden grey hair and new spectacles made my day; finally giving up to progressive lenses after 4 years of denying that my eyes are not young anymore β enjoying a bowl of Vietnamese pho bo shot candid by a friend visiting from Jakarta β so blessed to be almost 50 with the heart of teen πππ
Deli from My Heart!
When heart is joyful,
It radiates through senses.
Deli from my heartβ
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gudheg ayam ala Rike β₯οΈ β light and bright, my must-eat for all my family and friends visiting me
most of feedback: can you make it saltier π
tempe kemul aka blanketed tempe β yummy like in heaven!
todayβs lunch box β leftover of gudheg ayam, rambutan and mini banana π
Numbers
Through numbers I see
How happy human beings are
Zigzagging among their dreams,
Excusing to leave what is.
With numbers I hear
How flowing rivers are
Splashing over the rocks and debris,
Calming by the wind.
One number in this equation
Suddenly disappeared.
No. It faded away.
Ya. Getting confused.
Dear
Number,
Fade away.
Find your way.
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I love numbers, not necessarily through Math but playing with them feels like swimming in an ocean of never-ending possibilities β yet my favourite ones are still 1, 7 and 9 with no logical reasons at all
there is no reason to love you
yet there are ones to not fight for that love
Love youβ¦. Whoohoo!!! ππππ
Prophesy
Do you believe in prophesy
Where fog lingers down the hill
Leaving feet walk alone,
No light,
No eyesight,
No pathway seen,
Only heart listening
To the wind rustling
Flying leaves to
The North Star?
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This artwork by Ichwan Noor is named βBedhaya Kinjeng Wesiβ
Bedhaya: a Javanese sacred dance (usually composed by a king to be) performed by at least 9 female dancers or bigger odd numbers
Kinjeng: Javanese word for dragonfly
Wesi: Javanese word for iron
Kinjeng wesi (iron dragonfly) is a phrase that appeared in one Javanese prophesy telling that the area where Yogyakarta International Airport is now located is the area mentioned to be the nest of iron dragonflies
Do I believe? Not so much. Yet it is always entertaining to talk about what the old days predict about nowadays.
I donβt have so much expectation that Yogyakarta will be a busy tourist spot (I donβt want it to lose more and more genuineness and originality of culture and traditions) β yet I hope at least there will be more flights from and to Singapore in that new airport.
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No Love Means Trouble (Keanu Reeves)
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Gorgeous
Youβre gorgeous
Yet beyond reach.
You ignore me
Even in one sweetest dream.
βWakey! Wakey!β
Every alarm clock screams wildly.
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one of my best friends innocently thought I am in a date with a handsome intelligent man β I wish to the moon and back to date someone ordinary like this Rege in warm clothes smiling subtly π₯Ήβ₯οΈπ
I am glad that my best friend for the first time didnβt know someone in the news! π
the Rege I wonβt prefer – party goer, glamorous dude, everyoneβs charmer π
Roses Faraway Home
Where is home?
It is where roses dry out
Silently on a table
With their colours and shapes.
Where is home?
It is also where roses grow
Peacefully in the garden
With their beauty and scent.
Where is home?
It is where roses are
Sincerely exist in life
With their space and time.
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left it on Oct 24 evening, will meet them again on Oct 30 morning in a home
Utuh
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Falling in Love
If not because of
Love,
This soul wonβt soar,
This heart wonβt throb,
This head wonβt radiate,
These palms wonβt trust sensations.
If because of
Love all are alive,
And so
I fall in
Love
Every single
Day
With
You.
The same
You
Over and over
Again.
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falling in love is everyday whole year like butternut squash π
picture: RC Gormanβs work of art
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Most of Japanese movies (in Netflix) are dubbed into English. This one is one of few that are still in Japanese.
Not my #1 favourite but this is one of those downloaded and rewatched for study and for giggling in Saturday night. ππ
Watch! ππ½
the most laughed: Hanaeβs colleagues esp Kagami and Mamoru
if Hanae is my friend, I will tell her βDONOT MAKE COFFEE FOR ALL!!!β π yet I see younger me in the naive Hanae β rather st**id πππ
Waves That Breathe
There are waves that breathe
Fanning the flame flickering
Eternally within.
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RC Gormanβs work of art
Good Listening
one of my hobbies is listening to something like this β just listening for introspection & confirmation, no pause, no question
thank you.
Coincidences
Coincidences,
Unexplained experience
In one fast crossroad
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βM supposed to watch Coldplay in Japan with Vito, my nephew. Weβd planned the trip since May; he passed away in July. Feeling desperate and not wanting to go alone, I was about to cancel the trip when coincidently one best friend said she wanted to visit me in Singapore in the week of the supposed-to-be-cancelled trip. I offered her a free Coldplay ticket to go with me. She agreed! And so the trip cancellation didnβt happen. π
I am still selecting which photo of his is the best to bring. I want to take picture with his picture before, during and after Coldplay concert and wherever we would have been going in Japan.
Sometimes we live to walk on othersβ dreams and those who have the dreams must let go off their dream to be walked on by others. Thatβs why I always want to live my life with true dedication as not everyone has the opportunity to live this long.
For those living chasing dreams, you can!
For those leaving with some dreams behind, your dreams are cherished by your beloved!
Rest in love, dear boy.
Salam.
my life is a chain of ordinary acts, rare sprinkles of drama and magical coincidences β unexplainable except that I am blessed with all the problems and solutions π
Perfectly Imperfect
To me
You are perfect
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perfect imperfection in a loud eloquence π
White
As white as the screen
Losing shadows in longing
For whatβs real and true.
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the white rose β pale as a despair
Good
Todayβs a good day
To breathe whatβs good and whatβs not.
Tasting in balanceβ
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my friend in Ubud packed some ready-to-fry cassava β good!
Charmed
Charming, Beloved
Smiling eyes with curving smiles,
And wisdom bearer.
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watched this movie in a flight, got charmed then started curiosity about this actor acting as Xenk Yendar then watched many of his movies ππ½
1999 for A Handsome Guy
First the smile,
Then the car
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My new favourite actor, #2 after the #1 Keanu Reeves. Is it that important? No, no it is just fun to have someone smiling wide and sweet in busy days. π
Today I make him special by putting his pictures in my Instagram posting #1999! Beautiful number for beautiful man!
Ladies and Gentlemen, here is Rene Jean Page!
Enjoy your weekend!
if someone can smile this wide and still look sweet naturally, he is most likely fun and warm β irrelevant logic because of getting charmed by his smile π
my dream car is Audi! π not my dream guy though (because I am not sleeping), but still worth liking π
just fyi, funny comments from friends came immediately to posting #1999 π
rike jokanan 
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