The Call

What colour is soul?
When the call is here, listen.
Skin colour is off.

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Watching β€œSoul” again and still finding it refreshing 😍

one of those I purchased because it is definitely worth re-watching

Clean Up

Cleaning up the yard
From dry leaves and broken twigs.
Summer is coming.

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when you want to eat healthy but your friends think it dirty – a bit of excessively-fermented tempe, chicken feet and soup from any vegetable left in the fridge 😝

Speed

Deaccelerate,
Accelerate on the road.
Life is not a race.

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Fasting is a very familiar way of life to Javanese. Called pasa or poso, fasting in Javanese culture is always related to the effort to self align. Many Javanese like doing fasting with or without meditation (tapa brata or topo broto) depending on their commitment.

While Javanese Muslim do at least one month of fasting per year in Ramadhan, fasting in Javanese culture itself came even much earlier before Islam was introduced. While in Islam fasting is between dawn to dusk and the same restriction is commonly applied to all kinds of fasting, Javanese fasting is more varied both in term of period and restriction.

Fasting helps Javanese slow down the pace in their mind, regulate the speed of their ambitious behaviour upon life goals, train themselves to be patient.

There are several kinds of fasting in Javanese culture that are still practiced by relatively many nowadays.

1. Regular fasting
This fasting is done only from dawn to dusk like the Islamic fasting. This is a common practice, many Javanese parents use this kind of fasting to train their children about how to manage their immediate excessive desires and concentration in under pressure situation. I remember when we were elementary and high schoolers, we were instructed by parents to do fasting on Monday and Thursday during yearly school testing weeks. Yes, I felt more focused on my study as I had to prioritise tasks to save energy. Brilliant!

2. Mutih
Mutih is derived from the word putih (white in Javanese, Indonesian, Malay). During this fasting, a person is restricted to eat other than white rice and fresh water for 24 hours started either at dawn or dusk. Ordinary Javanese can do it for one day, three or seven. Yet more advanced (usually senior) Javanese would extend the period as per commitment.

3. Ngasrep or nganyep
Ngasrep is derived from the word asrep that means cool or cold; while nganyep from the word anyep means tasteless. In this kind of fasting the food and drink should be all cool and tasteless. The person is suggested to eat only boiled vegetable without adding taste (salt, sugar, oil, sauces, etc) and drink fresh water. It is mostly done in three days.

3. Ngrowot
Ngrowot is a word derived from the word krowot that means Javanese common carbo source except rice. The person who does this fasting will only eat carbo non rice like sweet potato, suwek (konjac), gembili, gembolo (English please….), taro, cassava and other tubers.

4. Ngebleng
Ngebleng means staying in; so doing this, a person will do regular fasting but very limited food intake allowed without leaving room or house, not meeting anyone, just doing meditation or doing household chores without distraction from anyone. Someone can do it three and seven days and forty days. Not many are doing this as this is a challenging one: not easy to find a place. This fasting is quite heavy because it does not allow sufficient food intake for a long time.

5. Pati geni (pati: turned off, geni: fire)
It literally means β€œfire turned off”. This is the highest level of Javanese fasting as the restriction applied really tests the person’s very high commitment: s/he is not allowed to eat, drink, sleep including fall asleep and see any light both artificial and natural. How long? The shortest is 24 hours, maximum unlimited. Note: if s/he sleeps or falls asleep, s/he has to restart the fasting.

There are other kinds of fasting in Javanese culture which were done by very limited people and have been left by many due to the impracticality such as pasa ngidang (from the word kidang or deer) in which a person is only allowed to eat raw foliage like a deer, pasa ngalong (from the word kalong or bat) only eating ripe fruit from the tree, pasa kungkum (bathing up to chin level either in the pool, river or shallow sea) without eating or drinking, etc. There are probably other kinds of fasting as Javanese used to be very creative in β€œfasting engineering” hahaha….

Javanese believe that with fasting they will connect better to themselves and inevitably with the ultimate power of the universe. They will usually become confident people without showing off. Those fasting committed people β€”if doing it right and without evil intensionβ€” will be a highly spiritual people and voluntarily dedicated to environment and people.

Javanese believe that this type of people bring blessings to the surroundings although blessings are not always tangibly seen. The blessings can be as simple as peaceful daily life with little conflict,

Do we still have many of them? In very silent villages around Java island we might still find a few. They are traditional farmers who feel the need to connect with the ultimate power as only that can help them manage their humble farming that is now severely industrialised and exploited.

Hope we still have them in silence. Amen.

Alfatihah.

β€œtoo much” in all kinds: portion, protein, sugar, carb – never mind, it’s good! πŸ₯° my yesterday’s break fasting

Flowing

River is flowing.
Stuck, it is lack of clean air,
Home of mosquitoes.

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Keep flowing and feeling good no matter what. Some people think that is a suggestion to someone weak. Nope! That is a sentence to someone who knows that life is so abundant and doesn’t offer thing except feel-good. Kindly know. 😊

Yet those who don’t know interpret most things only from what the senses capture in the surface.

May all beings be happy.

Dewi Saraswati, the goddess through which knowledge, sciences and art is flowing; my dewi πŸ₯°

Neighbour

See you, dear neighbour.
The old prays, the new welcomes.
Good memories stay.

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One of my neighbours move to a new place as they need an apartment with 3 bedrooms after having a new baby. We met at the basement carpark when they were stuffing cartons and stuffs to the Lalamove lorry.

The wife gave me their new address that is near my office so it can be easy to visit them someday.

We pray for your nice warm new home. We bless our 4-year neighbourhood. Thank you.

Salam…. πŸ™πŸΌ

thanks (some) neighbours

A Dream

A dream is shadow
Who is loyal to the light,
Acting as the dark.

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Weekend is always the second best after everything even when it is cloudy and full of rain everyday. πŸ’

a dream destination: a place where there are more cattle than people πŸ₯°

Letβ€˜s Meet

Let’s meet
Under a tree that we climbed when we were children.

The tree will say
β€œHere are the children who perched like birds the whole day to eat my fruit.”

Let’s meet
At the river whose bank we used to build sand figures.

The sand will say
β€œHere are the children who tap and slap me to look stunning.”

Let’s meet
At the crossroad where we departed to where our bikes agreed to go.

The road will say
β€œHere are the children who noisily negotiated which place to visit”.

Let’s meet
Once again before the next once-again.

The rendezvous will say
β€œHere are the children who have refused to lose excitement in life and continued to be young in heart,
Even when age has taken some muscles away.”

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my childhood was a perfect one! πŸ₯°

Consciousness, Real?

What truly exists is what’s tangible. Nope. What truly exists is stories. Nope. What truly exists is belief. Nope. What truly exists is interconnection. Nope. What truly exists is mind. Nope. So what truly exists?

Look inside. Layer by layer….

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❣️

My Mother Said

My mother said
You were a cute baby
Even when crying.

My mother said
You were a beautiful toddler
Running around,
Bubbling all words.

My mother said
You were a cheerful girl
Cycling around
Climbing up trees
Playing drowning in the river.

My mother said
You were a beautiful woman
Arguing every ideas from me
Showing me your strong desires
Moving to where life brought us.

My mother said
You are an adult woman
Enjoying life differently from me
Giving me what you’ve promised to be
Loving what you love with no doubt
Living life with smiles and warm heart.

My mother said
I love you
I bless you
Wherever you are.
You’re loved
You’re blessed
However you are.

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My mother called, we laughed a lot today. She said I laughed as I did when I was a baby. How happy I have been to be her daughter. Lots of hugs and kisses, Ibu.

Alfatihah.

πŸ’

RC Gorman’s Mother and Baby

Good Fact

The earth is loyal
To the sun, and vice versa.
A very good factβ€”

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Note: A fact is a fact. It is neutral in its nature. Good or bad is a label given by human beings in their favour. The best option is to responsibly respond to the fact to stay in good mood.

loving sweet and savoury in the same plate & this is not neutral! this is naturally a feel-good! πŸ₯°

Colour

Eyes see colour hue
Splattering on a palette
Ready to draw taste.

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Excited for my kitchen will be! 😘😘😘

clay kitchenware makes the taste more earthy and original πŸ₯°
colourful kitchen tools are cute and make cooking more fun πŸ₯°
πŸ₯°

Small Joy

Blooming orchids show
Vibrant hues waited a while
Without counting time.

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I think so much surprise comes to us because we just do without craving for the expected result. Not 100% correct, but that is most what has happened to me. ☺️

Welcome, blooming flowers. You have been as stubborn as the gardener. God bless you! 😍

Sunday is full of cleaning, laundry and sweet surprises!

Salaam.

joyful day celebrating 4 stems of orchid buds from one pot 🀩

A Path

A path to a place
Is walked through trees and uphills.
A meadow is waiting
Opening another path
To a warm home filled with love.

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My friend sent me three photos of our beloved β€œsimbah” (those senior people who are considered wise or those who have grandchildren) – Javanese). Most people call these simbah β€œbatik maker” because they make batik to earn a living. We both call them β€œbatik artist”. More than that through what we’ve seen and heard about them, we’ve considered they are artists of their life. How they embrace their humble life gracefully and consciously has always amazed both of us. They live like calm river flowing to the sea. They don’t struggle against what others think about or do to them. They live as if there is no hindrance and disturbance in life.

When my friend told me some things about those three honourable ladies, I secretly harvested some lessons. It is very critical reminder for me who is still very much attached to a feeling of (accidentally) underestimated and (slightly) humiliated because of one petty case. These three artists of life have silently told me to let go.

What a loud shot in a quiet weekend!

No apology is needed. All is gradually let go through my own wish and willingness. This is my life and I only want to be the artist of my own life. πŸ’

Thank you, artists of life. You’re blessed. πŸ’

Salaam.

Mbah Suhir, 93 years old πŸ’ matur sembah nuwun
Mbah Erah, 87 years old πŸ’ matur sembah nuwun
Mbah Isah, 82 years old πŸ’ matur sembah nuwun

Colours

The biggest secrets
Are sitting on the eyelids
Without disguising.

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there’s a rainbow that beautifully hides in front of white cloud, subtly showing that life is alive as it is – good morning!
clearer before fading away

Blessed


I love
You
Without throbbing heart

I love
You
Without nervous mind

I love
You
Without going date

I love
You
Without touching each other

I love
You
Without intense conversation

I love
You
With the breeze of mountains

I love
You
With the wave of oceans

I love
You
With the dew of mornings

I love
You
With the sound of music

I love
You
With the hue of flowers

I love
You
With the flow of dreams

I love
You
With all whose reason is unseen.

How rejoicing and exciting.


(The Lover’s love to the Beloved)
love is never wasted

Autumn

Dark night starts early
In fall when red leaves sway down
To earth cooling off.

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pretty crimson leaves covering the earth somewhere (from Pinterest)

While normally talking about spirituality and self love, one day one bestie and I conversed about money. To me she appears much more calculating than all of us in the circle. She manages her money very carefully and (of course) influences her friends to do so.

β€œIf we feel ready with both predictable and measured emergency issues, we can feel good in more time than not.” 100% agree!

She is one of two besties teaching us to save at least 12-month income for emergency, fully pay all the loan the soonest possible, stay liquid rather than fixed (assets), not lend any assets to anyone anymore even with one’s emergency reason. I stubbornly disagreed with last one.

And she said all should be done soon because 2023 seems gloomy.

I didn’t take her words until watching a bunch of YouTube videos about financial analysis and forecast by experts and practitioners for the past two years.

Not hoping the darkness happens but there is no harm to prepare the umbrella before it rains.

Please save us. Amen…

Andalusia

Lines of orange trees
Tell stories of a city
With its bright fruit juice.

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Andalusia 🎼
orange trees in the yard of Mezquita de Cordoba πŸ’ (from Pinterest) – they taste bitter πŸ™ƒ

Library

Opening the door,
She finds books and thesaurus
Stacked high to the sky.

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What else is this life mainly but library? Read your books! πŸ’•

β€œRead your books” is excepted from one Quran verse β€œRead your records (the word kitabaka can also mean your books or your scrolls). You alone are sufficient this day to take account of yourself” that implies self observation, self evaluation, self assessment, self correction.

Ouch! An internal audit it is β€” becoming the auditor and the auditee: acting different roles in the same place using different points of view. Doable and sustainable! 😍

May all beings be happy.

library in Seoul! my colleague said it is located in the same area with our office – I’m ready to go! 😁
sent by a colleague this afternoon; ok then, I’m ready to be assigned there 🀀 – Korea was never in my bucket list but this beautiful place has confirmed it now is! 😍

A Whole

A hole curls sweetly
As a center of a whole.
Delicious truthβ€”

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what is one? one slice? one plate of apple slices? one unsliced apple?

Stories to Revisit (ranting)

Steps measure long roads
Where historians write stories
Tracking their own mind.

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History isn’t about what’s written only but it is also about what’s tied to myths and folklores. Reading history books by ignoring what’s verbally circulated by people through myths and folklores is like describing a rose through picture: failing to experience the touch and the fragrance. People are always the actual sources of historyβ€” without them history doesn’t exist.

History versions are as many as heads on earth as all people have their own life history related to certain incidents in the world; not all of them though write. Many save their history in head and heart with different reasonsβ€” no time, no tools, no courage! My blog is my history book (that to some brilliant people looks like full of unnecessary complaints and cheap experiences). I love my history book how much ever people laugh at it. Hey! When people laugh at it, it means my comedy works. 😁

Salaam.

see you, Cordoba! this place is one of those I must revisit because of the history πŸ’•πŸ’•
see you, Sagrada Familia β€” I stayed for one hour outside, not being able to enter the so much crowded gate, I will be back to see if the history goes on 😍
see you, Grand Mosque of Paris – I will be back to its historical garden πŸ’
London? I’ll be back! history is well preserved there
see you? umm maybe not….

Loud & Clear Sign

Loud enough and clearβ€”
Thunder strikes and rain begins.
Children play outside.

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Your signs are well read, well noted, well understood. Well…. 😎

today’s lunch: it is what is called good sign! 😁 tempe is a good sign that high quality and quantity protein is as affordable as fermented soybeans

Birthday

On your birthday, Love,
Magic sends sweet messages
And flowers and gifts.

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Ibu turns 78 today. It is a 78 years of human beings, 54 years of a wife, 53 years of a mother of 5. 47 years of being my motherβ€” maybe the most annoying of facing this one rascal among 5 angels. πŸ™ƒ She might not be always happy being her but she is full of sweet smiles and words of encouragement.

If her life is a painting, it will be a colourful canvas full of fragrant tropical flowers and powerful herbs that can be concocted as medicines especially for her family and friends. Beautiful and full of healing for othersβ€” No wonder her family and neighbours highly respect her.

Ibu, I know you never like big celebration and that’s why we only send stupid messages on your birthday. But I know you always miss us to annoy you and that’s why we give surprises! Much love today and forever!

Salaam…

I sent this picture to her; maybe she was wondering why I didn’t send picture of a real birthday cake as I normally do. She will be surprised!

Oct 9, 2022

Good Food

River flows. Wind blows.
Birds perch on a twig and chirp,
Enjoying good food.

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Life is not really WYSIWYG, there are layers that can be peeled off like peeling off onions layered skins.

What is seen in a river? Its flow. What’s behind the flow?

What is felt in a wind? Its blow. What’s behind the flow?

What’s behind the singing birds? What’s behind good food?

Something looking like nothing yet there are powerful layers of realities that wrap another deeper level of reality. At the end of the peeled-off onion, what is it? The eyes see β€œnone” that can be immediately ignored, the self sees β€œthe essence” that can only be understood through accepting in silence.

What an experience as a human being! Maybe this is a euphoria of being alive, or being aware? This is a good time and I will always feel good no matter what. πŸ’

Thank you for everything. πŸ’

good breakfast for a tempe(h) lover πŸ₯°
good snack for a pumpkin lover – run out of honey this time

Weekend Starts Again

Jazzy weekend starts
With a smile under the rain.
I’ve been missing you.

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how beautiful the world is and all that has been here

The Space

She be, Beloved,
The space not the furniture,
Lets all come and go.

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If only maturity could be implanted like nose or breast or whatever, I would still choose to get mature naturally through ageing and weakening although it takes almost half of century of struggling and pain to find only its gate. Damn late!

One maturity breakthrough of my life was when realising I should be more a β€œspace human being” (my teacher calls it β€œroom human being”) rather than a β€œfurniture human being”.

Salaam….

a hey from the space to bodies floating in it 😘

Come True

Come true, Beloved,
Wishes colouring this life,
Bringing love and joyβ€”

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My mini daruma dolls package arrived from Japan. Now it is time to make wishes and draw the left eye.

May all beings be happy!

arriving from trip then checking the mail box at the basement this afternoon and found these package among all letters and magazines! πŸ₯°
each colour has meaning! quickly copied them! (ignore the ugly handwriting 😁) now let’s make wishes and paint their left eye 🧿 then let them take a rest in the box to open and be drawn right eye when the wishes come true 😎