Reflection – ranting

Just yesterday I told myself to stop ranting, today I am using the same word “ranting” for my posting title.

Please just consider it a sign that I’ll write longer than haiku, my favorite type of poem.

Ok, so….
I stand in front of mirror everyday, at least twice a day.
And I see the same person, me–
But with different expressions. Sometimes I look ok, sometimes not. Sometimes I look fresher, sometimes dull and duller. Sometimes I look beautiful, sometimes ugly and uglier. But most of all I feel that I can look better than current condition.

Is that normal? Let’s say yes.

The only thing that is not normal is…. How can I say to myself again and again that I can look better than this but then the next day I can feel that I look worse?
Is it because I don’t commit to look better?
Or is it my mind hijacking me?

Whatever.

Let’s do this again: stand in front of the mirror, say to myself “Hey, You. You are you yourself. If you realize that it is yourself, don’t compare yourself to others cause whomever they are you compare yourself with won’t ever reach your level and nor will you to theirs. You have your own pedestal to be you. And they have theirs to be them. Stop feeling more or less. It is you, the best you however you are.”

And, now I’m standing in front of my real reflection.

Does it guarantee I’m a good person?

No…. It is just a ranting old lady. 🙂

Kaohsiung – April 12, 2018 – 19:12

Below is a picture of mine with a giant durian — you’ve gotta see if I am more interesting than the durian hahaha….

patung duren di malaysia

2016 Resolution – #2

Oh my…. And it is January 2, 2016. I feel like not ready to change the year – 363 to end this cycle and I haven’t decided if my resolution is fixed yet or need some trimming.

Last week I collected 5 things to focus on in 2016. Too many for a focus but yeah I need to get distracted sometimes ha ha….

So….

  1. I promise to always have some flower when not traveling: easy to have some stems of fresh color in a jar but not traveling for at least one week is still a question. I hope I have more time to see the flower survive for more than one week.
  2. Let me always support animal rescuers. I can’t do it myself with my current type of job. Really, I have to support those kind people better.
  3. I’ve gained too much weight and I MUST handle this problem. No choice: this year I have to take diet seriously and exercise consistently. Get ready for ready space for my swimsuit and gym-suit.
  4. I should be more productive…. Oh no…. How should I explain this to myself? Write more, read more, draw more, etc more — to reach a better target.
  5. And, be balanced! inside out, left and right, back and front

Enough?
I think so.
So, let’s do it!
Yes!!!

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Two happy cats are with me 🙂

Temasek – January 2, 2016 – 4:51am