Pause

It’s been quite long I haven’t posted anything in this site. Too busy? Or not able to manage the time? Oh my goodness, how life lasts long yet runs so fast that it rolls in like a useless scroll.

Alas!
What will I give to Life?
Nothing?
Ya, nothing as I have nothing.
Yet, I still do things with my nothing.

Life,
Please guide me through my nothingness to the Light at the end of the scroll.

No, not at the end. It is along the scroll…

Glad to be here again….

The Estuary, Temasek – Nov. 30, 2018 – 9:47pm

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Just cluttering – ranting

Sitting in my tiny bedroom, I felt ache in my chest and said to myself, “Damn! How can I have so many things in my little nest? What am I going to build of those rubbish?”

Books, bottles, containers, clothes and other things were scatterred everywhere, on the floor, on the table, at the shelf, on my bed. Once again, what would I make with all of these? Nothing but an old lady hoarding bric-a-brac.

Please stop myself. Please….

“When I’m going to read my book, I’m confused which book I should read first as all the titles show me all the urgencies in life. When I’m going to write on my diary, I forgot which one is the most recent one as there are at least six different books and sketchbooks that I’ve used so far. When I’m going to iron my clothes, I’m confused which one should I work on first as the piling rags are covering my rooms. Oh my gosh!”

I stopped for a while and looked at my hands.
Only two hands….
What have they done in my life? My two hands have done so much but not so much, — too much unnecessary stuff.

….

Take a deep breath.

….

I have been clutterring and need decluttering.

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Start with one simple thing. My mind.

…. Declutter my mind.
…. Throw away unnecessary things.
…. Just take what is needed, ignore what is not.
…. Stop talking, start doing.

Stop ranting!

Salam.

RA

Temasek – April 11, 2018 – 00:40

 

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Layers of Lights (ranting)

Lapisan lambang, makna, ilmu –

Cahaya di atas Cahaya

What you can capture with the eyes are those reflecting the light. The intensity of the Light affect the clarity of the object reflected to the lenses inside of your head.

But what is that object? That depends on what you have been informed through your experience from time to time. The longer the time, the more extensive the description of the object will be. The more frequent the object is scrutinised, the more comprehensive the description will be.

And if you are exchanging with more directions of sources, the object has become not only a description of what the Light has reflected to the lenses inside of our head but you will find that the object becomes a plane to define something else. It has turned into a symbol defining a meaning. The more expressive the symbol is defined, the deeper you search into yourself. And deeper deeper deeper to the abyssal ocean of inner knowledge. From your eyes to your head to your mind to your heart to your bottomless self….

Bottomless self?

It is where you’ll find the meaning of the meaning of the meaning of the meaning of the meaning of the meaning of the meaning……..of what reflected to the lenses inside of your head.

Layers of meaning is layers of Lights.

Light on light on light on light on light on light….

Light upon Light!

Muar – January 11, 2018 – 00:50

Sensation – haiku

Touches of the Wind —
Can those in the room feel it?
Ya, don’t shut the windows.

It is just a layer of sensations. You’ll never understand what others really think when you are not at the same layer of logic. And you’ll never comprehend what others really think if you are not in the same state of consciousness. I’m learning and un-learning at the same time — how would Life be cool if you seal yourself in a vacuum case?

Boom!

Moment is waiting.

Singapore – January 9, 2018 – 22:30

How Do You – haiku

How do you thank Life–
For what you are? Find a way.
And stick to its plan.

 

 

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Temasek – October 27, 2017 – 00:40 (sakdurunge adus)

Kutabur Debu Cahaya

Kutabur debu cahaya
Bersama salam dan langkahku
Demi jejak kemanusiaan
Bagi seluruh isi alam.
Berurai air-mata….

Sungai-sungai sebagai urat-urat darah
Yang mulai tersumbat,
Menyempit,
Buntu…. Samudera pun kehilangan tuah dan birunya.
Tersedak Ibu Gaia terbatuk-batuk, bersedih melihat anak-anaknya tiada berhati.

Duh Gusti,
Ampunilah aku
Yang tak mampu membantu titik-titik mungil bercahaya terkungkung rantai dan kerangkeng.
Letih dan terluka
Batin dan badannya.

Duh Gusti,
Merdekakan kami.
Aku dan titik-titik mungil bercahaya itu.
Merdekakan inti hidup kami.
Sehingga bahagia walau kami dihela hingga pertolonganMu tiba.
Sehingga ikhlash walau kami dipaksa hingga kehendakMu tiba.

Wahai, titik-titik mungil bercahaya….
Kuseru doa dan belai mesra.
Salamku salam ruhani yang akan membungkusmu dengan kekebalan
Dari segala derita.
Kuatkan. Murnikan. Tataplah langit seperti kutatap ia.

Kudekap Ibu Gaia,
Kuhembuskan debu cahaya
Dan titik-titik cahaya itu berpendar, melebar dan merayakan kebahagiaan.
Salamku salam ruhani
Wahai titik-titik mungil dalam dekapan.

Puisi ini kupersembahkan bagi para satwa yang didera kekejaman atas nama kesejahteraan manusia. Terkirim bagimu kekuatan dan kemuliaan selamanya. Sayangku….

Ibu Gaia, teriring doa untukmu jua….

Salaamun qaulammirrabbirrahiem….

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Temasek – August 12, 2017 – 02:59

I Travel To Live – tanka

I travel to live
To revive the life and place
With my soul greeting.
Roots, trunks, leaves, flowers tell me:
“Your footsteps leave light and scent”.

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Temasek – August 10, 2017 – 22:44

Picture borrowed from: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/525373112761812546/

My Life Is….

My life is a meadow in summer! Grass, tiny flower, stream, and all for a fun campsite….

Singapore – August 2, 2017 – 23:15

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Picture is borrowed from: http://www.chiquiplanet.com/stickers/fairy_tale.html

Symbol – haiku

Is it to disclose
Or to hide what’s unhidden
That’s so called symbol?


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Picture borrowed from: http://java-demos.blogspot.sg/2013/04/using-lambda-expressions-in-threading.html

For more information about the symbol attached, please go to https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lambda 

Temasek – April 5, 2017 – 00:58

Diving – haiku

In a rough dark sea
She is diving all alone.
Tridacnas await.


Are you ready? At the end of an abyss you’ll see a beauty beyond description.

 

Picture borrowed from this link, you can also learn what is Tridacna in it. Thank you! http://www.advancedaquarist.com/2016/1/aafeature

 

Or, watch below video

Temasek – April 1, 2017 – 22:35

There She Is – haiku

There she is. Crouching
Behind a log. She’s waiting
For fresh flesh dinner.


Are we a tiger crouching? Or a deer grazing in the greenery…. Or both but with love?

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Picture borrowed fromhttp://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2771497/The-unlikeliest-friends-Giant-pregnant-tiger-plays-tiny-fawn-carries-mouth-like-cub.html

Temasek – March 29, 2017 – 22:36

Flying – haiku

Sky is the limit.
Bird is soaring, zooming down.
To watch his strong branch.

Sometimes the journey is to nowehere but to go back home.

Bald Eagle in mid-air flight over Homer Spit Kenai Peninsula Alaska Winter

Picture borrowed from: A bald eagle serial killer at large in Maryland after 13 birds …

Singapore – March 27, 2017 – 23:33

Fish – haiku ended with a free verse

Fish in frozen pond
It is swimming to the sun.
Hopes for hotter air —

Fish, water and sun —
Forming a natural cycle —
Win life together.

Fish, can you feel me
Stir the water to get you
Out of frozen pond.

Fish stare at my eyes.
They beg me to stop and go,
To find other funs.

Fish….
Me….
Life….
Like
Fish….
Water….
Sun….
Can I play with this life the I want?
I know I can.
But like a fish that can’t live in frozen pond – waiting for
The sun to melt it down.

I am a fish in a life full of water under the sun.

Picture borrowed from https://www.walldevil.com/752644-koi-fish-and-autumn-leaves-wallpaper.html

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Singapore – August 14, 2016 – 2:49am

A word – haiku

Pronouncing good word,
Parrot is nodding its head.
When word is just word.

What does a word mean when it is uttered by a bird, it only repeating what it has heard from environment without knowing what it means. It means…. Meaning is not everything but it is more essential than just the pronounced lining letters.

Life, teach me about what essential when I pronounce a good word as I am not a parrot or any other copiers.

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Picture borrowed from National Geography

Singapore – July 21, 2016 – 2:45pm

Wake Up Late (Kesiangan) – haiku

Wake up late again!
‘Coz of a good bed and sweet dream
Natural lullaby.

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Eh, kesiangan!
Terlena kasur empuk
Dan mimpi indah.

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Temasek – January 9, 2016 – 3:34pm

Crazy About (Tergila-gila)

Have you ever been so crazy about something?
Just to let you know, I am now crazy about one thing.
And the thing is nothing.

 

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Pernahkah kalian tergila-gila pada sesuatu?
Sekadar berbagi tahu, ingsun sedang tergila-gila pada satu hal.
Hal itu bukan apa-apa.

Temasek – January 9, 2016 – 3:11am

The Biggest Lesson (Pelajaran Terbesar)

Do you still ask yourselves about what is the biggest lesson in your life? Don’t sweat so much. I dare to confidently tell you to stop and halt a moment.

No need to think of having a past life regression session. No need to consult to a shaman anymore. Just see around.

Who is in your family?

That is the biggest lesson in your current life. Your father, your mother, your sister, your brother, your children, your wife, your husband…. They become yours for a reason.

Think of how well you are as you – a child, a sister, a brother, a mother, a father, etc….

If you still find a gap, then bridge the gap and you are doing your biggest homework of life – family.

Never forget your family, the real closest ones in life. Never ignore them, or else you’ll fail the test of life and MUST retake in the next session. You don’t want to retake the same exam, do you?

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See around again…

It is your family the biggest lesson of yours.

Salaam….

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Apakah kamu masih bertanya-tanya apa sebenernya pelejaran terbesar dalam hidupmu? Jangan terlalu dipikirin. Saya berani memintamu untuk berhenti sejenak.

Usah berpikir bikin janji untuk past life regression. Tak perlu konsultasi sama dukun lagi. Lihat saja sekitar Anda.

Siapa keluargamu?

Itulah pelajaran terbesar dalam hidupmu. Ayahmu, ibumu, saudaramu, anak-anakmu, isitrimu, suamimu…. Mereka menjadi bagian hidupmu bukan tanpa alasan.

Pikirkan sebaik apa Anda menjadi Anda sekarang – sebagai anak, saudara, ibu, bapak, dll….

Jika kamu masih merasa kurang baik, segeralah perbaiki diri dan saat itulah kamu mengerjakan PR kamu dalam hidup – keluarga.

Jangan lupakan keluargamu, orang-orang yang sesungguhnya dekat denganmu dalam hidupmu. Jangan abaikan mereka, atau kamu gagal dalam ujian kehidupan dan HARUS mengulang di sesi selanjutnya. Kamu nggak pengen mengulang ujian yang sama kan?

Lihatlah sekelilingmu lagi…

Keluarga lah pelajaran terbesarmu..

Salaam….

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Temasek – January 5, 2016 – 9:00pm

2016 Resolution – #2

Oh my…. And it is January 2, 2016. I feel like not ready to change the year – 363 to end this cycle and I haven’t decided if my resolution is fixed yet or need some trimming.

Last week I collected 5 things to focus on in 2016. Too many for a focus but yeah I need to get distracted sometimes ha ha….

So….

  1. I promise to always have some flower when not traveling: easy to have some stems of fresh color in a jar but not traveling for at least one week is still a question. I hope I have more time to see the flower survive for more than one week.
  2. Let me always support animal rescuers. I can’t do it myself with my current type of job. Really, I have to support those kind people better.
  3. I’ve gained too much weight and I MUST handle this problem. No choice: this year I have to take diet seriously and exercise consistently. Get ready for ready space for my swimsuit and gym-suit.
  4. I should be more productive…. Oh no…. How should I explain this to myself? Write more, read more, draw more, etc more — to reach a better target.
  5. And, be balanced! inside out, left and right, back and front

Enough?
I think so.
So, let’s do it!
Yes!!!

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Two happy cats are with me 🙂

Temasek – January 2, 2016 – 4:51am