graphs of my Universe
Only friend’s laughters
Release the gentle body
From the flare of pain.
Mount E – December 19, 2019 / 05:10
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Friends can be everything including medicine when you are very sick. One of my best friends made a joke when I got a flare of pain after surgery. I didn’t get better but I got relieved and felt calmer.
God bless my best friends.
😘
He lost my sole heart,
Busy questioning about
Sense of belonging.
Somewhere – December 16, 2019 / storm before calm
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What a paradox it could be! Someone is losing the most precious gift in life from someone, the heart just because s/he is focusing on other things that might never be the priority in life.
Possess today, tomorrow might never come.
💝
Holiday season:
A knot in a rope acting
As connecting stop.
Shanghai – December 14, 2019 / 00:40
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There is always a space to halt before proceeding.
In a world of men
She mostly forgets to thank
For being woman.
Shanghai – December 12, 2019
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Why should we struggle to compete in a male dominated world? Why bother? Even when their logic doesn’t show they are logical, the men will always think they are more logical than women. So be it….
I want to be more relaxed, enjoying my privilege of being a woman. I realise I’ve given up many many things and I want to take them back!
It is time.
🎬
The seven chakras:
A journey whose route shouldn’t be
Taken a detour.
Shanghai – December 8, 2019 / 15:40
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It is not a coincidence that the chakras’ colours resemble rainbow’s – or the other way around. All those colours are captured by the lenses inside our eyes differently based on what frequencies are reflected by the light —in the case of rainbow, it is the sun light. Essentially it is one – the Light. Once we realise that it is a “Light game” that “creates” colours, we won’t bother arguing which colour is the most beautiful.
In Javanese culture it is believed that rainbow is a stair for the female heaven citizen (I couldn’t find the best English word for “Bidadari”) to descend to and ascend from the earth to take a bath after the rain in a pristine pool amidst a deep jungle where only chosen human beings can see — Darn! Why don’t they just take some rain water before it is poured down to earth to bath? In one Javanese myth, one of those ladies could not go back to the heaven because a curious horny young man stole her heavenly apparel. In the myth, their apparels are equipped with wings that can make them fly. 🤩
If rainbow is a stair for the heavenly beautiful creatures, I am wondering what stair is the set of seven chakras that are assumed to be existing inside of our body? There might be a lot of divine realities going up and down from one chakra to another making a tour enjoying the beauty of our rainbow.
What a rant! 🤓
Take a chakra tour, fellas! 🙏🏼
Brief reading about chakra and thanks For the picture to: Chakra Dance
Pledge for the new days:
Never hurt one’s heart again….
…. But bullshit won’t stop.
Singapore – December 7, 2019 / 3:40pm
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Hurting heart is human being’s habits -or some human beings have it as expertise- so never ask anyone to not hurt your heart. That’s natural.
Some people hurt you because you are you. But don’t stop! Even if you have to lose someone just to be yourself, be yourself. That is the only choice.
And, when someone doesn’t appreciate your presence as you, just walk away. You are not a tree.
Not easy, but doable
Enjoy your weekend 😊
Thanks for the picture to: Habits For Well Being
Keanu Reeves finally found his chosen. I believe many are broken hearted including me 😁
I used to collect the pictures of this Keanu with many various poses in his all period of life: childhood, teenage, young mature and adult mature . That I closed down my dear account of Pinterest has been a blessing in disguise. I don’t want to collect his pictures anymore 😂
My best friend sent me a message just now asking a question that no one but she can answer.
“Rijk, am I in love with a man? Or am I just adoring him as a celebrity?”
My answer is “I was just broken hearted because Keanu found his love.”
She didn’t reply my message. She was probably upset. Or, she stopped to think what was her true feeling.
Oh, I’m sorry Mbak…. I was just kidding. 🥳
….
I believe love isn’t to analyse, it is to feel in the depth, to appreciate that we still have heart to bear the desperately longing for someone out there and maybe to suffer from a broken heart.
Thank you, Keanu 🥰
For making me realise that I’m not broken hearted, that I’ve found that I only adored you as a star.
Congratulations for finding your chosen!
Singapore – December 6, 2019 / 22:55
Enjoy the news of dearest Keanu Reeves Keanu Reeves Found Love
You are not alone.
Millions cry at the same time.
On different cause though—
Singapore – December 6, 2019 / 20:36
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Dearest Nephews,
If you feel your problem is the most unbearable, it is hardly wrong. Yet yours won’t probably represent the most difficult ones.
Can you count how many people live on earth? All of them have issues – even worse, they have issues while they have no choice but living with those because of absence of resources and no help whatsoever.
And how many abused animals are there? Be thankful that you are not a karmic animal this time around. Or, maybe in next life if you are abusive to animals in present life. 😈
And how much abused the natural resources are? If you think they are not alive, you’d better think twice.
So don’t feel like you are the poorest human beings in the universe just because you can’t afford the latest version of PlayStation.
🥰
It’s only lipstick
Giving colours at times, but
Mightn’t be the true one.
Singapore – December 5, 2019 / 10:22pm
Not easy to deal with lipstick — looks red or pale, matt or glossy, gothic or modern, sexy or dull, luring or boring, cheap or costly, thick or thin…. Just lipstick, not the true colour of the lips behind the paint.
Unfortunately, life is sometimes about changing colours of lipstick based on the occasions attended and interlocutors dealt with. Better be smart to see who is true who is fake…. Or, how to be true!
Or, how to be fake? Ew!
Thanks Wikipedia Lipstick for the picture
Concrete and cement
Sprawled along, leaving earth with
Lesser greenery.
Bogor – December 2, 2019 / 20:27
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Last year when I visited this site, I could see many trees at the back yard. We even found some mangoes ended up on our lunch tray. But this year I found that they have cut down most of the trees and built a small sports center. We still can see grass here and there but the chance to get entertained by the beautifully-singing birds and cheerfully-hopping squirrels is thinner.
I am not complaining. I’m just telling myself how I miss a place where my lungs don’t have to work so hard to filter the air.
Salaam….
Silence of the mind
Has stopped logical thinking–
The Hermit mode’s on.
Jakarta – December 1, 2019 / 23:12
Being logical is good but sometimes we should stop being logical, just to let the inner core self speak the true voice.
Give The Hermit a while to ignite the true light and enlighten all connections, to grip the staff and stand still before proceeding.
Life is so simple: quitting when tired, halting when confused. The only rule is believing that nothing is permanent.
The Hermit can be briefly read in Wikipedia The Hermit
The nights with Ubud
Never do they disappoint
Nor let down friendship.
Ubud – November 29, 2019 / 07:16 morning
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A nice weekend is the one well spent in Ubud with best friends. Massage under the night sky, long conversation late night, browsing traditional cloth in traditional markets, visiting best friends living here, eating best local food and good sleep after full week work before next full week.
Feel the life, Ladies!
[Verse 1]
What can I tell you?
When I’m with you, I’m walking on air
Watching you sleeping there, yeah
But what can’t I get through?
And for everyone, everywhere
You’re answering every prayer
[Chorus]
And when you’re riding a wave
Oh, won’t you ride that wave to me?
When you’re setting your sail
Oh, can I be your seventh sea?
When you’re riding a wave
Oh, when you’re riding a wave
[Bridge]
‘Cause when I’m hurt
Then I’ll go to your church
‘Cause when I’m hurt
Then I’ll go to your church
[Instrumental]
[Chorus]
When you’re riding a wave
Oh, won’t you ride that wave to me?
When you’re riding a wave
[Vocalizing in Arabic by Norah Shaqur]
أبي يا الله يا قادر، لماذا تركتني؟
أبي يا الله يا قادر
حرية يا الله
محبة يا الله
[Outro]
(Ooh, ooh, ooh)
(Ooh, ooh, ooh)
I worship in your church, baby, always
I worship in your church, all the seven days (Ooh, ooh, ooh)
I praise and praise
(Ooh, ooh, ooh)
(Ooh, ooh, ooh)
Ode to my Beloved
Please hear me saying
The words that sweep your sorrow.
I’m in love with you.
Please kiss the rosebuds
That will bloom at the next dawn,
Opening new day.
Please touch the dewdrops
For me. Can you feel the love
When the water bursts?
Please close your eyes now.
Look at the Sun in my heart.
Do you see a You?
Please taste through my Soul.
What color do you find there?
It does remain true.
Somewhere on Nov. 7 / 12:00 (a throwback to embrace a frozen heart)
Love is that bringing us to the now either with the five senses or the sixth.
Love is that neutralising past & future into lessons & hopes.
What can be better than to be you, my Beloved?
If being you feels annoying or painful, do remember that you were born to the world welcome by a mother’s love, a father’s pride, a family’s cheer and unlimited future.
So, love yourself.
Only by loving yourself you can clear the blocked path.
Namaste
She quits sword and shield.
The battle has changed into
Race she’s a misfit.
Singapore – Nov. 1, 2019 / 23:00 (a throwback to a sleepless night)
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Focusing on processes is more important than staring at goals, some people say.
Yet many think reaching the goal the fastest is more tempting and rewarding. The process becomes lousy, messy, dull inside, rigorous outside, robotic, proud with almost no passion.
Competition often seems more overkilling than energizing.
I’m taking a short break by end of this month.
When love and passion
Collide. Words and gestures crash.
I can only sigh.
Akita – November 17, 2019 / 01:21am (a throwback to a sleepless night)
Love is maybe a type of particle collision cause, process and effect at the same time: its physical visibility is a giant supernova whose image can only be caught as late as thousands of years of light before reaching the earth, while the core has transformed into floating etheric secret or may have been absorbed by the black hole of memories – into a forever-and-a-day file saved in the Akashic records lingering like the Northern Light.
For nothing I’m still loving You. And that is ok.
Big big thanks to the Scientists Have Detected… for the picture and knowledge.
Enjoy
Dad, are you out there?
I just wanna say I’m fine.
See you in Heaven.
Akita – Nov. 21, 2019 – morning glorified, ready to create incredible art of life
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Sometimes you miss those who’ve been far away, unreached with even miles of flight.
Heaven is just untouchable, at the same time very accessible…. with just a whisper.
Do pray and they will whisper you back,
Reaching you with their heavenly hands.
I miss my father (so often) but I always tell him I’m fine ‘coz he protects me from above.
I love you, father…..
Thanks to Coldplay for this song that has given a punch on me with tons of awareness.
Morning glorified
Is one with four elements
Viewed in harmony.
Bright morning in Temasek – October 31, 2019 / 8:00am
Another day is open with a wide smile, realizing that no one can stop anyone’s hope for a better life. Just bury fear and anxiety deep down with the rotten memories and never dig them out. Let them stay with the lava and be back thousands of years later as precious stones. Just never dig them out.
Looking forward to more and more visas and immigration stamps!
I’m blessed by my Beloved and all living beings and so I’m blessing you all. 💝
When mind is set free,
I want to live forever
As long as with you.
Singapore – long weekend of Deepavali Day 2019
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King of Swords and Queen of Swords turned to King of Wands and Queen of Wands after stumbled by The Tower. From icy cold to passionately loving characters
Amazing! Ramblin Mike’s cards were open so “coincidently” magical. But I believe nothing is coincident.
End of this long weekend has got a nice closure of a bitter wound that gradually turns into a sweet journey, even if having to wait for an unknown shadow of a you. Just with a zodiac reading — that I used to underestimate :-p
Lesson learnt: Don’t underestimate a small talk, it can change a cold heart and angry mind of Maleficent into a warm heart and liberating mind of Nala of The Lion King.
Useful links: My Lion King and Maleficent
Wanna see Ramblin Mike’s zodiac reading? Enjoy.
Shopping list failure’s
None of the items are shopped.
Impulsive buyer—
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Have you ever listed all that you need to buy; but ended up buying things not even in the list. The wallet is thinner but the list is not shorter. Not again….
Blame the bookstore! Aio…
I’d like to thank to this link The Six Signs of Impulsive Buying for the picture 🙂
My Beloved,
please spare me love that heals each other,
that nurtures each other,
that liberates each other,
that expands each other,
that respects each other,
that supports each other,
that is truthful and faithful to each other,
that is true and sweet to each other.
My Beloved, and so be it.
Prayer in a Deepavali long weekend in Singapore – 2019
Thank you for the picture, O Beloved
I am The Hanged Man
Seeing all things upside down
But not inside out.
Singapore – October 24, 2019 / 18:55
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Have you seen The Hanged Man in the tarot deck? If not, find it below.
I feel like I am now The Hanged Man, seeing things totally differently.
When people say something is standing, he says it is head-standing. Above seems below to him, left seems right, normal seems weird, weird seems fine. But, there is one same point of view not altering — whatever inside is inside, outside is still outside.
It is very refreshing to see things from different perspectives. It can be one of the ways to be always positive. Always? Not necessarily, but often is a good percentage.
What’s not recommended is to exchange what’s inside into outside and the other way around. Keep what’s in in, out out – don’t invite what is not supposed to be in your heart and get rid of those that should stay outside of your heart. Of course, with some evaluation and best service given to each situation
Lesson learnt: I’m thankful to be The Hanged Man, loosening control to keep a “normal” situation.
Salaam.
No need to tell them
That your heart bleeds dry of Love.
Theirs might have bled, too.
Here now with myself
Sometimes we cry in the dark alone because of repeated broken heart. Sometimes you just wanna leave, run somewhere where no hurt can be felt. Don’t! Just stay!
And don’t blame on others that you think have broken your heart. No. The heart is yours to embrace, to love, to fix, to regrow…. You can do it. Don’t tell them how suffering you are because they might suffer at the same level, or even worse.
Just pray…
That we all will value the Love better and never break any heart anymore,
Especially our own heart.
Salaam for all of you who love your heart. Take care.
The link below is where I borrow the picture from, it is a very beautiful writing about heart. The Most Beautiful Heart
https://madamsabi.wordpress.com/2014/08/24/the-most-beautiful-heart/
A cute conversation in a weekend happened when two besties missed each other. The convo went well until a topic came up.
Friend 1: What is worse than being rejected?
Friend 2: What is worse than being rejected?
Friend 1: Being ignored.
Friend 2: Are you teasing me? I’ve known it from the beginning.
Friend 1: Why did you let yourself be ignored then? You’re doomed. What a stupid move.
Friend 2: I didn’t prepare ignorance, I prepared rejection. But I learnt my lesson.
Friend 1: Lesson? What subject? (might be saying while smirking)
Friend 2: Distance-speed-time formula (whatever one wanted to say)
Friend 1: Hmm…. Seems that you already master it now.
Friend 2: Pretty much.
Friend 1: So?
Friend 2: So what?!
Friend 1: Oops. Sorry. You learnt your lesson, I know. Don’t trust that type of subject. Don’t be naive ever again !@#$%^&*()_+!
Friend 2: !@#$%^&*()_+!
Then both laughed together. That’s what friends are for – tasting each other’s bitterness, ridiculing each other’s foolishness and throwing worst wisdom to each other’s nose.
Through the FaceTime audio
Thank you for the picture to: https://www.macworld.co.uk/how-to/iphone/how-facetime-iphone-3583186/
My iCal is packed
With colourful blocks: Busy—
And well distracted.
Temasek – October 19, 2019 / 17:00
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Being busy does not alway mean being productive. Ouch!
But being busy is definitely being distracted from the humdrum of life. Cool!
Looking forward to new passport with immigration stamps and new visas!
Thanks to you, Life.
Damn thanks to the below link for the super cool picture:
Cornucopia,
The abundance prepares for
The masked-off: new self.
Singapore – October 16, 2019 / 21:39
2019 has opened an extraordinary road of becoming the whole me. Many major lessons are learnt here.
Previous me always thought that things were between good and bad, right and wrong, happy and sad, strong and weak, one extreme and the other extreme, BLACK & WHITE. It was too much and I hold it no more.
What’s coming is lots of love in myself to myself and the abundance to share — not solely about gold and coins.
Abundance is about colors that make life vibrant howsoever my potential has been tampered.
Abundance is about clarity that creates enough space for myself (and so others) to contemplate whether the situation is uplifting or not– the keyword is uplifting, not favorable or superior. If not uplifting, either has the right to walk away from the situation with respect. Without respect, the situation has failed to be a station to heal, to nurture, to expand and to liberate each other.
Abundance means enjoying life while sharing it with others. Sense of abundance can only be manifested with sharing. You share what you spare.
Abundance means living the life to the fullest. Only with the awareness of abundance human being can grab the reality of abundance. If you feel empty, you won’t care to share.
Cornucopia
A hollow horn of lots of everything that will rot if the holder keeps it with herself.
So dear, Self. Don’t let anything get rotten through this journey. Love yourself and share the good things wholeheartedly.
My Beloved, I’m grateful for the abundance and the least my feeling of abundance.
I can’t be more grateful to You for sparing me this 2019.
I am feeling loved.
Useful link 1: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cornucopia
Useful link 2 & source pictures: https://www.psychics.com/blog/words-mythology-pt-v-cornucopia/
What has age taught you?
Fear to lose or daringness
To shine through glory~
Temasek – October 14, 2019
Life is choking at times but mostly it feels too roomy to let yourself be offended by only a few wrong-doings or wrong decisions. If your life is as short as a mayfly’s age, you might want to fly dancing the most gracefully. Or, you just want to rest perching on the bark while praying for the best of 24 hours before your life cycle ends — this is the least suggested though.
My Beloved, please always spare me a beautiful life -I know Your definition of beautiful might be with some splash of shit in it- to share with those that matter to me (and also with those that don’t, as You wish). 💝
Please grant me clarity.
Have you ever listened to zodiac reading in Youtube?
I did.
Some time ago my friend and I came across to an idea to see if the readings of our zodiacs (Virgo and Cancer) were accurate against the actual situations. Moreover, she was curious if her love life was on the right path.
“I think your zodiac won’t agree with that Aries guy!” I said that knowing that the Aries guy was too good to be true – someone that you know…. handsome, successful, rich, loved by many (daydreaming) ladies (but in my perspective –so sorry to say– that that kind of man can be the most manipulative).
“Don’t frustrate your friend.” She snapped me sharply. Ahem!
We searched the topic using smart key words and chose zodiac readers with more than 100,000 subscribers. We assumed that the more subscribers someone has, the more trust that reader gets from his/her viewers.
We found many readers in Youtube. They have wide range of styles, accuracies, clarity, excitement and approach. Some are very detailed – imagine someone is reading your zodiac for more than one hour without pay! (I mean paid they get paid through AdSense, not you). Some are very stingy – only 6 minutes and called it “general reading”. Some are very sexy look and busier showing their sex appeal than reading integrity; some are sloppy, like just getting up from the bed and dragged by the reading schedules. Some are very brilliant speakers – this is a bit dangerous because they can just flip the fact to sound sweeter to you; some are blunt or use too many fillers in their speech like “uummm”, “errr”, “like”, etc. Some are very knowledgeable, while some are not more than making your ass hotter and want to hit the antagonist in the reading. Some are young, some are old. Most of them are female — this is not discrimination but yes, the male readers sound like female to me except the one in a cowboy style named Ramblin Mike.
No, no. I am not talking about the readers. I want to talk about the reading, that unluckily was very rarely on both of our sides. We felt that we were doomed because of having “wrong” zodiacs.
We cursed most of the time because many things didn’t reflect our situations.
And, what finally broke our laughter was when one reader said “…. Oh, your person really loves you and this person is willing to die for you blahblahblah…. But if you don’t have the same situation, this person might deal with one more Virgo and you are the antagonist one.”
Both of us: “Change reader! Hahaha….!”
Please don’t get me wrong. I respect all those readers. They have trained themselves to read either using tarot cards, oracle cards, intuition, rune, etc. I am sure some of them took advanced courses and some of them have been truly gifted spiritually. Some of them claimed that they have read for more than 20 years, with credentials that I didn’t even imagine before I found this thing in Youtube. My point is that general reading can be misleading and no one should take it for granted.
If you really want to be read through, find a trusted reader and do personal/private reading where the reader can access your energy specifically and directly. And he or she shall be good, intuitive, trustworthy and reliable reader. Clear and authentic. Genuine and sincere. High integrity and mature —
Life sometimes can feel so good when the zodiac reading is positive; even if it is not true. Damn right! :-))
Ah…. I might take a course to be an excellent reader someday so that I can read good things for everyone and make them happy…. 🙂
Singapore – October 12, 2019 / 12:25am
I’m grateful for the picture to: https://blog.hellofresh.com/the-zodiac-signs-spring-veggies/
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