Category: Poetic

Own n Owe

Learning, love, Poetic, This Person

I don't own this body
I don't own this heart
I don't own this soul
I don't own this life

I owe
You.
Yet do
You know that
You owe me, too?
All these limited experiences that imprison
You belong to me.

All in all
I belong to
You.

—

some part of me is a monk, some part is a bitch and that fact makes me perfect of being a human

💕

(picture from Pinterest)

Care

Learning, life, Poetic
Care comes from nowhere
Free of charge in a white bag
Called good heart.

—

coming home from office today, i found a white bag from no name — without opening it i knew it was sukun (breadfruit) from Aunty Goh, the kind lady

thank you❣️

With all the limitation some people are still willing to share. This touches my very heart.

Ramadhan (Islamic fasting month) is coming soon. Although sharing is not necessarily done only in Ramadhan, yet doing it in a month when I subdue more physical desire will expose myself to more meanings of life– hopefully. Sharing starts with Aunty Goh and the gang!

Please allow me, dear Aunty Goj to cook a simple dish for you this week.

Salaam.

❣️

Balanced Kites

Learning, Poetic
I am soaring
Like a kite
Finding its balance
Through moving air.
This kite is a rhombus
Proven mathematically,
Tested naturally,
Crafted beautifully.

You are flying
Like a kite
Decorating the sky
With rich hues.
That kite is a bird
Coloured green and white,
Singing sweet and mild,
Shining keen and bright.

—

batik sido luhur, pethak

Sido Luhur is one of classic series of “batik sido” i.e.: Sido Luhur, Sido Asih, Sido Mukti, Sido Mulyo and Sido Drajat.

Batik Sido Luhur pattern is the closest to the Sido Mukti one.

This pattern was composed by Ki Ageng Henis, the grandfather of Mataram Kingdom founder, Panembahan Senopati.

Batik Sido Luhur is composed of adjacent rhombus with various ornaments in each of the rhombus such as building, temple, butterfly, bird, lar gurdho (one wing of Javanese eagle), flowers and shells.

Batik Sido Luhur can be dyed with white (pethak) black (cemeng) or orangy brown (sogan) as background.

Sido Luhur is literally comprising 2 Javanese words: the word sido that means to be or to become, and luhur that means noble, honor and dignity.

As a norm in Javanese tradition: what you wear (especially in important occasion or function) is an exhibition of wish and pray. Batik Sido Luhur is meant as a wish and pray for those wearing it to be granted honourable heart and good role model for others around.

Batik Sido Luhur batik is often put on the bride in the night of midodareni (one night before wedding ceremony) also as a form of prayer and a hope that she be healthy and become a wife of honor and dignity.

Batik Sido Luhur is also put on the mother-to-be during tingkeban or mitoni ceremony (traditional ceremony when a mother-to-be enters the 7th month of pregnancy).

I just got a pair of Sido Luhur in white and am willing to own one pair in black and one pair in sogan.

I just got a thought of seriously becoming a batik curator. What a sweet dream!

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Diagonally

Learning, Poetic
Many shorter distances
To reach a destination,
Diagonally.
Yet I take one of further ways
And so I see
That the longest journey
Is adorned with
The rich jungles,
The clean lakes,
The wide deserts,
The deep seas
Under windy light rain
To reach home
Whose door looking out
To a beautiful scenery.

—

batik sogan udan liris kupu by Ibu Tien Wartinah

Udan Liris (udan = rain, liris = light; udan liris = light rain or drizzle; Javanese) is a diagonal pattern of traditional Javanese batik. It resembles the light rain that comes down diagonally by the wind.

Kupu is butterfly in Javanese. It symbolises transformation– potential to realization.

Super Life

Learning, Poetic
Super life, dear love
Celebrating all senses,
Diving to the deep--

—

gulai jantung pisang & tempe

in process

jantung pisang 💕 the potential of super life, banana tree — banana tree will naturally die after it gives fruit!

Utang Rasa (Owing The Feel)

Learning, life, Poetic

This is a powerful song that always hits me at the core when I am complaining about what is not up to my expectation in life.

matur nuwun, Mbah Tejo for this powerful reminder about life

The poetic composition with “urip” (life in Javanese) and the “utang rasa” (owing the feel) reminds me that life is about crediting the feels we debit from others.

Life is about experiencing the feels whether it is giving, borrowing, owing or paying. What feels do we want to give? What feels do we want to borrow? What feels are we willing to owe? What feels do we need to pay for balance? Up to us.

When someone passes away, s/he will be remembered of what feels s/he has left in life whether what’s credited or debited.

Sometimes I talk to myself: what feel do you want to pay that you are so bitter to life?

Dear, Self. I am sorry. I’ve owed you so much negativity that I have nothing to pay but positivity.

One thing: I don’t want to have zero as zero will put flat tone in my humanity. I want to have more saved than deducted. Yet…. I cannot 100% be sure.

Salaam….

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Scientists We Are

Learning, Poetic
Silently we are smart,
Formulating,
Concocting,
Predicting,
Denying at the same time.
Scientists we are.

—

if the ¥1 floats on the water (not in the air as captioned), our wish come true 😀

it is not magic yet it is fun to bet on what to happen scientifically against what good thing to expect to happen if the science is successful

my friend will go to Osaka and i wish that i can ask that friend to pray for me by floating one coin 😀

Choice of War

Learning, life, Poetic
What war do you prefer?
War where I win against
My own self
To be
With
You.

—

this batik-in-process is about the epic Bharatayudha, the war between Pandawa and Kurawa

my beloved batik maestro “Ibu Tien Wartinah” is committed to complete it this year

Mbak Izzah (Ibu Tien’s daughter in law who is also a batik maker) and me with the “Gringsing Bharatayudha”

gringsing is a type of batik, one of my favourite

About Bharatayudha

About grinsing

Failed Jokes

Learning, Poetic
Life is full of laughter.
It adorns the end of a joke.
It entertains when people are sad.
It teases when things go derailed.
Laughter indeed
Is not always to laugh at some jokes.

When your joke is a failure,
Laugh, Beloved
Wholeheartedly.

—

my favourite passion fruit seeds as part of my lunch; i uploaded it as an instastory and one nephew believed it was “frog egg” as i captioned 😂 my jokes were not always successful 😎

In Between

Learning, Poetic
In between breathing
There's a space to insert time
That means forever.

—

nikujaga is a favourite for guests visiting me but they consider it snack in between meals as it is too sweet for them to enjoy with rice; for me it is good to cook: simple and fast

today’s lunch and dinner 😍 the meat isn’t the best as the slicing is too thick — it’s still ok

We Are The Champions (Queen)

Learning, life, love, Poetic, This Person
There's a time, my dear
You cherish with sweet breathing.
Winning against self--

—

i used to be very harsh to myself until 2019 when two doctors made me realise that taking care of my body is as important as taking care of my spirit and mental

i started expressing myself more freely and genuinely, less drama, no excuse to stop me from being calm and confident, accepting me the way me is, unlearning old knowledge, learning new knowledge, opening my heart to all possible layers of truth and beauty

now i believe i am one of this world champions seeing how well i coped with my own self until i can feel so comfortable again back to my me

…. now i won’t let those playing around with me for their own fun in to my life as my life is not only a span of fun free time yet it is a span of fun dedicating time

thank you all for being you even with just a brief existence here now in this short journey

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You

Learning, Poetic
When the road meets its end,
I wish
That this heart is letting go,
These steps are finished
So this soul flies in joy
To
You.

I want a pillow
That is white,
Soft,
Strong,
Wise
From
You.

My time will adjust to
Yours
That is as fast as light,
As fluid as water,
As peaceful as a night
With
You.

—

♥️

Chosen

Learning, Poetic
Chosen, Beloved,
One yes after lots of no.
Where can I find one?

—

voted for president and legislation today in the Embassy of Republic of Indonesia – well done!

I’m Loved

Learning, love, Map It!, Poetic, This Person, Those People
How do you feel loved?
Not so much effort,
It's just a smile,
Or a cuddle from a dog.

I'm loved,
I'm loved
Just because
Life loves,
Love lives
Here
Now.

—

before going back to Singapore, i visited my friend in Lod Tunduh – she has 2 dogs and both love me so much, wherever i sit, both will sneak around like this!

Pretty Beautiful

Learning, love, Poetic, Those People
You're pretty beautiful
Filling me with so much love
Through eyes that are closed.

—

both the dancers and the cute watcher are pretty beautiful –

Nicely Soaked

Learning, Map It!, Poetic, This Person
Nicely soaked in love
With flowing sweet intension
In a good morning

—

soaked in water in this Bali morning (7am) – a standing phone helped capture a moment nicely ♥️

jineng that becomes a gazebo at the pool; jineng is originally Balinese rice storage house

Angel

Learning, Poetic
Angel, Beloved
Wraps me with hundreds of wings,
Showers me with light.

—

Angel Moon and Chris under confetti

Chris, Angel Moon and the person behind her

both pictures sent by a friend watching Coldplay from Rajamangala National Stadium, Bangkok – thank you❣️

The Joy of Small Things (book)

Learning, Poetic, This Person
The small is
Hugely
Building me
Strong and
Sweet.

This that
I will embrace
To the
End.

—

This book is one of best reads in my life. If I am to write a book, it should feel this way. True, light and meaningful–

Life cannot be truer, lighter and more meaningful to me now.

Thank you!

one of books that make me fall in love with the you in me❣️ i am to write a review of it ♥️

Coincidence Is Blessing

Learning, life, love, Map It!, Poetic, This Person, Those People
Coincidently waking up
With light breath
And open eyes
In a good morning
That calls for 
Another day.

Some don't know the feel
And it's just a coincidence
For me?
How fair life is!
How unfair life is!

Be blessed, dear.
Be blessed everyday
With the blessings
That come from
Every other way.

—

That coincidence often comes as blessings might have been ingrained in me, even more.

One Coldplay-big-fan friend said to me some time ago “If you have spare ticket for Coldplay in Singapore, please sell it to me.” He really wanted to watch Coldplay in many different places. Seems to him Coldplay has brought in a lot of good meanings into his life. Not denying this possibility, I have to admit the lyrics are powerful for those wanting to look deep in to their own selves.

I said “I will but it is a very thin chance knowing this band has tremendously massive lovers.”

Sorry, friend….

Yet one fine day in January one good friend from Jakarta texted me asking if he can let me buy two Jan 30’s Coldplay show tickets as he was “suddenly” assigned for a biz trip and would not make it to be in Singapore for the show. What a blow! This friend and his wife would have met me before or after the show so I was kind of upset to hear the news. Yet at the same time I remembered that one friend would be super excited to buy the tickets.

What a coincidence!

Long story short the Coldplay-big-fan friend agreed to buy two. He wanted to watch with his friend this time.

Some time after he agreed, he texted me again saying that his friend could not fly in for the show. Honestly I felt it was another coincidence as I was also thinking of going again – I found listening to “Biutyful” live was addictive to me. So, I asked if it was ok for me to buy the other ticket: Coincidently he agreed; he must have really wanted to watch with his special friend yet he welcomed me nicely.

excited in my 3rd watch! more? no, no, it was the last for the “Music of The Spheres World Tour”, now time to enjoy them back in Apple Music 😃

So, this time we watched from above. A very stunning view with all the well-arranged illumination and performance.

Another coincidence. My friend and I didn’t say anything about which tee to wear yet both of us happened to wear the same one: Coldplay 2023 Tokyo special edition design. Wow!

We both went crazy blended with others who were as crazy as us. I don’t know when I will meet him again after the show but I truly thank him for giving me a lesson that someone can love something (in his case a band) that he is capable of explaining almost all fun facts about the band that I didn’t even think exist. Memorizing all songs’ lyrics, knowing albums and EP contents, and so on and so forth! Thank you, KM-san! God bless you. 🙏🏼

I asked him how he could memorise all lyrics. His answer was annoyingly true “If you love something, you will remember.” Damn! I just realized forgetful is my middle name especially when dealing with passwords and where I put small stuff. 😂

Jan 31 was another merry day. My niece watched with her best friend and they stayed overnight in my home after that. Her friend is a journalist who knows how to access “Kampung Badui Kanekes” that I have dreamed of visiting. To my excitement he agreed to escort me to visit the unique ethnic group in Banten anytime I want to go. ♥️

Should I underestimate a coincidence? Or, actually there is no that that we call coincidence. It is just a lesson that we never clearly see and (hopefully) later will be well learnt.

Thank You!!!!

among all this is my favourite photo – Angel Moon❣️ BIUTYFUL!!!

favourite of mine ♥️

Happy You’re Alive

Learning, Poetic, Those People

My second Coldplay show watching after Tokyo Dome.

This time I went with my best friend (who was with me in Tokyo Dome) and my brother’s sons who became our body guards.

So happy I am alive at the same time with you. So happy you’re alive!

Jan 27, 2024 – Singapore National Stadium

Mine The Life

Learning, love, Poetic
Those who never get drunk
Of love
Will misunderstand it.

Lust and love
Are coal and diamond.
One is clear around a lady's finger.
One is dark in a lady's fireplace.

Which of which, Beloved
Is precious?
Either
In different dimensions.

—

Your Highness Age

Learning, Poetic, This Person
Dear,
You.
Could you tell my body
To slow down
And let you go first?

Your Highness Age,
You are too excited
Yes, precise too.
Yet would you please
Leave me an energetic one?

Yours truly,
Weakening Body

—

how i see myself 😍

how my nephews and nieces see me 😂

About Love

Learning, Poetic, Those People
About love
That throbs like screaming wound,
Craving for nothing but
Its own
Genuineness,
Clarity,
Loyality.

No reciprocity
No repayment

It hurts.
It hurts.
Yet it is noble
And true.

It is endless overflow
Of spring water
To the river
Flowing
To the
Sea.

—

the driver drove me these 2 days has 3 kids; 1 is pursuising police education, 1 is studying to be a technician, 1 is 10 years old

he and his wife work super hard to make their children’s dreams come true — they have double jobs and spend most of their time working

that old man and his loyal wife truly have reflected what love is, reminding me to my parents and what they did for their children

thank you for the love lesson that makes me believe how love changes things

❣️

City of Dreams

Learning, Map It!, Poetic
What do you dream
Of a city
Where you drive like a snail,
Work like a horse,
Sleep like a girrafe?

Wake up.
The dice is rolling,
A lucky number is falling,
You are winning.

—

i wrongly booked a hotel — it was supposed to be in BCG yet i wrongly selected the one in the Roxas Boulevard; as a result i am now staying in a hotel with a casino and the room is really not for business people, it is for those busy partying — next time i should be more careful 😎

Kindness

Learning, Poetic, Those People
Kindness, Beloved
A strand of gemstones glowing.
A gift for my love--

—

arriving home from Malaysia, i found a sukun (bread fruit) as a gift from my neighbours (cleaners, gardeners, security guards) for the 2nd time — need to look for things that can give them smile

thank you, neighbours!

Time

Learning, Poetic, This Person
I wish a nice day for you
And evening so bright,
In one morning wishing you
Good night.

How time
Broadens our space,
It mimes
Every broken wish.

—

The Persistence of Memory (painting by Salvador Dali)

About Salvador Dali’s The Persistence of Memory

Cross Road

Learning, Poetic, This Person
Walking a cross road,
Filling a crossword puzzle
With just a sweet wit

—

never hesitate to walk through a cross road where map is sometimes a second thought, the first is always what my heart says ❣️