Resting My Case

When a lady goes,
Two dogs race with her, saying
See you again, friend!

โ€”-

Completing the mosque night in Jakarta, I hopped to the next island. I have a holiday in lieu as I was working outside Singapore in its public holiday so why not meeting my friend in Bali to spend my Monday?

This good friend is a Buddhist, a devoted pupil of Dalai Lama. She has met him four times in person in Dharamshala. So it is a good thing to discuss about the news circulated about him; the sooner, the better for me to clear my hazy mind.

I explained to her my understanding about sexual harassment and abuse and the video that has made what might be called framing or true case depending on what brings to whom. She listened to me patiently. Then she explained to me quite long and clear about the Tibetan culture of โ€œtongue eatingโ€ not โ€œtongue suckingโ€ and mostly about what kind of person Dalai Lama whom she has met and shaken hand with. She also asked me to watch the complete video, not only some part of it so I can build clearer context.

We had a long talk. Based on the chat l decided to delete my posting about Dalai Lama, not because I totally agree with my friend but simply because I donโ€™t want to make things more unclear. Resting my caseโ€”

Waiting doe my flight with a light heartโ€”

Salaam.

Pablo Picasso and Salvador Dali, my friendโ€™s dogs

Fragrance

Who are friends, my dear?
The perfumers? The blacksmiths?
Whoever, they smell.

โ€”-

Disclaimer: I am not spreading Islamic teaching. I am just telling how fragrance and good friends have manifested in my life.

โ€”-

The most frequent gift I give to my closest female circle is fragrance, either perfume or soap. Yesterday morning before meeting my best friends, I decided to browse some fragrance. As normal there is never preferred brand about perfume. It is always about a click in the heart.

Indeed happiness can cost some $/c although it might be too small and can be an insult if given as currency; yet it must cost attention and/or time to appreciate the same. So perfume is a best option โ€” no one has complained so far.

What about soap? Only to those preferring soap to perfume

I am happy to make myself happy by making my circle happy because they have been making me happy. Imagine your friends feel good and be scented at the same time.

This I do because I follow literally beautiful hadith by the Prophet as below.

Abu Musa reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, โ€œVerily, the parable of good and bad company is that of a seller of musk and a blacksmith. The seller of musk will give you perfume, you will buy some, or you will notice a pleasant smell. As for the blacksmith, he will burn your clothes, or you will notice a bad smell.โ€

Source: แนขaแธฅฤซแธฅ al-Bukhฤrฤซ 5534, แนขaแธฅฤซแธฅ Muslim 2628

Authenticity grade of hadith: Muttafaqun Alayhi (authenticity agreed upon) according to Al-Bukhari and Muslim

couldnโ€™t help smelling all

Simple Joy

Is there a space
For happiness in an angry manโ€™s belly?


Simple joy can cure hunger.
It draws smiles.
It brews laughter.
It dampens dry heart.
It cheers up weary soul.

Is there a space
For unhappiness in an angry manโ€™s belly?

If he knows joy is as simple as
A pattern on matcha latte,
He should say โ€œSorry for breaking your heart,
But loving myself is a priorityโ€.

Simple joy is not that simple
For those knowing no simplicity.

โ€”

we asked the barista in our office to draw flower on on the matcha latte but he said it was too difficult โ€œthis time this lah, flower needs more training hahaโ€ฆ. sorry yaโ€ ๐Ÿ˜ thank you, that is pretty, too

Dwarving (becoming dwarves)

Why theyโ€™re so grumpy?
Error happens all seasons.
Just take lessons learnt.

โ€”-

Instagram and Twitter are full of angry people who are not able to express their anger in such a way to be well understood.

WordPress is an idealโ€” a peaceful sanctuaryโฃ๏ธ

his name is Grumpy

Table

Table, big or small:
Where meal, words and energy
Entertain people.

โ€”-

Yesterdayโ€™s lunch break chat was about furniture. My colleague who just had a house warming said that she only has a bed and dining table and is planning to buy more things soon. Our styles are so much different and I think hers has also tapped my mind.

My dining table is a wooden slab with a long bench at one side and 4 chairs in the other. If there are more people visiting (which not yet happens up to now), they should drag armchairs from the living room or voluntarily standing. ๐Ÿ˜‚

Hers is a retractable table that can be as small as 75 centimetres and as long as 3 meters. She has a total of 8 in her family so she needs space for 8 in the smallest family gathering. It attracted me to have one as mine looks bulky and occupies so much of space; however, modern retractable table doesnโ€™t suit my Javanese house and of course it is expensive. So it is just an interest in a chat with her.

my colleagueโ€™s type of dining table โ€” modern, sleek, retractable, expensive, suitable for her luxurious condo in Singapore ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

We also talked about beds in which we agree good mattress is paramount for our old back. ๐Ÿ˜€

Both of us agreed to invite each other in the future when there is long weekend and of course when trees of rambutan, mango, banana, matoa, chiku, and so on in my back yard are ready for harvest.

my type of dining table – heavy, bulky, occupying space yet beautiful for my humble abode ๐Ÿ’

Salaam.

๐Ÿ’

Maleman (Ramadhanโ€™s odd nights celebration)

Dear oh dear, itโ€™s time to slide the curtain and see your face.

Crescent moon is here.
It illuminates my sky,
Showing your perfect beauty.

Dear oh dear, your love has perfectly wrapped my imperfect reality.

This dusk
To dawn
I pray.

โ€”-

Javanese celebrate life through sharing and commemorating ancestors. They will find reasons to call a day sacred and so they can celebrate it with especially family and neighbours through sharing. One of the chosen moments is in the last 10 days of Ramadhan.

Ramadhan is believed to have 3 phases: 1st 10 days as the grace and mercy of the God, 2nd 10 days as forgiveness of the God and 3rd ones as liberation from purgatory. It is believed that one of the nights in the 3rd 10 days is called Lailatul Qadar (literally night of revelation or night of honour) whose value is more than 1000 months so if Muslim spends the night in goodness s/he will be appreciated with 1000 months of good deeds. Many Muslim scholars interpret lailatul qadar differently; I myself believe that it is the night when a human being becomes aware of oneโ€™s bearing the quality of humanity as well as divinity. No one knows which night it is but it is believed that the night allegedly falls on odd nights of Ramadhan: 21, 23, 25, 27 or 29.

Javanese think that it would be good to share joy at any of those odd nights. Those who are blessed with abundance will share more, they will invite their neighbours to dine in and make a basket of food to bring home for each of them. The less or under privilege will usually bring 2 baskets of food to a nearest mosque or mushola to share with others; as it is not mandatory, it is ok for them not to bring anything, their neighbours will give more to them.

The odd night celebration in Javanese is called maleman that comes from the word malem (dusk or twilight) and -an (a suffix added to a word that make the word a noun or a noun another noun with different meaning). Maleman means an activity that is conducted at dusk or twilight.

We hope that by doing the maleman we can be blessed with the 1000 months of good deed of food sharing. And isnโ€™t sharing food the simplest thing to do with neighbour? ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

There is one kue (small cake) typically present among all food shared in maleman, it is called apemโ€” a rice cake made with yeast and coconut milk.

Apem is a symbol of forgiveness and asking for forgiveness with each other among the Javanese Muslim. It is derived from an Arabic word โ€œafwun/afuwwunโ€ that means forgiving. This rice cake is a special cake appearing in many Javanese celebration as a symbol of forgiving and forgiveness among people surrounding.

I am glad that the 3rd 10 days of Ramadhan is here. Time to sleep less and pray more for the sake of my happiness and joy.

Salaam.

โ€”-

Nowadays kue apem has been creatively modified. Originally it is steamed; now many also fry it. I love this one of Javanese delicacies! ๐Ÿ’

Have a look of a few of the creations of our amateur cooks. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

we used to have this โ€œapem conthongโ€ either using jackfruit or banana leaves to both mould and wrap it โ€” not many though make it due to its complicated process

the most common nowadays

this one is fried ๐Ÿ˜

simple to cook but take long time to slice when set after cooked

๐Ÿ’

apem with Javanese palm sugar as the flavour โ€” the sweetest one

apem kembang โ€” my favourite ๐Ÿ˜

Background

It takes good backgrounds
For stories to come alive.
Time, place or coloursโ€”

โ€”-

this is the finally-decided colour for the background; just the background after many months, making sure this gift is loved by the birthday lady โ€” thanks for your patience and understanding, Mbak โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿ’

Harvested

Not only fruits,
It might be flowers, seeds and seedlings.
It might be leaves, woods or saps.
It might be barks, husks or roots.
It might be more.
Whatever beneficialโ€”

What is this tree harvested for?
Noneโ€”
No. Either
One:
Good deed or good time.

Harvest from life, Beloved.
Remember to sow before the next reap.


Her heart and soul is her best seeds,
And she is the farmer and the crop.

biggest lessons taken from this โ€” not so much relatable yet good lessons indeed

a bit of hilariously heroic – good to build good mood ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

enigmatic and dark

Melodic Prayer

No billowing smoke
Of incense sheโ€™s whispering
Melodies that free.

โ€”-

i prayed that all that i love are happy and healthy wherever they are ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

i prayed that their soul is reborn free and dedicated to humanity wherever they both are ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

Reflection & Fragrance

Standing in front of you,
I see love.
It is clearly reflectedโ€”
A face of mine smiling at itself.

When you look at this mirror,
What do you see?

I wish you know
You are love reflected by a clear mirror.
I wish you see
This water clearly reflects you,
A love that exudes fragrance.

โ€”-

a pond behind Himeji Castle ๐Ÿฏ i could breathe drizzles and pine freshness while seeing a school of fish swimming in clear water reflecting acceptance

Grateful Heart

Thereโ€™s always a room
For a smile to fully bloom.
Itโ€™s called day and night.

โ€”-

Thanks for being part of this journey. Without you I wonโ€™t be a full version of a human being. ๐Ÿ’

hope you are healthy and happy with your loved ones ๐Ÿ’

todayโ€™s Ramadhan breakfast (ifthar) โ€” cooked by myself for myself with love โฃ๏ธ

Dream of Home

If homeโ€™s made of dreams,
Itโ€™s green, warm and musical;
Or nothing at all.

โ€”-

exhausted like heaven! the toilets and cleanliness imprison me, the railway system bids me a farewell โ€” not a perfect home of mine ๐Ÿ’ Singapore and Indonesia is the best home of mine ๐Ÿ’

home is where new dreams are ready to come true ๐Ÿ’

dandelions ready to fly ๐Ÿ’

Climb

There is great mountain
Not deserved to climb
How much ever best view will be up there.
There is good hill
Deserved to walk up
How much ever others give up its ordinary view.

She decided to walk up the hill
And found some big trees
With singing birds and hopping squirrels
Enjoying the breeze.
There is enough space to have a picnic
Until the sun sets beautifully.

โ€”-

there is elevator in Osaka Castle so i should not skip climbing the castle as in Himeji Castle (said my colleague); yet i still didnโ€™t as the queue was too long โ€” walking the garden then having a fine dining with a good friend was a much better choice ๐ŸŒธ

thanks for your Osaka vibe; proven that Osaka is much warmer than Tokyo ๐Ÿ’ see you again in June

My Heart Is Leaping

My heart is leaping.
It opens its windows, breathes the joy.
It celebrates parties,
As invited by beauty that pops out out of life.
It claps hands.
It taps feet.
It dances love songs.
It sings โ€œOde to Joyโ€.

My heart is leaping.
It turns my sadness
To joyous moments,
Leaving tiny gap to
Contemplation and regret.

โ€”-

do you see that breathing the pink fragrance ๐Ÿ‘

camellia ~ symmetrical layers

sakura near castle boulders

pink sakura ~ hanging blessings

sakura tree ~ almost end of cherry blossoms

As Bright As Healthy Sight

Healthy sight sees bright
That blurs by cloud of the heart.
Clean it with blessed soul.

โ€”-

Osaka Castle behind the bush ๐Ÿ’

Osaka Castle back side ๐Ÿ’ before short rain

Osaka Castle behind the pine tree ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ after short rain

Faded Away


The longing has gone
Too far left by trueness.
No plate is prepared,
No wish is grown,
No intelligence is to decipher message
As heart is numb by laughter
And ridicule.
No number symbolises,
No alphabet pronounces,
All are faded away.
Thereโ€™s only mine on its way.
Dandelion,
Bring it fly
To where it roots beauty,
Peace and eternity.

Only love remains
For the journey
That appreciates
Not a point
That fades away.

โ€”-

iโ€™ve met dandelions in many different spots; all of them are blooming new dreams, totally new, leaving the blur ones โ€” prayer heard and soon coming true ๐Ÿ’

Grown Blessing

All are grown blessing,
Making days more radiant
Without prejudice.

โ€”-

Flowers donโ€™t envy others just because of colours, shapes, fragrance and/or sizes. They just bloom without prejudice blessing whoever seeing, smelling, touching, feeling, listening to the description.

Be blessed by flowers even those of grasses.

Salaam.

๐Ÿ’

gerbera, ranunculus and the gang ๐Ÿ’

๐Ÿ’

๐Ÿ’

๐Ÿ’

๐Ÿ’

๐Ÿ’

๐Ÿ’

Good Morning, Joy

Pink joy greets in breeze
Showering earth with blessings
Of cherry petals.

โ€”-

a surprise at the gate! ๐Ÿฅฐ

trust me it made my day! ๐Ÿ’

showered earth ๐Ÿ’

neighbourโ€™s sakura ๐Ÿ’

thanks for the blessings!

thanks for the blessings!

thanks for the blessings!

thanks for the blessings!

thanks for the blessings!

Pink Beauty

Their eyes see pig pink.
She sees cherry blossom pink.
Pink can be anything, anywhere.
Not anyone though sees beauty in pink.
My heart is red
Yet it feels ever pink.

โ€”-

cherry blossoms along JR Kobe Line ๐Ÿ˜ โ€” almost ten times visiting Japan and this is my very first experience of cherry blossoms

Blossoms

Blossom, welcome her
Among tasks and assignments
So she smiles and blooms.

โ€”-

The way we thank for the work we do is by doing our very best for the work we do. There is no other way. Give our better best everyday for the work has given us their best.

Salaam.

cherry blossoms!

more cherry blossoms!

Beautifully Unheard

If she says
Love is the only gift,
It is still inaudible
As the doors are all closed
And that room is air-tight.

Unheardโ€”

Even if she screams,
What flies back
Is smooth and soft echo,
The bouncing waves
From a solid wall.

Beautifulโ€”

โ€”-

peace can be as simple as reading vague messages without trying to understand as guessing is not a good habit ๐Ÿ’

Smile

Mosquitoโ€™s smiling
At a girl grinning of itch.
A mutual joyโ€”

โ€”

i used to learn how to not smile at those at the other side of the table; back to smile after some years โ€” i can lose in some negotiation but i wonโ€™t let them smile more genuinely than i do ๐Ÿ˜ i grin actually

A Gift

What gift is not wrapped?
Blooming flowers in April.
Warm and colourfulโ€”

โ€”-

she is sitting next to the shower so she is generously bathed twice a day

balcony gang ๐Ÿ’ watered once in three days plus some blessings from the rain

at the corner of the shower room, behind the glass door so she doesnโ€™t bath too often ๐Ÿ˜Ž but still blooming ๐Ÿ’

Perfect Imperfection

Is life abundant?
She asked.
They said,
When you have everything.
She walked away,
There was never everything
In imperfection.

She says.
Life is generous.
They say,
Because you have everything.
She walks away,
There is never perfection
In everything.

Life is abundant,
She agrees.
They ask,
Do you have everything? You are not perfect.
She walks away,
There is always perfection
In anything imperfect.

โ€”-

anger has long gone but sadness is still lingering like a hungry fox hunting a chicken ๐Ÿ™ƒ yet life is so generous to me offering sweet imperfection and simplest perfection that might be just a dream for those perfect perfection โ€” so thank you as always! ๐Ÿ’

giving myself time and space to live again ๐Ÿ’

Interaction

Where is sun when sets?
Where is moon in the day light?
They share love through time.

โ€”

Interaction is about reciprocity; even when we are alone, we are interacting with some tool of life or with the deep self within.

When it is not reciprocated, interaction is not genuinely true.

Salaam.

a grandma with her grandson

a mother with her son

family gathering

feeding two grandsons

letโ€™s climb!

hi, dove! said the little boy

whatโ€™s in the water? said he

bubbles!!!

what is that over there? ahh hope! โ˜บ๏ธ

am i your headache? no, you are my universe ๐Ÿ˜‚

donโ€™t move, just smile! someone is taking our picture โ˜บ๏ธ

she is asking her cam to see what she sees ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

our daughter is playing, i am sitting near her

hey! clear up! i am gonna land!

electrocution my a**! ๐Ÿ˜

Choice

โ€”

Choiceโ€™s falling star
Brightened in a quiet dark night,
Orbited to earth.

respecting this family for their choice of happiness, knowing that i will never be able to do so

inspiring me to at least enjoy simpler life and to accept all blessings more happily

Shadow

Is it the shadow
Or the real you show to me?
Distinguished beautyโ€”

โ€”-

i canโ€™t remember which one is the shadow and which one is the real โ€” i donโ€™t want to observe further to find which is which

what i know the castle is beautiful day and night ๐Ÿ’

Bubble

A bubbleโ€™s bursting,
United with the free air.
Would you please join me?

โ€”

Although Kyoto has a lot of impressive shrines, my favourite is not there. Mine is Izumo Taisha in Shimane prefecture about 343 km from Kyoto.

When visiting other shrines in Japan, I was so aware of being in Japan. In Izumo Taisha I got home: sunny, green, serene and unexplainably blissful. There were many visitors but my senses didnโ€™t absorb their presence as if the hot air and bright light muffled their noise and wrapped me in a safe bubble bursting when my last step left the shrine front gate.

Romantic!

a long walk from the gate to the shrine โ€” i remember it was a scorching hot day in August 2018 and i was humming while walking ๐Ÿ˜‡

ablution, my daily ritual that i find also so soothing in Japan shrine especially in Izumo Taisha

torii ๐Ÿ’ a gate to the shrine yard

this is Izumo Taisha! ๐Ÿ’

shimenawa (sacred straw rope)

i only go to this coffee shop with my colleagues, but i wholeheartedly believed drinking Starbucks coffee was a nice thing; only in Izumo! right outside the shrine complex

Izumo Taisha, Shimane

Castle

Castles small or big
Stand on a hill among trees
Wave to the white clouds.

โ€”

Matsue Castle, from afar (2018)

Matsue Castle, closer view (2018)

there is no reason to not thank life for making me me; with all the ups and downs, zig-zagging, winding roads, flood and quake, fake and genuine people around; i survive and become more and more relaxed โ€” like Matsue Castle, my life is small, humble but strong enough and sweetly suitable for me ๐Ÿ’

Matsue Castle, Shimane

Castle

She builds a castle
Protecting and comforting.
Illuminatedโ€”

โ€”-

Nagoya Castle under the moonlight (2014)

Nagoya Castle under the sunlight (2014)

wishing to explore another castle soon ๐Ÿ’

Nagoya Castle