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Life is just like this:
A line with two ends. Circleβ€”
Choose the best angle.

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They released us from the silence on May 5 at 11am before lunch time and gave us our gadgets back at 4pm. We were so excited to talk than to play the gadgets; we gathered in the dining hall and shared what we experienced during the noble silence.

We didn’t die without gadgets, no we didn’t. Yet we don’t die because of gadgets, either. Gadgets are just a tool to use wisely.

Each of us couldn’t thank more for everything.

May all beings be happy.

Salaam.

Pak Merta, our meditation teacher

Pak Kourma β€” our daily instructor

Pak Souca β€” our daily caretaker πŸ™πŸΌ

our last session of meditation was loving kindness meditation for daily life; the video camera was prepared for sharing session at the end

Happy Birthday, U2!

May 5 is today.

This is my second Tapa Brata and both of them are special. My first in 2018 was special because Pak Merta Ada’s teacher (Merta Ada is my health meditation teacher) a Buddhist high priest visited his retreat center and gave us blessings. This second one is because we found that May 5 is his birthday! He was born on May 5, 1957 β€” a long journey of a meditation teacher and healer.

Someone is also celebrating his birthday across the ocean. May 5 becomes more special today this time. A journey of a silent traveler.

Happy birthday Pak Merta and dear KU. Both of you have a special place in my heart.

For Pak Merta, we immediately prepared a green sarung rangrang. For KU I thoughtfully prepared a poem.

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Alone the bird flies
From a nest on a tall tree
It knows where home is.

πŸ™πŸΌ

May 5 2023 is when the biggest moon rises this year; Waisak (Vesak) is already celebrated in some countries (on May 6 in other countries) β€” my meditation teacher is celebrating his birthday, another life teacher of mine is celebrating his

an β€œemergency” birthday present for Pak Merta Ada from our class, wrapped in a beautiful fancy paper from the nearest small shop nearby to wrap a sarung rangrang I originally bought for my additional spread and table cloth β€” what a beautiful togetherness in this meditation class πŸ’

May 6 (scheduled post)

Alone the bird flies
To a nest on a tall tree.
She knows where home is.

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there is love in wing β€” trust the wind and the direction πŸ’

Good Morning from Ubud

It is a good morning
Maybe afternoon for you.
This morning I still breathe blessings
Wrapped by songs from the bird,
Back home by hum of machines.
Both are good
In a blessed morning.
Know, beloved
That I remember you
Who might enjoy the day
And ready to welcome a weekend.
Everything is good when in Ubud,
I know everything is good
Everywhere
If we let blessings contaminate the air.

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when i breath fresh air, i feel more me

good morning from Puri Saraswati

not a water person but love seeing water, quiet morning in front of the pool with birds singing and voice of sweep stick raking the ground

good morning to a lazy snail

another one

good morning to the unknown neighbour that might be still sleeping

Saturday Night in Central Ubud

Sky invites me
To swarm around a show
That is glistened with colours
In a Saturday night.

Rain almost falls
But is held until the show ends
Simply to tell me
You are welcome.

These steps walk me
To where blessings are.
These breaths inhale me
To where peace is.

Among the crowd I find a calmness
With my own self I find merriness
All is well
All is good

I enjoy Saturday night in Central Ubud.

i normally stay rather far from city center of Ubud but this one night i wanted to stay in the city where dance performances are located in many different spots β€” this is the side gate of Puri Saraswati Dijiwa Ubud opening to the lotus garden

tonight’s performance in lotus garden was Tari Janger (janger dance), maybe next time πŸ™πŸΌ

i wanted to watch Legong Dance performance so i walked to Pura Saren Ubud which was 200 meters away from where i stayed

was the first to enter to get a seat in the 1st row and later found it was not at all the 1st row πŸ˜‚

seeing the preps is already exciting!

musicians were getting ready

Tari Pendet (welcoming dance) β€” i learnt this dance as a child, felt like wanted to laugh remembering how funny i was dancing with my sister πŸ˜‚

Tari Topeng #1 β€” sorry i don’t know the name; watching with many types of spectators whose joy might be over the limit and blocks others’ view πŸ˜‚

Tari Legong – the primary show πŸ‘πŸΌ

Tari Legong β€” i wanted to watch this simply because i have a sleeping gown with legong dancer on it πŸ˜€

Tari Oleg Tamulilingan

Tari Kupu-Kupu (butterfly dance) inserted as part of Oleg Tamulilingan

Tari Oleg Tamulilingan (dancing bees)

Tari Oleg Tamulilingan (dancing bee)

Tari Topeng #2 β€” sorry i don’t know the name

we didn’t know who was behind the mask but he did perform so well and we enjoyed it πŸ’

thanks for the show! πŸ™πŸΌ happiness is an ambiance shareable with those we don’t know and we probably don’t care to know β€” God bless all πŸ’

Sanctuary

In sanctuary,
Where birds from paradise sing,
Clear mirror reflectsβ€”

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Out of office is set meaning that work is safe-kept for a while. Only silence remains. Even my boss and my motherβ€” two whose calls I’ll never reject in normal situation can’t contact me. They know where I am so they won’t contact me. 😎

All my postings will be automatically scheduled starting May 1.

I pray that you all be blessed with good life.

Salaam.

πŸ’

my goddess, Saraswati πŸ’

just wanna be offline for a while 🌸

i love to be with those knowing how to reflect me and themselves clearly β™₯️

it is safe πŸ’

accompanied by two paradise birds in Ubud before starting my sacred silence tomorrow in Baturiti

Almost Birthday

It almost arrives.
A blessed day,
The one when
A generation is born
To share what may
And
To bear what shall.

Happy birthday!

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a prayer is recited β€” health and happiness with the loved ones πŸ’

Best Not, Better Be

What’s best is not best.
Better is, leaving a space
For the next better.

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I am never craving for best for me. Only doing my best to be better and to deserve whatever makes me better and/or see opportunity to do better.

Yet best seller book is the best for today. And one previously best seller for my best friendβ€”-

Salaam.

πŸ’

bestseller shelf β€” not my normal shelf but it was today

old book i did read at uni and want to check some details and so re-read 😎

curious what’s inside 😍

seems promising for a discussion in a reading club

for my best friend who watched the movie but not read the novel yet

Cuts and Bruises

All cuts and bruises
Paint a life of a blossom
Before it decays.

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i was so young and innocent, a loved friend of many, a hated enemy of some β€” i was so much blessed πŸ’

life has brought me travel through labyrinth of life with traps and turns that cut and torture yet i am still a loved friend of many, a hated enemy of some β€” i am still so much blessed with cuts and bruises πŸ’ i’ve lost much but i find myself

no one shall erase this happy girl within β€” a blessed soul that travels through space and time πŸ™πŸΌ thank you

Wildly Grows

That flower is born
By wind and gardener’s love.
Celebrating lifeβ€”

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the pretty zinnia in my sister’s garden are all wild, she never intentionally grows them, they just popped out of the soil, she believes they were spread from the neighboirs’ as some of our neighbours have them in their garden β€” we don’t know if our neighbours also unintentionally grow them with the same reason as ours 😁

The Best Sushi

I said
I want to eat sushi.

Let’s go
She said.

We lend each other’s ears.
I like listening,
She likes to be listened.
What a perfect scene.

I’ll take the mushroom, you take the eggplant
She said.

I said
I prefer eggplants, that is nice.

Haaaah!

Hahaha wasabi!
She laughed.

Anything to share?
She asked.

No
Said I.

She drove me home and hugged me good bye.
Her son said β€œSee ya again!”

Then I walked the path home
To write stories of my own.
I regretted to share bad stories with anyone,
It made good food taste stale.

I won’t,
Until there’s the best sushi to offer.

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iftar with a best friend yesterday β€” one of the best sushi in Singapore 😘

Time Flies

Time flies on a plane, 
Moves backwards leaving a home
To meet whom are missed.

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Time to visit mother. Although I visit her every three months, a visit on Eid Mubarak is always the most special. It is when my brothers and sisters meet me and most of extended family members gather in our annual reunion.

It is exciting to have a full day chatting, laughing, remembering good memories, eating specialties cooked by the host, joking around and of course praying for our happiness and joy so we all can meet again the following year.

Thank you for another year.

πŸ’

pink orchid in Changi Airport before my flight

pink orchid left home β€” not merrier but fresher than the Changi’s πŸ₯°

yellowish white orchid left at home

it is gonna be broken white with purple β€” they are always happy although left home 😁

i guess it is gonna be yellow β€” they are always happy although left home 😁

Maleman

Breathing the same air
Under the same sun and moon,
All pray for good days.

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Sharing is not only about self satisfaction and social support, it is also about gauging how much I dare to let go of what heavy and significant. Trust me giving will not make you poor.

This monthly food sharing is about Ramadhan odd night and night of revelation (lailatul qadar).

Salaam.

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package for some elderly people and tricycle drivers who deserve food sharing back in my mother’s town πŸ’
what’s inside
while the monthly food sharing is without kue apem, this maleman food sharing is with kue apem πŸ’
5 big monthly package for nuclear family πŸ’
what’s in the big package πŸ’

Resting My Case

When a lady goes,
Two dogs race with her, saying
See you again, friend!

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Completing the mosque night in Jakarta, I hopped to the next island. I have a holiday in lieu as I was working outside Singapore in its public holiday so why not meeting my friend in Bali to spend my Monday?

This good friend is a Buddhist, a devoted pupil of Dalai Lama. She has met him four times in person in Dharamshala. So it is a good thing to discuss about the news circulated about him; the sooner, the better for me to clear my hazy mind.

I explained to her my understanding about sexual harassment and abuse and the video that has made what might be called framing or true case depending on what brings to whom. She listened to me patiently. Then she explained to me quite long and clear about the Tibetan culture of β€œtongue eating” not β€œtongue sucking” and mostly about what kind of person Dalai Lama whom she has met and shaken hand with. She also asked me to watch the complete video, not only some part of it so I can build clearer context.

We had a long talk. Based on the chat l decided to delete my posting about Dalai Lama, not because I totally agree with my friend but simply because I don’t want to make things more unclear. Resting my caseβ€”

Waiting doe my flight with a light heartβ€”

Salaam.

Pablo Picasso and Salvador Dali, my friend’s dogs

Fragrance

Who are friends, my dear?
The perfumers? The blacksmiths?
Whoever, they smell.

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Disclaimer: I am not spreading Islamic teaching. I am just telling how fragrance and good friends have manifested in my life.

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The most frequent gift I give to my closest female circle is fragrance, either perfume or soap. Yesterday morning before meeting my best friends, I decided to browse some fragrance. As normal there is never preferred brand about perfume. It is always about a click in the heart.

Indeed happiness can cost some $/c although it might be too small and can be an insult if given as currency; yet it must cost attention and/or time to appreciate the same. So perfume is a best option β€” no one has complained so far.

What about soap? Only to those preferring soap to perfume

I am happy to make myself happy by making my circle happy because they have been making me happy. Imagine your friends feel good and be scented at the same time.

This I do because I follow literally beautiful hadith by the Prophet as below.

Abu Musa reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, β€œVerily, the parable of good and bad company is that of a seller of musk and a blacksmith. The seller of musk will give you perfume, you will buy some, or you will notice a pleasant smell. As for the blacksmith, he will burn your clothes, or you will notice a bad smell.”

Source: αΉ’aαΈ₯Δ«αΈ₯ al-BukhārΔ« 5534, αΉ’aαΈ₯Δ«αΈ₯ Muslim 2628

Authenticity grade of hadith: Muttafaqun Alayhi (authenticity agreed upon) according to Al-Bukhari and Muslim

couldn’t help smelling all

Simple Joy

Is there a space
For happiness in an angry man’s belly?


Simple joy can cure hunger.
It draws smiles.
It brews laughter.
It dampens dry heart.
It cheers up weary soul.

Is there a space
For unhappiness in an angry man’s belly?

If he knows joy is as simple as
A pattern on matcha latte,
He should say β€œSorry for breaking your heart,
But loving myself is a priority”.

Simple joy is not that simple
For those knowing no simplicity.

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we asked the barista in our office to draw flower on on the matcha latte but he said it was too difficult β€œthis time this lah, flower needs more training haha…. sorry ya” 😁 thank you, that is pretty, too

Dwarving (becoming dwarves)

Why they’re so grumpy?
Error happens all seasons.
Just take lessons learnt.

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Instagram and Twitter are full of angry people who are not able to express their anger in such a way to be well understood.

WordPress is an idealβ€” a peaceful sanctuary❣️

his name is Grumpy

Table

Table, big or small:
Where meal, words and energy
Entertain people.

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Yesterday’s lunch break chat was about furniture. My colleague who just had a house warming said that she only has a bed and dining table and is planning to buy more things soon. Our styles are so much different and I think hers has also tapped my mind.

My dining table is a wooden slab with a long bench at one side and 4 chairs in the other. If there are more people visiting (which not yet happens up to now), they should drag armchairs from the living room or voluntarily standing. πŸ˜‚

Hers is a retractable table that can be as small as 75 centimetres and as long as 3 meters. She has a total of 8 in her family so she needs space for 8 in the smallest family gathering. It attracted me to have one as mine looks bulky and occupies so much of space; however, modern retractable table doesn’t suit my Javanese house and of course it is expensive. So it is just an interest in a chat with her.

my colleague’s type of dining table β€” modern, sleek, retractable, expensive, suitable for her luxurious condo in Singapore πŸ™πŸΌ

We also talked about beds in which we agree good mattress is paramount for our old back. πŸ˜€

Both of us agreed to invite each other in the future when there is long weekend and of course when trees of rambutan, mango, banana, matoa, chiku, and so on in my back yard are ready for harvest.

my type of dining table – heavy, bulky, occupying space yet beautiful for my humble abode πŸ’

Salaam.

πŸ’

Maleman (Ramadhan’s odd nights celebration)

Dear oh dear, it’s time to slide the curtain and see your face.

Crescent moon is here.
It illuminates my sky,
Showing your perfect beauty.

Dear oh dear, your love has perfectly wrapped my imperfect reality.

This dusk
To dawn
I pray.

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Javanese celebrate life through sharing and commemorating ancestors. They will find reasons to call a day sacred and so they can celebrate it with especially family and neighbours through sharing. One of the chosen moments is in the last 10 days of Ramadhan.

Ramadhan is believed to have 3 phases: 1st 10 days as the grace and mercy of the God, 2nd 10 days as forgiveness of the God and 3rd ones as liberation from purgatory. It is believed that one of the nights in the 3rd 10 days is called Lailatul Qadar (literally night of revelation or night of honour) whose value is more than 1000 months so if Muslim spends the night in goodness s/he will be appreciated with 1000 months of good deeds. Many Muslim scholars interpret lailatul qadar differently; I myself believe that it is the night when a human being becomes aware of one’s bearing the quality of humanity as well as divinity. No one knows which night it is but it is believed that the night allegedly falls on odd nights of Ramadhan: 21, 23, 25, 27 or 29.

Javanese think that it would be good to share joy at any of those odd nights. Those who are blessed with abundance will share more, they will invite their neighbours to dine in and make a basket of food to bring home for each of them. The less or under privilege will usually bring 2 baskets of food to a nearest mosque or mushola to share with others; as it is not mandatory, it is ok for them not to bring anything, their neighbours will give more to them.

The odd night celebration in Javanese is called maleman that comes from the word malem (dusk or twilight) and -an (a suffix added to a word that make the word a noun or a noun another noun with different meaning). Maleman means an activity that is conducted at dusk or twilight.

We hope that by doing the maleman we can be blessed with the 1000 months of good deed of food sharing. And isn’t sharing food the simplest thing to do with neighbour? πŸ™πŸΌ

There is one kue (small cake) typically present among all food shared in maleman, it is called apemβ€” a rice cake made with yeast and coconut milk.

Apem is a symbol of forgiveness and asking for forgiveness with each other among the Javanese Muslim. It is derived from an Arabic word β€œafwun/afuwwun” that means forgiving. This rice cake is a special cake appearing in many Javanese celebration as a symbol of forgiving and forgiveness among people surrounding.

I am glad that the 3rd 10 days of Ramadhan is here. Time to sleep less and pray more for the sake of my happiness and joy.

Salaam.

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Nowadays kue apem has been creatively modified. Originally it is steamed; now many also fry it. I love this one of Javanese delicacies! πŸ’

Have a look of a few of the creations of our amateur cooks. πŸ™πŸΌ

we used to have this β€œapem conthong” either using jackfruit or banana leaves to both mould and wrap it β€” not many though make it due to its complicated process

the most common nowadays

this one is fried 😍

simple to cook but take long time to slice when set after cooked

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apem with Javanese palm sugar as the flavour β€” the sweetest one

apem kembang β€” my favourite 😍

Background

It takes good backgrounds
For stories to come alive.
Time, place or coloursβ€”

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this is the finally-decided colour for the background; just the background after many months, making sure this gift is loved by the birthday lady β€” thanks for your patience and understanding, Mbak β˜ΊοΈπŸ’

Harvested

Not only fruits,
It might be flowers, seeds and seedlings.
It might be leaves, woods or saps.
It might be barks, husks or roots.
It might be more.
Whatever beneficialβ€”

What is this tree harvested for?
Noneβ€”
No. Either
One:
Good deed or good time.

Harvest from life, Beloved.
Remember to sow before the next reap.


Her heart and soul is her best seeds,
And she is the farmer and the crop.

biggest lessons taken from this β€” not so much relatable yet good lessons indeed

a bit of hilariously heroic – good to build good mood πŸ˜ƒ

enigmatic and dark

Melodic Prayer

No billowing smoke
Of incense she’s whispering
Melodies that free.

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i prayed that all that i love are happy and healthy wherever they are πŸ™πŸΌ

i prayed that their soul is reborn free and dedicated to humanity wherever they both are πŸ™πŸΌ

Reflection & Fragrance

Standing in front of you,
I see love.
It is clearly reflectedβ€”
A face of mine smiling at itself.

When you look at this mirror,
What do you see?

I wish you know
You are love reflected by a clear mirror.
I wish you see
This water clearly reflects you,
A love that exudes fragrance.

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a pond behind Himeji Castle 🏯 i could breathe drizzles and pine freshness while seeing a school of fish swimming in clear water reflecting acceptance

Grateful Heart

There’s always a room
For a smile to fully bloom.
It’s called day and night.

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Thanks for being part of this journey. Without you I won’t be a full version of a human being. πŸ’

hope you are healthy and happy with your loved ones πŸ’

today’s Ramadhan breakfast (ifthar) β€” cooked by myself for myself with love ❣️

Dream of Home

If home’s made of dreams,
It’s green, warm and musical;
Or nothing at all.

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exhausted like heaven! the toilets and cleanliness imprison me, the railway system bids me a farewell β€” not a perfect home of mine πŸ’ Singapore and Indonesia is the best home of mine πŸ’

home is where new dreams are ready to come true πŸ’

dandelions ready to fly πŸ’