Lightning

Lightning is so quick
Striking sight with its brightness
Before earth goes silent.

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Love is sometimes a sight that attracts the eyes, strikes in less than one minute, blinds the eyes for some longer time before gradually clears the mind again. Gradually yet surely πŸ’ with intensifying silence and lack of reciprocity. Life will be back to its true beauty.

May all beings be happy.

in this case a writer is either a loyalist or a stupid! both not equivalent with the brilliance in his/her writings πŸ˜‚

Batik Grompol (Javanese Culture)

There are star clusters
Glowing in the horizon
Sending messages.

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From Yogyakarta I brought home a pair of batik grompol sheets which I ordered 6 months ago. Happy I must be!

Grompol is a Yogyakartan special classical batik pattern. No other regions can claim otherwise.

Let’s talk about batik grompol today.

Disclaimer: 1) while the primary interpretation is based on what I learnt from the masters; many of it is my own thought based on what I understand on symbols and signs of Javanese, Islam and Hinduism that intertwined in my upbringing. So please be critical. 2) too much information, too little time for me to summarise. Please expect disconnected ideas, connect them by yourselves.

Grompol batik pattern is a sub-category of ceplok pattern in which one geometry pattern is clustered (squares, triangle, circle, lines, etc). In Javanese language ceplok literally means clustering, grouping, gathering based on the same characteristics or criteria (size, colour, shape, pattern, lines, etc). So hypothetically ceplok pattern is always about gathering, uniting, getting together.

Grompol pattern is characterised through the clustering of of 4-petal flower, a flower pistil in the middle, a seed with 4 couples of 3-ceceg and 5-ceceg (ceceg is a terminology used to describe dots in batik pattern) and β€œwrapped” by a square with 8 points that almost looks like octagram. 

Flower

4-petal flower is a symbol of fertile or healthy life. The 4 petals of the flower can be related to four points of the compass: east, west, north and south.

Flower pistil symbolises the centre of life, potential growth in human being. It can also represent the sun, the soul, the heart as centres of discourses to be applied based on contexts.

Flower which is the beauty before fruition is representing an expectation that human being should optimise their state of beauty which in Javanese almost always refers to the developed wisdom in human being manifested as kindness to fellow creature on earth before one dies.

Seed

A round seed surrounded by 4 couples of 3-ceceg and 5-ceceg symbolises seed of life that should be well protected from all directions.

The seed can be interpreted the same as the flower pistil in the middle of a flower. It is generated from the pistil fertilised by the pollens. It is the centre of life, potential growth in human being. It can also represent the sun, the soul, the heart as centres of discourses to be applied based on contexts.

The round shape of the seed indicates the completeness, thoroughness, integration, centredness, perfection, full cycle.

Ceceg is one type of isen (ornament in empty spaces among primary patterns of batik) in batik. Isen is more popular in Central Java than other regions, isen can be in the form of dots or lines or the combination of both repeatedly put in the intended empty spaces without changing the primary pattern, even there is an intension for isen to highlight the primary patterns.

3-ceceg can be interpreted as Trimurti, the three balancing power of Brahma, Wisnu and Siwa (Siva) which are the 3 powerful powers of creation of the universe, preservation of the universe and destruction of the universe.

5-ceceg can be interpreted as 5 types of self regulation: knowing one’s own identity and personality, connecting to inner self, managing the humane desires, living through good sources of life (no corruption, sharing to the needy) and self reflection through traveling or pilgrimage. A human being is expected to continuously strive for perfection of these five without expecting the perfection to happen.

Points of the Compass

Octagram represents 8. Number 8 in Javanese wisdom is about welfare and authority. Number 8 also represents 8 gods guarding the 4 points of the compass in which 1 direction is guarded by 2 gods of specific authority. The compass itself has 9 points – 1 the centre, 8 the directing points.

The 1 point in the middle is sat by Siwa. 8 points are sat by other gods based on what they manage in the natural realm. Those 9 (1+8) are called Dewata Nawa Sanga (nine guardian gods) in Balinese and Javanese culture. Those 8 are wellknown as Asta Dikplaka (eight gods of 8 directions).

  • North (Uttara): Wisnu or Kuwera guarding the north, Sambhu or Isana guarding east north – gods of rain
  • East (Purwa): Iswara or Indra guarding east, Mahesora or Agni guarding south east – gods of music
  • South (Dakhsina): Brahma or Yama guarding the south, Rudra or Nritti guarding south west – gods of winds and growth
  • West (Pascima): Mahadewa or Baruna guarding west, Sangkara or Bayu guarding north west.

Number 1, 3, 4, 5, 8, 9

Like in other cultures, Javanese gives significant role to numbers in their game of meaning.

  • 1 – siji, setunggal, tunggal, ika, eka: It can mean uniting, integrating, the first, the earth, the sun, the moon, queen, king, country or any other thing perceived as singular or superior.
  • 3 – telu, tiga, tri: It can refer to 3 life (spirit life, physical life, life after life), attitude/behaviour/work, celebration/luxury/merriness
  • 4 – papat, sekawan, catur: Number 4 in Javanese culture signifies creativity and intelligence, endurance, perseverance and victory. The 4 points of the compass also represent something about those 4 directions. The power of sun in the east, the power of mountain in the north. The power of luck in the west. The power of maximum ability in everything in the south.
  • 5 – lima, gangsal, panca: self integration, self regulation, supernatural powers
  • 8 – wolu, asta: Number 8 signifies high rank, respected people, physical forms, dragon as symbol of authority

Summary

That it is a ceplok type signifies the clustering, gathering, integrating of certain characters. So this batik is message and prayer for uniting of between or among family members. It is also a message and prayer of integration of human being internal wisdom – a state of maturity. Batik grompol is often worn by bride and groom in their wedding day due to its very sacred meaning of ultimate protection and potential growth through a gathering.

The uniting or integration should be based on clarity of wisdom and protection. It is the wisdom personally and culturally harvested and nurtured. The beholder, owner, wearer of batik grompol is expected to realise that this pattern is a message and a prayer that they are well protected at the same time expected to extend the given protection to all directions as the gods of all points of compass spread their protection to the universe.

The pistil of the flower as the potential growth in human being put as a compass centre in human being life can be interpreted that human being integrated wisdom has as strong power as Siwa who is sitting at the centre of the compass/chakra. Although described as destroying god, Siwa is actually symbol of re-creating, re-cycling. His being sat in the centre of a chakra (wheel, cycle) is significantly describing him as recreation/recycling agent who then distributes the re-created/re-cycled material to different function around him to be re-governed wisely by β€œdifferent gods” (remember the 8 gods of all directions).

A human being should be able to learn, re-learn and un-learn one’s own life experience and lessons then to better redo or re-process the way one solves problems or to simply treat other creatures.

The round seed means a centred human being who has achieved the understanding of integrity, full cycle of life. It doesn’t mean the human being is flawless; it means the human being is aware of one’s flawedness yet accepting the state of imperfection of being human. And through the acceptance the human being keeps bettering one’s self in treating one’s self, fellow creatures and the nature. This is an everlasting interaction and intertwining between micro cosmos (jagat alit in Javanese language which represents human being) and macro cosmos (jagat gedhe, the universe).

And all in all, a human being shall pray to his God or make one’s self sure that to any direction one is heading to, one is safe and peaceful. Religious human being will live through guidance and protection from God. Spiritual human being will find inner centre in one’s self whatever one calls it and focus on what one is doing in honesty and sincerity. Free thinker will boost one’s self confidence and focus on what one is aiming with integrity.

So batik grompol has helped me understand that all my fellow human beings are essentially doing the same things as what I am doing in my life, just explained through different perspectives; and we are only of different pace and timing.

What a beautiful batik pattern. What a beautiful meaning.

my beautiful grompol batik cloths were born through the golden hands and soul blessed to this beautiful lady, Ibu Tien Wartienah

Devotion

Orbit of a star
Keeps it moving yet centred.
Devotional factβ€”

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Ibu Tien Wartienah is one of the best batik makers whose work of art has spread around the globe; most of her customers are international art curators and prominent people from many countries incl our own country

she started making batik at 8 years old to help her mother who was also a batik maker; in her 66, she is the most sought-after devoted batik maker β€” her devotion to batik esp Yogyakartan style is second to none – her eyes were sparkling when she was sharing about batik and what she has done with her skill and art

many of my classical batik collection are made by this humble lady β€” i’m so blessed to keep guard her work of art and to have met her this visit; thank you, Ibu Tien β€” your life is blessed by many

Ibu Tien’s half done wax-blocking (nyanthing) work β€œKembang Manggar” aka β€œSatria Manah”

i tried one batik yesterday in Ibu Tien’s home in Imogiri β€” trust me it is a challenging task πŸ€“

batik working tools

Home

There’s a calming vibe
Surrounding a place called home.
A short getawayβ€”

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Mt Merapi and Mr Merbabu from up the sky

my first landing in Yogyakarta International Airport, the new airport

calming home for the next 3 nights

greeting from beauty coming out of the mud

Twilight

There’s orange swirling
In the west brink, and yellow
Beautifying dark.

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welcomed by the beauty of twilight β€” as orange as the robes of bikhus who are chanting mantras welcoming Vesak Day

good evening, dear Self

All in Store

After a long pause,
Waves of time now delivers
Pretty joy in store.

How should she welcome
A guest that greets with surprise?
A sweet smile in storeβ€”

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buds of secundum are welcoming with joy

White

How are you, dear white?
Everything looks bright on white.
It’s clear on itself.

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a white mug with ginger & honey tea πŸ’ get drunk with it and make all work excellent! ☺️

sterilised or warmed? whatever! loving warm white mug in my hand πŸ’•

this champion is quiet when working and resting unlike me talking at work snoring at sleep πŸ₯Ά

parrrtyyy! no, no, not my party; it belongs to one favourite cleaning lady

Dreams, Given Up?

Is she giving up?
She’s waiting for the right time.
Just another leapβ€”

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πŸ’

played Coldplay all day today as if their concert is happening in my living room 😁

gave up the queue because my medical treatment on May 19 was much more important; if i am healthy, i still can work to earn money for the next concerts somewhere else πŸ™πŸΌ happy watching, all ticket war winners! you deserve your strategy whatever it was

Essential

Essentially pure?
None. No distiller’s perfect
But time. Refiningβ€”

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Smell might be my strongest sense. It gives me both pleasant and not so pleasant experiences in life. To share the experiences is of course an ultimate goal, yet it takes time to materialise it.

To start

Have you smelled the earth wetted by rain water?

Have you smelled the grass cut in the morning, noon and afternoon?

Have you smelled your parents’ clean clothes?

Try those and you’ll be amazed with the sensation brought to you.

Salaam.

goal: to distill essential oils for myself and those around me β€” this is gonna be a read-it-when-i-want-it book ✨

Fresh

A basket of fresh
Turns into a jar of fresh
For mind to refresh.

β€”

from this β€” pomelo, pineapple, mango, apple, rose apple and pomegranate

to this

added with this β€” not so spicy this time

both mixed into this β€” 45 minutes of washing, peeling, cleaning, grating fruit + grinding the palm sugar

this final packed fresh β€” one week + 2 days’ morning grated fruits

Quenched

Journey to a home
Through climb, prance, flow, dive and fly
Deserves a quenching.

β€”

a glass of lemongrass tea with chia seeds is a gift for a traveler πŸ’

Happy Birthday!

What is age, dear love?
Pearls of memories of you
Shining in my mind.

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May 12 is my father’s birthday. He was born in 1939 but his physical body died years ago leaving memories about him.

Happy birthday, Bapak. May you be reborn a happy one wherever you are.

πŸ’

mango was his favourite β€” i’ve eaten mango for 3 days to celebrate his birthday πŸ˜€ no cake this year as I prioritised my time for something more important; sorry, Bapak 😘

All Is Good Work

What is work, my love?
Office, site visit, kitchen,
all rooms to fulfil.

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Work is both those weekdays I am paid by my employer and weekends and holidays when I spend more from what I earn on weekdays. Both I do with all my heart and soul.

Thank you for everything.

May all beings be happy.

ironed clothes make good days of mine, that’s why i iron most of my clothes even those for sleeping πŸ’ i love myself 😁

late lunch after ironing πŸ₯° my kitchen loves me 😁

after lunch i finished making β€œrujak serut” for the next one week β€” one box per day πŸ˜‡ to continue morning sliced fruit during Tapa Brata, i modify it to morning rujak serut 😁

Takeaway

Bring me takeaway,
A souvenir that reminds
Meaning of a road.

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The biggest takeaway of my recent Tapa Brata:

  • Loving kindness β€” a constant reminder in my life
  • Anicca β€” nothing conditional is permanent

a silver bangle of ANICCA

About ANICCA

White Welcome

When home welcomes you
With unexpected colour,
Blessings are around.

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Home again! πŸ’

Nice to say hi to orchids that I thought to be yellow but white instead!

thought yellow but white! pretty!

the second bloom after 3 years! thank you!

all are here! full team! πŸ’

Smile!

Smiling at a weekend
Makes air fresher and lighter.
A place that’s chokingβ€”

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My best friend in Ubud is an active committee member of Bali Spirit Festival; she invites me to enjoy one day free pass after my Tapa Brata for today.

She knows very well I don’t enjoy crowd well yet she insisted that I try to experience an ambiance that might enrich my life. Thank you, I am now in.

I collected my wristband at the entrance, met my friend at the media center she managed then browsed around. A lot I didn’t imagine before. Not only the offered activities and products but also the visitors and participants.

While the activities and products are still easy for me to digest, the way the visitors dress is more shocking to me; half-naked might not be for myself but I can still understand that many bule (the white people in Indonesian language) are half-dressed due to hotter temperature in South East Asia, but almost naked…

Anyway my best friend has changed my curiosity into smilesβ€” very wide smile….

I am enjoying my weekend!

the pink wristband for one day pass – got it free; thank you, De Nov!

the inner entrance inside Puri Padi Hotel where the festival is taking place

map

loving it!

another one

art is dominating the venue β€” loving it!

hungry? never worried πŸ’ β€” more choices other than this one

my favourite!

still heliconia πŸ’

one of those blinding me (the mildest for my eyes, that almost naked lady with backpack) β€” this is not a beach please…. 😎 i don’t have the heart to take more pictures 😏 i know what my friend will say to me β€œthat’s why you can’t live in Bali, stay in Singapore, safer for your brain and mind”

stage for the (spiritual) music performance later afternoon β€” not being arrogant but after so much to learn and unlearn and relearn, to me all is spiritual without label so let me skip this spiritually-labeled music

this is the safest place for me to just drink tea and browse around aromatherapy oil in the market β€” will spend my time here until I meet my friend again ❣️

on a beanie bag under a young durian tree πŸ’

will i be back next time? 😁 Yoda said β€œyour path you must decide, Jedi” πŸ˜‚

Knowing Who

Knowing who’s within
Behind an unlocked door. Who?
Look at the mirror

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Loving kindness doesn’t belong to one particular religion. It is not a domain, it is universal. Thanks for the consistent reminder about it.

May all beings be happy.

Salaam.

Pak Merta Ada with 7 of 32 students in his 881st Tapa Brata β€” thank you, Bapak πŸ™πŸΌ

Back Online

Life is just like this:
A line with two ends. Circleβ€”
Choose the best angle.

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They released us from the silence on May 5 at 11am before lunch time and gave us our gadgets back at 4pm. We were so excited to talk than to play the gadgets; we gathered in the dining hall and shared what we experienced during the noble silence.

We didn’t die without gadgets, no we didn’t. Yet we don’t die because of gadgets, either. Gadgets are just a tool to use wisely.

Each of us couldn’t thank more for everything.

May all beings be happy.

Salaam.

Pak Merta, our meditation teacher

Pak Kourma β€” our daily instructor

Pak Souca β€” our daily caretaker πŸ™πŸΌ

our last session of meditation was loving kindness meditation for daily life; the video camera was prepared for sharing session at the end

Happy Birthday, U2!

May 5 is today.

This is my second Tapa Brata and both of them are special. My first in 2018 was special because Pak Merta Ada’s teacher (Merta Ada is my health meditation teacher) a Buddhist high priest visited his retreat center and gave us blessings. This second one is because we found that May 5 is his birthday! He was born on May 5, 1957 β€” a long journey of a meditation teacher and healer.

Someone is also celebrating his birthday across the ocean. May 5 becomes more special today this time. A journey of a silent traveler.

Happy birthday Pak Merta and dear KU. Both of you have a special place in my heart.

For Pak Merta, we immediately prepared a green sarung rangrang. For KU I thoughtfully prepared a poem.

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Alone the bird flies
From a nest on a tall tree
It knows where home is.

πŸ™πŸΌ

May 5 2023 is when the biggest moon rises this year; Waisak (Vesak) is already celebrated in some countries (on May 6 in other countries) β€” my meditation teacher is celebrating his birthday, another life teacher of mine is celebrating his

an β€œemergency” birthday present for Pak Merta Ada from our class, wrapped in a beautiful fancy paper from the nearest small shop nearby to wrap a sarung rangrang I originally bought for my additional spread and table cloth β€” what a beautiful togetherness in this meditation class πŸ’

May 6 (scheduled post)

Alone the bird flies
To a nest on a tall tree.
She knows where home is.

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there is love in wing β€” trust the wind and the direction πŸ’

Sanctuary

In sanctuary,
Where birds from paradise sing,
Clear mirror reflectsβ€”

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Out of office is set meaning that work is safe-kept for a while. Only silence remains. Even my boss and my motherβ€” two whose calls I’ll never reject in normal situation can’t contact me. They know where I am so they won’t contact me. 😎

All my postings will be automatically scheduled starting May 1.

I pray that you all be blessed with good life.

Salaam.

πŸ’

my goddess, Saraswati πŸ’

just wanna be offline for a while 🌸

i love to be with those knowing how to reflect me and themselves clearly β™₯️

it is safe πŸ’

accompanied by two paradise birds in Ubud before starting my sacred silence tomorrow in Baturiti

Green

Green is what is fresh,
What is starting peacefully.
It is envy, too.

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What is greener than our neighbours’ grass? The sea that bears secret of love and avocado that bears secret of health.

Have a green weekend!

πŸ’š

today’s lunch πŸ’š egg with peas in coconut milk, avocado and navel orange juice